Hello!!! First off I am a catholic with an interest in the left hand path. Do I believe in the Christian God? Yes. Do I believe he is good? Yes. Do I believe in Satan? Do I believe Satan is evil!? Idk and that is the journey I find myself in. I want to find out for myself. And not just believe he is evil because I’m told he is.
Ok, So, I was just told that I have to say more for a proper introduction. I have very brief experience with magic from a Wiccan perspective which I dabbled with when I was in high school, then I came back to God which my family was very happy about. I will never forget an experience I had on 2 separate occasions at a metaphysical shop. On both times I was over at the book section looking at the different books and I kid you not on both times a book on Voodoo came flying off the shelves and landing at my feet. The lady there said "It’s calling to you."To this day I wonder about that moment.
A part of me wants to just dive in and free myself from the shackles that weigh me down. But, the other part that stops me is this still small voice “don’t open that door.” It feels like I am walking around with the angel and devil on my shoulder. Is it fear? Years of Catholic indoctrination? I am not sure. But, I do want to question and explore. I would like to ask if anyone knows of a good book that explains more of who Satan is. And my understanding of Satan is he is the same as Lucifer. If there is a difference I would like to be guided to the proper resources. Thank you!!