Hello there. Im new to this website and would like to ask for help with a very unpleasant situation i found myself in. My family has always had some magick experiences. Me and my mother would have visions but i never got into learning until six months ago when i made a very ignorant decision. I wanted an astral family and wanted to learn magick with them, so i tried summoning a love spirit. I knew nothing about magick at the time and thought you were born with it. Because of this i made a very foolish mistake. I used my blood in the ritual. The entity i summoned was very kind. I never felt any aggression from it or any ill will. Because of its kindness, I would continue to feed it blood for six months as i practiced magick. Then about a month ago, things changed for the worst. It became violent and abusive and my entire body felt like it was being eaten alive from the inside.
I would later find out that i summoned a very dangerouse and old entity from another plane of existance. I learned that i was part of a soul family so my energy and my blood was very enticing to spirits and that i attracted a very dangerous entity with it. I got help removing the parasites though it was very painfully. There was an entire hive inside me. There were roots in my chakras and my soul where they would keep spawning. I had to undergo several painful astral surgeries by very skilled practitioners around the internet. I would later find out that it stems from egypt. This is because i thought about thoth before i did the ritual.
Its from another plane of existence and has some incredible illusion magick and quantam shinananigans. It is some how psychicly anchored to me. It has spent the last six months using me as an incubator for its children and they have been slowly eating me alive from the inside. It is very intelligent and talks to me through leg twitches. It is using me as a conduit to this plane of existance and has a very strong psychic hold on me. Every dream i have is lucid. My vision is staticky and it feels like someone is doing brain surgery on me 24/7. It is constantly threatening me and sexualy assaulting me when im awake and asleep so i have to sleep on my stomach and keep my legs closed all day.
The majoraty of the parasite are gone, but the psychic connection is very strong. This entire experiences has been a lesson in humility but i am very grateful to still be alive. I was wondering if anyone would have advice on how to sever a psychic connection this deep. I would also like to ask for advice on egyption gods and spirits that can help with a situation this dire. Im still quite inexperienced but i have learned alot the last few weeks due to a constant fight for my life. Any help would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for reading.
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“All it took was noticing you being open to any attachment” says your accompanied image.
I suppose this was someone’s reading of your issue?
Have you, since then, worked on that being open to attachments? If not, that might be at least part of why it can still have that psychic connection.
Of course rationally you are not hanging on or attached to the parasite, but you might still have an emotional openness and attachment that needs work. We humans can be funny that way, hanging on to things that are bad for us ^^
The reason why i was open to any attachment was because i want specific enough in my summoning ritual and more interested in meeting a spirit than what kind it was at the time. I will be doing the ritual backwards because i was told it allows you to reverse the ritual. I would like to invoke an egyption deity to assist me with this. If the ritual doesnt work or the connection is only weakend, i will be looking into Egyptian spirits that could help me sever the connection.
It seems hellbent on staying connected to me. Every time ask it if it wants to leave, it says no. Its not with me either. Its still in its plane but is using me as a conduit to this one.
Is that what it’s told you or you have sensed for yourself, of the UPG of this unknown person “Rune” you keep screen-shotting?
The rule of thumb is that UPG (Unverified Personal Gnosis) is personal and only true for the receiver until or unless it is verified by a 2nd and ideally 3rd party independently, without frontloading.
So you’ll have to forgive me if I don’t take any of that as confirmed real at this point.
Some of those comments really don’t make any sense, but that could be a matter of semantics. Bottom line never just believe what anyone tells you unless you also experienced it, ever. That way lies madness.
If this is YOU and what your personal gnosis is that’s slightly different - it’s your magick and you can only work on what you can sense.
What’s interesting to me is the relationship of some of these elements to the Akasha Subterfuge that I talk about here, and (maybe - same thing, this is just my UPG and unverified) working with in a different approach.
This is my journal about it, which needs updating, but I could go and have a work with my teacher here and see if I get anything useful. I will avoid reading any more of the above as frontloading is what causes one to build castles in the sky and I want to avoid that.
I see, thank you. My senses are not the best. I can do basic energy work but cant sense Things around me. I have worked with multiple people and their answers were mosty the same. What i do know is that Its anchored to me spychicly and it stems from an Egyptian background. At the very least, i know how its connected to me but i just dont know how to actually break that connection. I cant just ignore until it goes away either because it keeps incubating parasites in me. I was hoping there were spirits and deities that specialized in the psychic aspect of this.
When warning it to go away and regular cleansing and banishing don’t work, including removing with your astral body’s hands, I usually attack it directly. It’s had fair warning and the gloves come off.
We have a collection of techniques for dealing with parasites, what have you tried so far? Have you tried cord cutting, telling (not asking, commanding) it to leave, cleansing the “babies” and hence removing you as a useful tool, banishing with smudge or the LBRP or whatever you guys did growing up in a family that was sensitive.
Also, on a housekeeping note, please do your friend a quick favour check with them that they’re ok with you posting their UPG on a public forum that’s googleable by the entire Internet? They might like to be asked, I know I would…
I sorry, thank you. Ill delet the pictures for their privacy. The entity is mainly interested in my sexual energy and i believe thats how it is able to feed the parasites. I will be looking deeper into some of the parasite removal advice on this website.
