The Theoricus Journal

Journals, Group Rituals & Free Readings
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DATE: 11-15-2025

DAY: Saturday, day of Saturn. YHVH Elohim, Cassiel, Aralim. Black or Indigo candles, Sandalwood incense.

TIME: 09:22

MOON PHASE: Luna in Libra. Wanting crescent.

WEATHER: Low 60s and raining.

SLEEP: Choppy. 12-5 was awake, Awoke at 7.

DREAMS: Had a few but chose not to remember.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: Better post shower, but eyes are still red and tired.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Freshly showered.

A muscle sprain between shoulder blades.

MOOD: Good.

RITUALS: None yet.

PERFORMANCE:

RESULTS:.

THOUGHTS:

Reading before lunch on astrology and geomancy. Will start relaying notes as I have read each chapter. My reading so far was unproductive as I was slimming or reading just definitions.

TASKS:

Had breakfast in bed.

Got up out of Wheelchair into shower chair.

Showered. Deodorant applied.

Hair brushed. Will brush teeth before and after lunch.

OT at some point today.

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Got back into bed for lunch and because I’m not feeling well still. But at least I got out of bed for my shower and for a couple of hours.

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Just finished lunch, a chicken breast topped with gravy, bell peppers and onions, carrots, and a toll House cookie for dessert, coffee to drink.

A trip down memory lane:

While watching “Back to the Future”, and chatting with the CNA, she asked if I could go into a time machine, would I go forward or backward into time? I said backward, with the thought that I would correct my mistakes and be a smarter investor of things I spent my money on as a kid. We also discussed who we have met in the past, or who we have yet to meet.

I told her about my sister meeting Van Halen when she first moved out here, and my meeting and shaking hands with the Dalai Lama inAnn Arbor when the Tibetan Bhuddist Temple invited him to speak in Ann Arbor.

“It’s all about right place, right time” i said

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Had phone set on charger and caught am hour of sleep.

Dinner this eve of 11/15/25, was a very bad dish, instead I asked for four quesadillas with salsa and extra sour cream. Inhaled the latter. Along with the apple pie piece. And the coffee.

I’m working on four hours of sleep.

I’m beginning to learn the difference between tropical and sidereal and how and why the ascendant does not contain the sun or moon on the first house. I can use an ephemeris and construct a wheel natal chart, but cannot interpret one. I do however know the signs, the planets and the four types of astrology charts - physical, mundane, natal, and horary.

Same with geomancy, you poke holes in sand, and construct from evens and odds the geamticothwrs, daughters, judges and witnesses. I still have to refer to a chart of the figures, and likewise can construct a flat square chart, but cannot interpret it.

Now, this one ritual I can do, as well as a Tarot Contemplation Ritual and Fourfold Breath with Body Awareness.

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DATE: 11/16/2025

DAY: Sunday, day of Sol. YHVH Eloah ve Daath, Michael, Melechim (Kings).

TIME: 09:45 PST

MOON PHASE:

WEATHER:

SLEEP: Choppy. Roughly five hours in three segments.

DREAMS: Had a couple. Chose not to recall.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: Stressed. Overwhelmed. Scattered attention.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Feeling better. Sneezing and fever are gone. Pulled a back muscle that is continually agitated.

MOOD: Fair.

RITUALS PERFORMED:

PERFORMANCE:

RESULTS:

THOUGHTS:

TASKS:

Got out of bed, used restroom.

Applied deodorant.

Got dressed.

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Rituals performed:
Of course the one first ritual (or among the three first rituals per Kraig), the Tarot Contemplation Ritual was not done, nor the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram, nor the Qabalistic Cross Ritual, nor the Middle Pillar Ritual were done.
What were done were … the Fourfold Breath, Body Awareness Ritual, the Shining Crosses Ritual, Solar Adorations, and Adoration to the Lord of the Universe.
Besides privacy, I have … and still have … no excuse nor reason - for not completing the formula.

I now need to get over my fear of water, and use nature as my temple, as the evocation and sigil charging medium. Even blood can be given to oceans, lakes or rivers. Preferably rivers and the ocean.

Buckle up, self!

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11/16/2025 Continued. 18:30 PST.

Did the following with two pounds weights: three sets 20 each curls; three sets 10 each wrist curls; three sets 20 each flys; another three sets 20 each, name of exercise I cannot control.

Astrology and geomancy reading when I can gather the focus and concentration to diligently read, comprehend and retain the information.

Dinner was good. Everyone else had fish, I had a hamburger with tartar sauce on it. It was surprisingly good. Cookies and cream pudding made with partially vanilla pudding. Coffee, Cole slaw as well.

I stare at what’s left of my magickal logs and grimoire in the making. Wondering how anyone would make sense of them all. Then there are untold numbers of online journals on sites now defunct.

Took control of my accounts and synced them, so my history goes back quite farther to useful stuff.

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Reading the OAA flame discourses, looking for what limitations for Advancement, or more to the point, Ascension, exist.

Also, Geomancy and Astrology arts and sciences. Also, NAOS Practical Guide to Magick. Also, The Golden Dawn.

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DATE: 11/17/2025

DAY: Monday, day of Luna. Shaddai El Chai, Gabriel, Kerubim. Silver or white candles. Jasmine incense.

TIME: 10:10 PST.

MOON PHASE: Half in Capricorn.

WEATHER: Sunny. Mid 70s.

SLEEP: Better but still short and choppy.

DREAMS: None recalled, chose not to recall.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: Studying today, wiith focus on learning and retaining data.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Sore legs and arms.

Overweight, a goal is to lose 60 pounds.

MOOD: Fair.

RITUALS PERFORMED:

The roommates both have family visiting, one bought me a Starbucks grande White chocolate Mocha, but I digress - due to the company, cannot do ritual work at this time.

The law of Silence.

PERFORMANCE:

RESULTS:

THOUGHTS: It seems like forever I’ve been writing about reading rather than skmimimg through “The Only Way to Learn Astrology Vol 1”. Note ”Vol 1”, not “Vol 2” nor “Vol 3”, nor “Vol 1-3”. I’ve read 14 pp of Vol 1, and have produced two pages of notes. The notes, aside from “What is Astrology?”, are mainly definitions. Later when I’m studying by full use of the term, will have more than simple definitions. Yet, definitions are often the most useful way to learn content.

TASKS:

Got up out of bed and into the wheelchair, used the restroom and washed my hands.

My shower day is Wednesday then Saturday.

Will apply deodorant, brush soaped hair and brush teeth. So far I’ve not been approached by therapy. It’s sort of a surprise party in the way they alert you that they have you for therapy.

THOUGHTS:

Ah, the lure of fantastic spirits found in “Gallery of Magic” books, so many powers to have by evoking them, with close to zero experience. Then you realize you’ve petitioned twenty demons and angels alike.
What a pickle we are in now.
Well, not moreso than early on worshipping figurine candles attributed to Mesopotamian or Sumerian gods and goddesses with the altar the lid of a toilet. The things we do for roommates who disagree with the practice.
But back to the albatross of evoking or invoking demons. Can’t say pacts weren’t made. Well, offering an incense stick burned every day for one .. will land you into poverty quickly. Let alone steak and wine for one, but instead you change it up and write on city walls its name.
Anyway, those days long gone and I wonder why I’m between a rock and a hard place.

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How to resolve the dilemma of reneging on deals, let alone thinking they held up their end (imagined or real)?

Or taking RHP oaths, and forsaking it or the purification of the temple warnings?

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It was mentioned in a post I created, and a similar post that that @Mulberry created with a link.

It now stands … should I learn drawing or painting?

This would be a way to honor my demons, even the ones who hate me fory disrespect and ignorance of necessary knowledge to the best of my ability, before seeking their aid.

Another is clay seals that harden over time in the sun, versus a kiln.

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I finally understand the ascendant issue not with sun in the birth sign, due to the constellation on the horizon at birth.

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Besides this ritual, no other magickal work was done. Body awareness was done. Relaxation Ritual will be done. Meditation will be done.

Tarot Contemplation Ritual:
Drawn under Shaddai El Chai
X Wheel of Fortune. Jupiter.
Lord of the Forced of Life. Intelligence of Conciliation. Cause and Effect.
Kaph, palm of the hand, 20.

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So what we have here is a way to get the altered state going without drugs, and then the experience of scrying the squares.

Why? Maybe the Goetia is more or less dangerous, than KoF. Because like GoM each has different roles and powers to bestow.

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DATE: 11/18/2025
DAY: Tuesday, day of Mars. Elohim Gibor, Chamuel, Seraphim. Red candles, Dragons Blood incense.
TIME: 09:32 PST.

SLEEP: Less choppy, but was asleep from 23:00-01:00 and from 05:00-08:00.
DREAMS: None recalled.

MOON PHASE:
Sun Scorpio 26°38’ Sco
Moon Scorpio 9°50’ Sco
Balsamic Moon (343°12’)
Mercury Sagittarius 0°32’ Sag R
Venus Scorpio 14°47’ Sco
Mars Sagittarius 10°15’ Sag
Jupiter Cancer 25°04’ Can R
Saturn Pisces 25°14’ Pis R
Uranus Taurus 29°33’ Tau R
Neptune Pisces 29°30’ Pis R
Pluto Aquarius 1°40’ Aqu
WEATHER:
Now 58°
Partly sunny
Feels like 58°
Precipitation¡20%
Wind¡2 mph
Humidity¡68%

MENTAL CONDITIONS: Tinnitus has an ultra high pitch in my left ear. Slightly stressed yesterday, still stressed but much less.
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS:Congested or stuffed nostrils, sore muscles. Sore feet soles.
MOOD: Fair.

RITUALS PERFORMED: Body Awareness Ritual, Tarot Contemplation Ritual, Relaxation Ritual, Meditation.
PERFORMANCE: Meditation TBD, otherwise smooth.
RESULTS: Tower card pull on Tuesday is am interesting phenomenon.

TASKS:
Got out of bed and into wheelchair and used restroom.
Applied deodorant.
Brushed teeth.

THOUGHTS:

Relived as a reply to someone the Pandora and Danielle dilemma. It was what it was. Pandora was put to sleep a year ago, so if it was real, it’s up to the source of all creation.

TAROT CONTEMPLATION RITUAL:
XVI The Tower. Mars. Lord of the Hosts of the Mighty. The Exciting Intelligence. Peh, mouth, 80.

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THOUGHTS:

Quite a Mars day. I first encounter a former roommate I detest, then a patient argues with a therapist in the gym and storms off and outside. Then there is my therapy I arrived early for and trained hard during therapy. My arms and legs are hit. By the time I considered doing a GRH for Invoking Mars, my roommates came trickling back into the room.

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Every day small improvements are notĂłced and appreciated.

I hail the Lord of the Universe, and myself as well, I also hail the Goddess Isis, Marbas, and Raphael.

Yesterday instead of the alimum walker I’m used to, we changed it up, and used a four wheel walker with brakes.

Today it was arm range of motion and use of the regular walker to get to the exercise bike, pivot right, backup and sit finally releasing grip on the walker to the seat of the bike and the armrests on it. I also used 3 lb weights, moving up from 2 lb weights.

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DATE: 11/19/2025
DAY: Wednesday, day of Mercury. Elohim Tzabaoth, Raphael, Beni Elohim. Orange candles, Lavender incense.
TIME: 07:13 PST.

SLEEP: Choppy.
DREAMS: None recalled.

MOON PHASE:
Sun Scorpio 26°38’ Sco
Moon Scorpio 9°50’ Sco
Balsamic Moon (343°12’)
Mercury Sagittarius 0°32’ Sag R
Venus Scorpio 14°47’ Sco
Mars Sagittarius 10°15’ Sag
Jupiter Cancer 25°04’ Can R
Saturn Pisces 25°14’ Pis R
Uranus Taurus 29°33’ Tau R
Neptune Pisces 29°30’ Pis R
Pluto Aquarius 1°40’ Aqu
WEATHER:
Now 58°
Partly sunny
Feels like 58°
Precipitation¡20%
Wind¡2 mph
Humidity¡68%

MENTAL CONDITIONS: Tinnitus has an ultra high pitch in my left ear. Slightly stressed yesterday, still stressed but much less.
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS:Congested or stuffed nostrils, sore muscles. Sore feet soles.
MOOD: Fair.

RITUALS PERFORMED: Body Awareness Ritual, Tarot Contemplation Ritual, Relaxation Ritual, Meditation.
PERFORMANCE: Per ritual performed.
RESULTS: Per ritual:
BODY AWARENESS: Sore arms, legs and core muscles. Sixty pounds must be lost.
RELAXATION RITUAL: Difficulty in visualizing but it did relieve pain.
TAROT CONTEMPLATION RITUAL:
XX Judgement. Elemental Fire. Spirit of the Primal Fire. The Perpetual Intelligence. Malkuth to Hod. Renewal, rebirth. Shin, tooth/fang, 300.
WhĂ­le this is not Hod, it is a path to Hod (Mercury sphere).

TASKS:

THOUGHTS:

TAROT CONTEMPLATION RITUAL:
XX Judgement. Elemental Fire. Spirit of the Primal Fire. The Perpetual Intelligence. Malkuth to Hod. Renewal, rebirth. Shin, tooth/fang, 300.
WhĂ­le nthis is not Hod, it is a path to Hod (Mercury sphere).

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11/19

Performed a scan on someone and realized beyond closing my eyes, I had to concentrate on visualizing above the bridge of the nose between eyebrows, and make an intersection between connecting the pineal gland to the top front cortex and to the third eye.

Visuals were fleeting but worked. It was also an active meditation, in contrast to passive meditation.

I lack patience and will, true will and HGA KC not included. In other words, patience → will → true will → KCHGA.

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Now I’m climbing back on the camel, Astrology reading and writing, research after Astrology the same with Geomancy on ancient Gods and Goddesses from each continent for my Compendium. Then I read and outline the first three grade Initiation Rituals - Neophyte, Zelator, Theoricus. It could actually be up to five outlines for the three. Then we get to pathworkings and work on the astral temple with inner and outer courtyards.