My relationship with Lucifer is the most strongest between all of Them, so I didnāt really worry about it. But I felt somehow that if something will happens, Sitri can be the potential Deity in that case. Iāve just felt it.
Its how I dealt with him for over 20 years. Say sorry and let him do want they want to do and they will move on.
Iāll think upon it (yes, maybe it coming from my ego, or I just wanted to find out whats going on, IF something else), hopefully I will have the time before He steps, if He really want to do what He said to me.
Damn I was having a shower this morning and actually thinking of you Nagash. I thought you went idle. I come to read another thread of yours, the context doesnāt surprise me.
Ahh the chase! The woman wonāt stop until that chase ends. We canāt give you the actual answer if itās a test or a threat. Maybe youād like to hear test, but maybe the threat is within the test. Daemons rebel, and to rebel is to exceed boundaries
Damn I was having a shower this morning and actually thinking of you Nagash.
Oh, youā¦
I thought you went idle. I come to read another thread of yours, the context doesnāt surprise me.
That was my plan and I feel that I should be, for reasons.
Looks like my experiences isnāt so āacceptableā on BALG, which is sad because I thought at very first that this is that place where you can share yours, and talking about those (this is the reason why I didnāt share more touchy ones). So yes, I should went idle and/or leave, anyway.
But Iām glad youāve read those what Iāve already shared.
Ahh the chase! The woman wonāt stop until that chase ends. We canāt give you the actual answer if itās a test or a threat. Maybe youād like to hear test, but maybe the threat is within the test.
Yes, but youāre gave a good answer with this one.
Daemons rebel, and to rebel is to exceed boundaries
I had sex a lot of Deities, but none of Them became mad at me in the case when Iāve asked Them to please, letās find an another date for this. None of Them. So the main reason why I donāt know what should I do or how should I handle the situation isā¦ Iāve never experienced this before.
A Deity, who mad at me now? Itās brand new to me and I donāt want to make another mistakes, at all.
Which makes this situation more complicated is, that I like to having sex with Sitri. And you seeā¦ now Iāve got a threat from Him with something what Iāve enjoyed with Him before, and what I āfeltā from Him (the essence of this act) is somethingā¦ raw. Not that what Iāve experienced from Him before.
You have at least 6 full topics about demonic dickings alone and are at 3,137 Likes for a total of 887 individual posts, making your average 3.54 Likes per post.
Short of us all wearing mandatory strap-ons/boners and queuing around the block at your house 24/7 in the manner of the Kaāaba, I fail to see what more warm reception in general you could receive?
Yeah, I thought you were one of the more recently renowned members. Nagash while you are young (youāre around my age) youāll be quite serious and matureā¦ contradictory enough as you age youāll develop this chidlike playfulness, almost like your inner child will come out the more you age. Your skin will be tight and youth will be on your side even when you age.
Are you sure this is sitri ? I agree with what the other poster said about establishing boundaries , Iād either brush it off and stand my ground or stop working with this spirit.
I canāt say whether certain goetics have a habit of being greedy vampires because Iāve always established boundaries and Iāve never been threatened. I just find it odd a goetic would threaten to force you unless you made an agreement with it that this is okay , on his terms so to speak rather than yours.
Our relationship momentarily is about sex only (Iāve never thought it will happened but I think it became better and deeper - but anyway what I know about Sitri, it isnāt strange from Him) and advices if He decides to do it.
Iām curious how people who astral project (I do a different plane personally) differ real entities from thoughtforms created by them subconsciously or by others to fit the likeness of a demon, god, angel, etc that wants to use them for energy.
I didnāt think that I would have sex with Deities more than people doing it in their life. Daily (usually) sex isnāt too much in my opinion, and it isnāt only about blind pleasure, it can be (and it is) much more, and it can also help me in my developing. But of course, Iāve also doing it because I love Them.
In the last months I having sex only with those Deities whom I working with, but it is changed a bit, for nowdays Iāve doing it mostly with Lucifer. Sitri has became more active around me in sex related stuffs, and the Others showed up for this a bit less often. Iām sure itās because of Lucifer, anyway.
So this isnāt unpleasant to me to force myself to avoid sex with Them. I rather having sex with Them, and avoid humans, forā¦ eternity. Or at least in this lifetime.
So theyāre sort of your spiritual lover, makes sense lel.
Exactly, They are. So while most of people handle Them in a different level, They are a part of my life in several forms as a Lover, or much moreā¦ but this relationship between me and Lucifer is more complex.
I have more serious intentions with Him in the future (so He isnāt really ājust a spirit loverā to me), and looks like it is mutual.
I need to get me one of those
It is up to you, Dear. You wonāt lose anything, it is a wonderful thing and based on my experiences, this is far more pure than any āhuman loveā in the material plane.
This is the reason why I didnāt want to have anyone in my life. I want to grow and became better, my focus is on my evolution, and there isnāt human who could accept this, or whom I could, honestly. Iām extremely mistrustful. But I can trust Him, absolutely.
This sounds so eerily similar to my experience with Asmodeus. I have always had the trouble of entities entering my dreams (especially during daytime naps) and one day he showed up soon after Lerajie. He was well endowed, more so than any human man could attest I imagineā¦ and before I knew it, he was mounting me. I wouldnāt call it r*pe but I hadnāt exactly had the chance to realize what was happening before it was happening. Since then Iāve had to really put up boundaries. Iāve astral traveled to Luciferās throne-room because he had asked me to summon all the kings as a way of showing I was worthy (both in magic and emotional health) and asked him if I still had to summon Asmodeus after this, he said I didnāt have to.
Now that was the bad part downā¦ The thing that seems to happen to me is female or feminine demons seem to always be after me. Gremory started with me during a nap, thatās how we met, what a way to become acquainted. Lerajie is also an occasional visitor. I even had Haures, who manifests as a woman covered in flames with me, go all sweet on me on one astral trip to hell. I donāt think Iām in your ranks @Nagash but Iām getting there. lol
Nagash the following comment I shared on a different post but it applies to your situation as well. Your post and responses show and prove why a conjurer/operator/sorcerer or whatever term you define yourself canāt always be nice to spirits. Thatās the reason why Solomonic Sorcery especially The Goetia, as many ppl on this board practices, have techniques and rites to punish spiritual entities. The Chain of curses, or placing the sigil in a iron box with placing that box on hot coals, or physically beating that spiritās signature/sigil with a frail or flogger. Those techniques of discipline help established the boundaries with an unruly spirit. If done with the right focus the spirit will usually fall in line and act right. As a last resort that spiritās link to the conjurer/operator/sorcerer is permanently severed and that spirit bound i.e. waded so not to molest that conjurer again but thatās really only needed in extreme cases of bad alignment.
I know reading through the posts and comments on this forum most people veer towards demonolatry even if those individuals donāt profess to be demonolatrists. Thatās cool thereās nothing wrong with being a demonolatrist as long as the spiritual entity plays is congenial. However, when a spirit becomes unruly and the conjurer/operator/sorcerer prostrates as a response that makes himself or herself a more willing doormat for abuse. Which is not gonna encourage the spirit to act right. Something a spirit needs itās astral @$$ beat to get her or him or it to act right.
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