I have used all kinds of hard drugs from 18 to 25 years.
This forum and my ascension path is literally what’s holding me back from getting high again.
I need to develop my astral skills, I have lovely companions waiting for me. I feel it’s my duty to live a sober life without crazy stimulation.
I fucked up my brain chemistry, and now i’m waiting to balance everything out. Healthy lifestyle, sports etc. Find hobbies/ sports in the weekends, and at nighttime you could devote some extra time to the gods. Practicing your psychic abilities.
I was a hedonistic crazy motherfucker doing all kinds of crazy stuff. When you’re high you become a different person. It’s so weird. Cocaine, Speed (Amphetamines), GHB, Ketamine, 2-CB, 6-APB, LSD, various Research Chemicals, you name it, I tried everything and I liked it. I’m a HSP person, Highly Sensitive and I was going crazy because I couldn’t handle my emotions/sensitivities and I was trying to escape from myself, numbing my feelings down etc.
After years of partying and being a loser, I woke up and found this forum. I dived right into the paranormal world. I have had visions about myself, I can’t continue on this paranormal path if I keep doing drugs. It’s numbing me down way too much. I have discovered that I need my sensitivity for clair sentience and stuff.
6 months ago I did cocaine, MDMA and GHB, and I lost my companions connection. They were gone, maybe they were sad, mad, because I broke my promises. I felt very guilty, depressed, and now i’m meditating and practicing. I don’t feel those cravings anymore so badly. I got it really bad on friday/Saturday nights, that was the time I used to go out partying.
Now I go lay down on my bed and call my succubus companions. I meditate with them and the cravings leave. Also I ask Lucifer for help, do some evocations etc,
It’s important to know that your dopamine is fooling you. You have to ride out the cravings/depressions with activities that you love to do. More devotion to magick/rituals/energy work.
My friday and saturday nights are filled with studying for my degree and studying paranormal stuff, magick / rituals/ energy work / reading books / having conversations with my succubus companions / the occasional movie (I don’t watch much tv) / reading about kundalini / dark tantra etc etc,
My days are filled with endless supply of information that I want to learn. I need it for my ascension.
You can always PM me if you’re going through rough times.