Oh man don’t get me started.
I wish i had more of a sense of humor about this whole thing. Magick is often ridiculous. Sometimes all you can do is laugh at the crazy going on around you.
I wish i knew subconscious communication could solve problems i thought required ceremonial evocation to fix. I also wish i knew subconscious communication is superior to divination. My subconscious mind was underutilized in this work for years because i didn’t realize this. So many issues could have been solved easier without using magick at all, and so many other magickal operations could have been planned better if i had only known this at the time.
I wish i learned natural magick sooner. Natural magick does the trick when ceremonial work fails to deliver, and is much easier to do.
I wish i’d worked on my breathing and focus sooner, using a magick mirror. Such training would have better prepared me to do ceremonial evocations such as the ones in the Lemegeton’s Ars Goetia and Theurgia Goetia, or the Greater Key of Solomon.
I wish i knew the importance of using a good daily planner as a grimoire, and had the patience to go through a training course like Quareia.
But hey, you live and learn, right? Nobody does this shit perfectly. Making mistakes is important - don’t be afraid to fuckup big time. Those fuckups will be your best lessons.