THE CROSSING OF THE DESERT-MY VIEW AND HANDLING OF THE MATRIX
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~|I have started at the near middle of the year 2022 my sephirotic drakonian initations based for Black Magicians brought by vk jehannum (very powerfull practices u could get by his pdf vk full jehannum papers) because numerically it just whas perfect and i am ready to go and win in my spiritual practices and in life.|/~
There comes a phase where you reach the supernal triads but it was somehow different by me.Because some Extraterestials from Orion belt saw and guided me to first initiate from Geburah unto binah and THAN trough the desert and than Chesed and than reach Chokmah and than Kether.(by them it would had the greatest evolutionary benefits for my being)
If i had didnt done so i would be to this day stuck in my current job situation and mindset and growth cycle i would again had hangups like i lost a past oppurtunity i didnt take and it really degraded me for literally 3 months but i am fiesty dog a fiesty tiger with the strongest bite if i catch something especially spiritual growth i do not let it go, i continued it didnt matter how desilusioned i was with myself and my situation of my life and the world and my pain . I continued practicing meditating working on my self.Fuck on them,fuck on my weakness.
So it brought me back on track and this wasnt the first time crossing either…
I Crossed the desert once in my beginning stages as a spiritual Christian wich brought me into black magic and my true nature.I lost everything in this stage because i whas uncouncious what was happening.Jesus Christ is a literal systematic program and symbol to get you sacrificed into daath and for the sins of black magicians and the current fucked collective of “normal” people.
Just think a moment:
The section of the where the daath meets the belows and tipheret and the supernsl triads looks like a cross.
And jesus whas fucking betrayed and nailed on it by everybody for just being a good ol boy and servant of “god” the highest of them all the masters(Kether-elohims). And lost everything to just being afterwards recycled randomly.
And that happened to me similarly. I literally worshiped in meditation and Asana Jesus fucking Christ(3 times a day constantly) in my mind and mouth and action i whas celibate didnt eat sugar nor meat anything that would deem unclean whas a nice Person doing my best in everything or at least tryed too at all times. By my intention of wich gaining sidhis or personal occult powers(This is a pretty antichristian behaviour or mindset i didnt realize back than) i whas 16 at that time.
Kundalini Illumination
When the crossing happened by the Christprogram i lost everything my mind,my soul,my dignity,my selfesteem,my love, my sanity, my friends, my health, my wings, my emotions, myself, my ego, literally everything ,my school degree whas diagnosed with a mental illness thrown into a mentalhospital like a worthless piece of shit like a crippled fucking animal just to rot and suffer and no christ and no angel whas there to help me to safe me to love me no fucking god only nothing…but one came and stayed in the process of in loosing my life (literally my heart whas about to giving up in a fatefull night in this rotten hospital)
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LUCIFER … I sacrificed my second name Michael after all this for Lucifer because on his own volition and free will came to me helped me saw my potential(Sidhis and Power and as a person and Black magician) and brought my soul back into nothing Literally whas made back again in a image of an demonic sorcerer/magician thats why i developed a second unkonwn language i can speak out of free volition and write how i write freely out of my nature it is the Lucifer in me with my soul as one.
That ancient force came back with me and literally in speed time i somehow came out of this whole hospital mess.But whas afterwards in a whole between zombiemode and a firy demon who works on himself and played just a role out of convinience that i do not take theire zombiblue pills in secret.
Because i stated"NO" Its not over i will not die here its not over i am not sick i am not a fucking retard fuck you all!.My fire that is my vengance my hate my drive all came back ,and to this day is more stronger than before in a sence for my growth and hate for the deserving and sometimes undeserving but weak and "normies"how can you live like that🐑!
Choronzon and Shugal are the litlest problems i had and will have i will overcome them in my crossing of the Sephirot and Qliphoth. Integrate /Absporb them into my being. I know how is to be a fallen one with big fucking L tattooed on his face. I am not scared for i allready died once and brought to life again.
After that my inner fire is immortal after that i see myself practicing magic to my ends of all days of eternity.
One Man also really inspired me and was a major source for my black magical creativity, upheaval, and comfort this where it really all began down this road when i heard this in my zombie operatus days afterwards the mess and enslavement.
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It really "RANDOMLY"popped in my mind at a ride with my mum to a city a clip i saw 4 year ago “COINCIDENTLY” from family guy.
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Looked him up and than bam here he whas and majorly changed my life for the long run into the bether.
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Thats why i respect this guy no matter what and be as a admirer not a fan i want to be equal on some levels.
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Now
I dont take any fucking pills dont abuse any drugs dont drink or smoke shit eating relatively healthy,exercise,educate myself have two stable incomes and have psychic abilitys that are being mastered overtime meditate and do rituals and work on my councious initiations.
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MATRIX
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I state for escaping the matrix you must go all into it.What i mean is the kabbalah the qlipoth, the planets, the zodiacs, the archetypes the alchemys and its symbols, colors, numerology, gematria, Soul, Spirit, Body, Psychology, that all is the matrix and means to master the matrix and if you want to escape this,(wich i will not do first).You must interact with it trough all means posible to know it to expirience it ,gain whisdom trough it and power and than to master it overtime.
I know it doesnt happen over night but bether believe! Start now it isnt going to be bether beliefe me that! As time progresses, especially how thinks are going in general.
Take note of that and take it sirious if you want to get out of your shit or go far in life on this path!
Kudos!
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Sidenote:
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On my terms
Desert is the sephirot crossing
Abyss the qlipothic crossing
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