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I think this is somewhat normal, that emotions can obscure divination results. It’s one of the reasons it’s hard to divine lottery numbers, and that people came up with ARV - associative remote viewing, to add a layer of abstraction between the viewed and the viewer and remove the emotional component.
So I’d say that’s what you need to do - fid a way to sidestep the emotional impact. E.g. by blinding the reading and only analyzing it after the results are in.
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Do you have any practical experience in magick?
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If so, what exactly do you practice and how long have you practiced?
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