This has been an issue i’ve been struggling with since I first met my partner. I’ve never had this happen to me with any other boyfriend or romantic interest of mine, so I’m at quite a loss. I’ll go into the context.
My boyfriend drains me, like… drains, drains me. I won’t be able to move or think or do anything because I just feel his energy, thoughts, and feelings that are all directed towards me. They overwhelm me to the point its crippling, it feels like I can’t breathe my own oxygen, I can not think my own thoughts - anything, only just his energy. It overtakes me to the point it feels like I’m being absorbed by him and it is becoming encumbering. At night, I can’t sleep because he won’t stop thinking about me or missing me and once again my energy is just being disturbed and ransacked.
I can’t get any peace from this guy energetically, it’s like I’m being hit by a freight train. When he’s about to reach out to him to communicate, I better be able to have somewhere to lay down, because it’s like I get put into a mini coma or something, I can’t move, I can’t do anything because he’s about to communicate with me and if he’s saying anything negative or anything about me at all, I pick up on it and I hear/feel the entire conversation. Only when he speaks to me or finally interacts with me - boom, the drainage, the… i don’t even know how to describe it… goes away.
What is this that I am experiencing? How the heck can I get a handle on this because it’s starting to become a hurdle in my independent life. I can’t get the things I need to be done because his energy keeps overtaking mine and influencing me to the point of exhaustion.
+I am an Empath and Clairsentient.
+I had him sent to me by Duchess Gremory and I’ve been with him ever since
+I ground, cleanse, banish, shield everything constantly or as often as I can
+Unsure if this is vampirism? I have heard of those who do not know they are psychic vampires and so they will feed off of others, but, this seems different? At least in my gut it does or maybe I am doubting it out of fear that he is a psychic vampire as empaths are prone to attracting them.
+Some of my theories that I have are that: his negative or ill-talking behind my back is what’s probably alerting my defenses or maybe my spirits are warning me of his bad behavior, but I can’t ever really put a ‘thumb in it’. It feels so disorienting because it’s one second I hear/feel what he’s thinking and I am hearing my own thoughts. I’m really, really struggling with this. I have never experienced a person in a relationship before and don’t know how to deal with them.