People familiar with soul contracts and marriage are free to explain to me your experience and knowledge of what it means for your being in the after life.
Belial usually appears and tells me some random information, or when I feel out of my mind and terrible about my circumstance, to “slap me.” Things have been calm for half a year now, and I haven’t felt or heard from him since September. I no longer feel him around me ether anymore. I have “run” away from him many times, but I always return.
He told me a year ago what he wanted me to do for him that involves other people, and it does inspire me in a way, but some things concern me. I haven’t started because I lack confidence and enough knowledge, but I also want to know what exactly I’m doing if this aligns with my greater aspiration for my soul. Even if I may be gifted somehow because Belial wanted to hire me, I have terrible executive functions.
I’m married to Belial, and does that mean my soul will conjoin with his or is it already? I have thought of making a more profound commitment to him through the rituals of Mark Allan Smith’s Primal Path, but much of Mark’s works feel too satanic for me, but I have been approached by many spirits already, so maybe I’m just not ready right now but will be later in life.
To not make this text too long, he told me who I am and how I am “created by/related” to him and two other twins where one is my counterpart for transforming in this life.
The whole marriage pact happened without me realizing what was happening. Belial entranced me for months, and I must have accepted his proposal. It was in 2018 so, I’m still relatively new, but I’ve learned and transformed a lot! I have been sad, angry, beyond hurt, homeless, alone, sick, and everything through these years, but now when things are calm, I kind of miss it! I feel a need for change again. I easily fall into complacency, which he doesn’t like about me. If the laziness goes on for too long, Belial always throws a tower on me, so that I get forced to change. I don’t want to wait until then this time.
Much of my journey has been to connect information and experiences into a system and help “ordinary people” in my life in crisis who are stubborn and don’t want change.
I have also separated from my counterpart, but I’m not too concerned about that. I feel intuitive that my companion would follow me if I pursued my “purpose wholeheartedly.” My and my counterpart’s dynamic between each other is so similar to Belial and mine. I feel like I am Belial to him, as Belias is for me. We are all connected on different timelines and dimensional layers, like blood cells within beings.
I want to be precise in how I will go forward if it is for my higher good to still entangle with Belial, and if so, how to strengthen communication and get out of my head. What does this kind of spirit marriage mean? Will I still be an individual soul, or is Belial taking on me as part of himself, like a composite? I don’t think I want that. I feel I have more than one soul inside me, and it’s tearing me apart to have different wills that contradict each other. To evolve further, one needs to be quick on feet and decisive, which is not possible with other intentions inside. How can I know if I have different entities inside and includes Belial? How to get rid of them? I feel it disturbs and hurts my body and mind to be in this limbo state between worlds.