The Theoricus Journal

Have gone back to bed, as I was tired and kept feeling lightheaded.

Finished breakfast - maple syrup, french Texas toast, deseeded strawberry cup, scrambled eggs, grilled hash browns, OJ, and coffee.

Went back to bed. Shower day is tomorrow.

Will do rituals that can be done in bed and do reading and note taking esp. for astrology and the astrology journal.

Did nada except for some reading, as I kept nearly passing out in my wheelchair in the morning.

My phone keeps acting up, so I think I’m going to get a new phone with a different carrier, new number possibly as well. I’m well beyond sick and tired of a phone constantly acting up on me.

A couple of books I was required to read as a Neophyte were ā€œThe Mystical Qabalahā€, ā€œThe Tree of Lifeā€, and ā€œThe Sacred Magic of Ancient Egyptā€. The latter had a sister book, ā€œThe Sacred Tradition of Ancient Egyptā€. I cannot help but wonder if the two books on Egypt expound on Magicians in Ancient Egypt and how they get and keep and utilize their power.

Needless to say, no Friday work was done. I think tomorrow I will strive for more self control and self discipline with my magick works.

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Nine hours ago I edited this and have as of a fewinutes ago edited the Astrology journal with the first four signs blocks.

Since I’m at ten percent, gonna have to cut this here and edit later in the morning and the PotD journal as well.

DATE: 11/29/2025

DAY: Saturday, day of Saturn. Rules over Earth, Capricorn and Aquarius, exalted in Libra. Black candles, Sandalwood and Myrrh incense.

TIME: 11:20 AM PST

MOON PHASE:

WEATHER: Low 70s, sunny.

RITUALS PERFORMED: I might be able to do PotD rituals earlier, but after 3 or so is optimal timing that I know of.

PERFORMANCE:

RESULTS:

Watching Daddy’s Home movie of some sort, makes me honestly feel inferior. I don’t pack a gun above a 22 palm size gun shall we say, and I’m no tough guy. I’m handsome but no heart-throb. But I feel Will Ferrell’s character. I dated single moms and felt worse. I felt decades of anger.

Now in my upper 50s, I embrace my being alone. All the more space and time to work on what I couldn’t before, my best attempts at magic and being a magician.

TASKS:

Not on therapy calendar that I know of. Was up and in my wheelchair earlier. Just had my shower and applied deodorant as well. I brushed my hair, will brush my teeth after lunch. Will exercise even if no therapy.

THOUGHTS:

So, plans for today…

Body Awareness Ritual

Relaxation Ritual

Shining Crosses Ritual:

Qabballistic Cross Ritual:

Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram

Qabballistic Cross Ritual

Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Hexagram

Analysis of Keyword

Greater Invoking Ritual of the Hexagram

Analysis of Keyword

Greeting to Saturn and Invocations

Invoking the Four Powers of Earth

Middle Pillar Ritual

Meditation

Body in Assiah

Charge and License to Depart

Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Hexagram

Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram

Tarot Contemplation Ritual:

XX Judgement. Elemental Fire. 31st Path, Malkuth to God, the Perpetual Intelligence. Spirit of the Primal Fire. Shin, fang or tooth, 300.

Safety first before Saturn:

Safety first then Earthy teamwork:

But do it by the book…

Sooo…old neighbor nearly kicked the bucket, is incoherent, fell, has or had tdk or a petit mal seizure.

Needless to say, he has been battling like I battle, becoming institutionalized. It’s not the time spent that causes it, it’s the life trauma endured and the care received in a new place. The mindset of being institutionalized is a 180 here than a corrections facility I would imagine.

So… rituals won’t be done today. Perhaps tomorrow.

This is why silence is the fourth law for students.

They snuck out….so so did what I could. I will do the Middle Pillar Ritual and meditate once the folks have left.

RITUALS PERFORMED: Adoration to the Lord of the Universe. Morning Adoration. Shining Crosses Ritual. Qabballistic Cross Ritual. Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram. Qabballistic Cross Ritual. LRVH Noon Adoration.Adoration to the Lord of the Universe. LRVH Evening Adoration. Adoration to the Lord of the Universe.

PERFORMANCE: Good, though voice was low, and it was hurried through. Done in time.

RESULTS: Should have a sacred space and a clean sphere of sensation. Will do Middle Pillar Ritual and meditation before sleep.

So I went and found coffee, and a very sweet lady carried my coffee for me. She ran out to her car to grab a NT with and Psalms and Proverbs for me to read.

No work was done today.

Over the course of last night and today, I have been given a Bible and a New Testament book. A sign from above?

My sister came by today to give me clean clothing, brought a Diet Pepsi, and Krispy Kreme donuts. She gave me three - two raspberry filled and glazed donuts and one glazed donut.

She also brought me some Thanksgiving leftovers.

I feel loved.

Shortly after finishing breakfast, coffee still in hand, therapist arrived telling me that I was on the list for today. So we agreed on some time between 10:15 and 10:30 as it was about 9:40 at the time. So I show up around 10:00 in the gym and 15 minutes after I arrived I hopped on the new step bike and with a difficulty level of three, I did approximately 1,450 steps. That was about 60 steps per minute. After 15 minutes on that bike I went to walk in the Walker and walked all the way to the activities room, and actually I rested at nurse station to but eventually got the will up to keep walking and reach nurse station 3. About 15 ft shy of the activities room. Turned around and walked back and walked pretty much all the way back except for the main hallway that leads outside and got pushed back to the gym from there. We then worked on strength in the arms,
curls, lat pulls, flys. This was with wrist straps of two and a half pounds on each wrist and the 3 lb dumbbell in each hand. It definitely kept my wrists straight not giving an opportunity to bend but I found that my shoulders were trying to do most of the work as opposed to the biceps. All in all good workout. Got back to the room and my roommates brother and sister were here or I should say his son and daughter were here. Kirsten gave me an excellent piece of cinnamon bread from trader Joe’s, I recommend stocking up on it heavily. On top of that I had a cup of lemonade and I’m waiting for beverages to arrive with lunch.

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Approx an hour ago, it was officially Tuesday, now it is. The goal today is to face phobias and fears. To get to know the good angel of Mars.

DATE: 12/02/2025

DAY: Tuesday, day of Mars. Scarlet, Red candles, Dragons Blood incense, Iron.

TIME: 12:55

MOON PHASE: TBD

WEATHER: TBD

SLEEP/DREAMS:Two to three hours. Awoke at midnight. No dreams recalled.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: Slightly slow speech and thought.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Sore ankles and feet. Sore shoulders and biceps. Current weight 260, need to lose 50 pounds.

MOOD: Good.

RITUALS PERFORMED: TBD

PERFORMANCE: TBD

RESULTS: TBD

THOUGHTS:

TASKS: TBD

Approx eight or so hours ago, it was officially Tuesday, now it is.

The goal today is to face phobias and fears. To get to know the good angel of Mars.

DATE: 12/02/2025

DAY: Tuesday, day of Mars. Scarlet, Red candles, Dragons Blood incense, Iron.

TIME: 08:30

MOON PHASE: TBD

WEATHER: 65° and Partly Sunny

SLEEP/DREAMS: Choppy six hours. Awoke at midnight, then 08:00. No dreams recalled.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: Slightly slow speech and thought.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Sore ankles and feet. Sore shoulders and biceps. Current weight 260, need to lose 50 pounds.

MOOD: Good.

RITUALS PERFORMED:

Body Awareness Ritual

Relaxation Ritual

Lesser Invoking Ritual of the Pentagram

Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Hexagram

Invoking the Four Powers of Earth

Greater Invoking Ritual of the Hexagram (Mars)

Charge and Meditation

Middle Pillar Ritual

Meditation

License to Depart and GBRH (Mars)

Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Hexagram

Lesser Invoking Ritual of the Pentagram

PERFORMANCE: TBD

RESULTS: TBD

THOUGHTS:

TASKS:

Had breakfast, got into my wheelchair.

TASKS:
Today is not a therapy day. So exersise solo it is for me today.
Tomorrow is my shower day.
Got out of bed, early after breakfast was done.

RITUALS PERFORMED:
Adorations.
Shining Crosses Ritual
Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram
Adorations.
Middle Pillar Ritual TBD
Meditation TBD
Adorations TBD.
Planet of the Day TBD
Tarot Contemplation Ritual TBD

DATE: 12/03/2025

DAY: Wednesday, day of Mercury, Hermes, and Thoth. Orange candles, Lavendar incense.

TIME: 09:20 AM PST

MOON PHASE:

WEATHER: 60s and partly cloudy.

SLEEP: Choppy. Six hours at best.

DREAMS: None recalled. The last one was a heavy one, but by the time I woke up had no recall.

RITUALS: TBD, but expected are Adorations, Neophyte Formula, Planet of the Day, Zelator Formula. Using an invoking field.

Neophyte Formula .. 09:45 began 10:00 completed.

PERFORMANCE:

Neophyte Formula felt a bit rushed. Had it not, it would have been interrupted.

RESULTS:

None noticed, could be because it was rushed and overheard. Slight feeling of energy in the breath.

THOUGHTS: TBD

TASKS:

Got out of bed after breakfast. 08:30

Spoke with kitchen manager, asked for an Atkins style diet to lose 60 pounds in two to four months with exercise and lighter diet.

Got new gown 08:45

Shower day, doing after lunch.

Listening to his enn on his day.

Pentacles for the day of Mercury…

DATE: 12/04/2025
DAY: Thursday, day of Jupiter, Zeus, Jove and Fortuna. El, Tzadkiel, Sachiel, Chahmalim. Blue candles, Cedar incense.
TIME: 08:35 AM PST

MOON PHASE:
WEATHER: 68° and Sunny.
SLEEP: Choppy. Six hours at best.
DREAMS: None recalled.

RITUALS PERFORMED: TBD, but expected are Adorations, Neophyte Formula, Planet of the Day, Zelator Formula. Using an invoking field.
Neophyte Formula .. Began Completed
PERFORMANCE:
RESULTS:

THOUGHTS: TBD

TASKS:
Got out of bed after breakfast. 08:15
Applied deoderant and dressed. 08:30
Brushed hair and brushed teeth.

Therapy, Occupational and Physical

08:45-09:45 PST .. Walked in walker to Station 2 and back, sat twice. Approx 150 feet without sitting. Did weights strapped to legs and did kicks, leg raises. Balance exercise with velcro balls to dartboard and bouncing or catching and tossing beach ball. Exercise bike, 11 minutes 50% resistance.

RITUALS PERFORMED: Body Awareness Ritual. Qabbalistic Cross Ritual. Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram. Qabballistic Cross Ritual. Middle Pillar Ritual. Adorations.

Not Done: Analysis of Keyword. Greater Invoking Ritual of the Hexagram (Jupiter). Invocation and Charge. Analysis of Keyword. Invoking the Four Powers of Earth. Charge and Communion. Meditation and License to Depart.

PERFORMANCE: Poor. Visualization sucked. Most rituals Zelator and above need to be memorized again. Even when I have the time, there are still people within earshot.

RESULTS: TBD

Im on day two of my diet. I already feel better.

I’m sheltered, have an internet enabled phone, have friends and family. I live in a safe area that is not war torn.

In this nursing home, I have CNAs and therapists and nurses that aid me. I have food managers and a dietician and a nutritionist.

I can practice magic without huge amounts of violence toward me for doing so. I have some turbulent relationships over it, but no lynch mobs after me yet.

DATE: 12/05/2025

DAY: Friday, day of Venus. YHVH Tzabaoth, Haniel, Elohim. Green candles, Rose incense.

TIME: 10:15 AM PST

MOON PHASE:

WEATHER: 61/66,. Sunny.

SLEEP: Better, slept seven hours approximately.

DREAMS: None recalled.

TASKS

Ate breakfast – eggs, bacon, frosted flakes, milk, fruit, juice, coffee.

Got out of bed and into restroom, washed hands.

Applied deodorant.

Shower day tomorrow.

Brushed teeth.

Brushed hair.

Therapy today.

THOUGHTS

Day three of my diet. Today’s goal is to not ask for anything containing carbohydrates. Ioe, no request in between meals for a grilled cheese sandwich or pudding (too much sugar can contain carbs).

TASKS

Therapy – Occupational. Dressed, went to gym. Wheeled myself to and into gym. Worked on standing in a walker balancing arm tasks and striking and blocking exercises. Went fifteen minutes on bike with 70% resistance for fifteen minutes. Under 1000 steps, somewhere in the 800s.

Therapy – Physical. Walked with four wheeled walker rather than the aluminum two wheel walker. Walked from gym to activities center and back. Sat four times. Approximate distance walked: 500 feet.

RITUALS PERFORMED: TBD. Greeted animal, plant and mineral Kingdoms.

PERFORMANCE: TBD. Contemplated for a moment on consciousness of nature’s Kingdoms.

RESULTS: TBD. Greeted flower bush. It responded.

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