No one is saying you are pointing them out as normies 
never did I tag you or comment towards you what so ever. You kinda defeated your own comment by making that assumption lol
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Oh donāt worry. Nobody sounds like Velenos 
They broke the mold when they made him.
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Ok good
Velenos is UNIQUE !
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Yeah, without getting myself deleted for being political, thatās not wrong.
But humans are social creatures, and have evolved to survive in groups. To that end, we are wired to conform to the group consensus. If you lived in a small town you might find even more pressure to hide certain interests.
(Take a look at the untouchables in India for oppression of thought, the people on here from Iran that have to hide their practices - if youāre in America, it isnāt so great right now but it could be worse, there are still options yet.)
Online forums like BALG make it easier to express individuality without being silenced or ostracised, and other online places, not so much. Thatās kinda new in history.
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At times, I do feel lonely. Iām ok with it. Why? Because most people my age have interests that are at their core, a waste of time. If people wanna get drunk and gossip - cool! Itās just not my cup of tea.
I enjoy the loneliness, as it gives me oodles of time to read and walk my path. I have one friend that I share my occult adventures with, and Iām ok with that.
Plus, loneliness is a sort of energy you can fire at whatever ritual you are doing.
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I somewhat doubt this. However I do believe our way of living (in society) is part of it. Not the whole.
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Ok, so Iāll ask: Why exactly do you feel lonely then? I guess I misunderstood you somehow.
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Well said.
I have cousins and friends and we tend to share ideas but they mostly care about gossip. They donāt acknowledge anything I share at all and when they disagree they block me. Thatās an example. Yes ofc the solution is find more people. But those people are so far out of reach I have to find them on anonymous forums or forums like these. A person in person talk is a beautiful thing that can happen. And yes this depends on the environment you live in.
I ask this question because I wanted to hear other peopleās experiences in this phase of life or how they went about it.
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Oh right. Itās one thing to be a hermit by choice, itās another to be a pariah, or censured and criticized without being allowed to defend yourself. Thatās really hurtful, worse than just being alone, imo.
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Crap, sorry I forgot about the rules here. Didnāt mean to bring up systems/politics
Yes. The community in my state happen to be people that are hardwired that way. There are some over here that donāt think that way though. Itās just the matter of talking to more strangers. I admit my description was kind of a semi-rant as well so it came off as a generalization.
I guess one part is accepting that most people do not approve of what youāre doing. And they have every right to do that. Nobody needs to like what youāre doing or understand it, if you wanted that, youād be no different from religious people who want to convert everyone. (Not saying you do this, just explaining, ok?)
So, accepting that frees you from the feeling of having to fit in.
However, it will also make you realise that there are parts of your practice you probably should keep to yourself, for your own good.
Donāt expect too much. Donāt expect to find lots of people who understand you, but rather be grateful for everyone you meet in your life who does, even if itās just one or two.
And as for people who are not interested in your practice and who only care about gossip and how their vegetables grow : Try to appreciate them as part of humanityās diversity, and find beauty in that.
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Yeah thatās true
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Sister,
Me too! Itās great, isnāt it?
The left-hand path is foundered upon isolation, that you will become an independent deity.
Anyway, where I live the population consists of scrapings from the bottom of the gene pool. Fuck John and Elsie Lunchbucket and their idiot kids! Iām so much better than them and wonāt waste my precious incarnation lowering myself to interact with them; but Iām a systemās man.
Al.
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Yeah man the path of the Magician can really be a lonely road sometimes. Just to blend in with the fabric of society it seems like you have keep large parts of who you are hidden. Not everyone feels that way sure but thatās been my experience.
This is one nice part of being of a BALG member. Here we get to be around our peers and like minded people.
Just my thoughtsā¦
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Start a journal on BALG and use it to talk about your experiences and ideas 
itās helped me a lot, I love to write, and while it might not be an instant feedback loop like an irl conversation, itās nice to know your words are at least out there, expressed, and potentially being read by some shadow audience.
Or next time youāre at a party and everyone is really drunk, start asking people about their āghost storiesā or if theyāre ever witnessed a āmiracleā. 
Even if people donāt share your views, Iād say quite a few people have had some kind of experience they canāt explain.
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All the timeā¦ itās tough
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If you study depression history. It correlates to anti-depression drugs. The whole psych industry that controls it admit that they drug people up on purpose just to make money. They keep them on anti-depressant drugs even when they donāt have depression. they did fake diagnosis.
ONly serious researches know about this truth. Lots of evil in the world. depression increase when these type of drugs come into existence. Often these drugs create depression instead of helping it. Itās a catch 22 thing.
Lots of cover ups cuz itās all about the money. Thereās tons of these kind of situation in the healthcare industry. itās all covered up by pharma and media. The point is, Self care is best care. Just learn about basics of health and your way better than depending on docs. you live in your body. some things you know more than docs. not to say that docs arenāt important. they are. but for some things, you know better.
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