@anon25000386 I’ve noticed that as well. It seems the more I grow in my occult practices and power, getting the results I want the less like “everyone else” I feel. I don’t think they are stupid or beneath me and my “enlightened self” ( I still have so much to learn and do, as does even the most experienced of occult masters, which I’m definitely not a "master occultist by any stretch ). It sometimes feels like I relate more to spirits than most “normies”. This is especially true in the South ( U.S.A. , Dixie, the Confederacy, whatever pleases ) where almost everyone is a “hell-fire and brimstone Christian”. I used to live in South-Eastern Virginia, in a large military area. Still the South ( we’re the capitol of the South ), but there is way more diversity and people of all mindsets. Here in North Carolina, especially way up here in the mountains, everyone seems to be the kind that would frown on my occult practices, especially if I said “Oh, I summon demons and angels regularly”, so I have nobody here I can talk with about such things, I don’t have any friends here. I just smile and nod my head, like a good bartender would, as they speak of their religious views while I’m unable to talk of my own spirituality.
Back in Virginia, I did a lot of partying, had many friends, dealt ( and did ) a lot of drugs, and played in bands from my teens to my 30s ( I’m a death metal/black metal guitarist that started playing at 14 [almost 47 now, tho most guess my age to be 25. Not a single wrinkle or gray hair] and, I won’t name-drop, but I played in bands that got paid when we played, people would come to shows because it was us playing, and played in touring bands that fans of this kind of metal may have heard of ). Given the kind of music I play and bands I’ve played and toured in, plus the imagery in our stage shows and our lyrics, many people assumed we were “devil worshipers” anyway, lol. I can definitely say I prefer the city to the country ( there is nothing here, 9/10 of the population are rednecks, and the only advantage to living so isolated is that I can shoot my guns all I want, the house is surrounded by thick woods so I can hunt all I want and not worry about what’s in season, tags, and bag limits/endangered species, as there are no cops and neighbors for miles. This means I can grow all the opium poppies I want ). That being said, I can enjoy my own company, so the only thing is meeting girls ( most of the beautiful country girls around here are married to rednecks and/or would freak and be repelled by me if they saw me doing ritual ( or even if I talk about the occult with them ). Sure I could call on Sitri, Beleth, Asmodai, and many more, but I don’t want to have to use magick to get girls. Getting girls has never been a problem for me back home in Virginia, but here it’s slim pickings, especially for a LHP occultist living in the Bible Belt. At least I have you guys and girls to talk to online, but I really want to meet a cool, pretty girl around here who is into me for me and who I am. So yeah, @anon25000386, I feel ya on feeling like you have to keep a very important part of your life hidden and the occult ( especially the LHP ) being a lonely path at times. I appreciate all of you and this community very much. Any pretty female occultists in North-Western North Carolina?
that’s why we call them ‘black’ magicians. haha. i can’t identify them as black magicians if they aren’t in black.
pretty much nowhere honestly
Seems like most of us are adults that won’t throw a punch without being provoked first.