PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Sinus headache, dry congested cough, sore legs and feet.
MOOD: Good.
RITUALS PERFORMED:
Relaxation Ritual
Body Awareness
Rhythmic Breathing (foot to groin)
Cartomancy Card of the Day
Tarot Contemplation Ritual
Mantras and Meditations
PERFORMANCE:
Body Awareness:
Sore ankles and feet, pain in front of thighs until I placed my hands on them and recited a ten minute mantra (per Raphael) to relieve physical pain. Pain and cramps disappeared. Dizziness and sore arms, slight sinus headache. Congested dry cough.
Cartomancy Card of the Day:
Three of Diamonds
Small sum of money, a payment, financial growth, partial success, partial effort, part-time work, scattered energy, on again off again, perseverance is needed for success. A lack of focus and/or commitment. In relationship readings it shows fickleness and changeability.
Tarot Contemplation Ritual:
II High Priestess. Luna.
Luna (currently in Scorpio). Priestess of the Silver Star. The Uniting Intelligence. Gimel, Camel, 3. (Interesting that Gremory was an enn I was meditating upona few days ago before Marbas and Bael and Buer popped up in my consciousness and YouTube feed). Svi mce, religion, education in general (I’ve been neglecting St John’s Great Books reading).
Ten minutes to Open the Gates of the Divine.
TEK LA TON FO KEM.
Had a vision of a cube with walls on each side bearing an Equal Armed Cross. The walls are White. The Gates are a pearly White. There are Gates opening inward, and armed Angels line the wall. Loved ones are a distance away. The entire structure is vast yet compact. A feeling of peace will come.
Ten minutes to repel negative or harmful energies.
LESH TA PAK EEN LA FA TO SON.
I saw the plant kingdom six feet away come alive, and a bird hopping and shaking vine segments.
My usual sleep problem continues. The nurses mean well, but caffiene is the least of my worries. I slept from right to ten, and thought it was morning until evening news, The Wall and the darkness outside tipped me off. I am once again wide awake before or shortly after Midnight.
Places like nursing homes attract caring people to work in them.
The reason why is the negativity or grouchy, or difficult personalities and age groups residing in them. They produce caring but tough workers.
The grouchiness and negativity, the murmuring or complaining is from the patients.
For nice people, even the slightest problematic folks like me can hurt some of the workers. To me that hurts me as well in hindsight.
So the angelic anti negativity does in fact seek itself to find out where the command and control is, and seeks to destroy the process so it can continue feeding off the patient or even a worker.
So, time to aim higher sights on Mantrum, at least for a handful of them, I am setting a minimum thirty minutes per mantrum.
I tend to focus on the planet Earth, as seen from outside the planet while reciting the mantrum.
Then there is the question on angels and goetia. Who to work with if at all? Demons fascinate me yet Serpents and I don’t get along. I like the idea of angels supervising the work of the demons, as most of us could not fill the shoes of King Solomon. Solomonic magick and Thelema magick utilize and evoke the Goetia as part of their work.
Chanted the mantra to repel negative or harmful energies for a solid 15 minutes.
I only had one verbal complaint halfway through, which I ignored, and completed the rest of the 15 minutes.
I cannot wait until I am out of this place and have my own place - where I can do whatever the f*** I want to do, not to live by mandates from two people who do nothing tomorrow anyway.
MEDITATIONS:
To raise ones own vibration, and loosen and remove ones negative attachments (including habits or people are in one’s life):
AY-EEM-MA-TA-AH
Author: DarkestKnight
Source: BALG Forum, Angelic Words of Power
PERFORMANCE:
Goal was 15 minutes, did a solid 5 minutes.
RESULTS:
I felt, and feel, that I feel a little bit in better spirits, that when I was actually doing the chant, within the past couple minutes my voice hit a higher octave.
My mind lapsed on what day it was, I thought today was Wednesday when it is clearly Tuesday. the source of it was that I did not remember when I had for breakfast, or if I had had breakfast at all.
RITUALS PERFORMED: Instant Relaxation Ritual. Body Awareness Ritual. Tarot Contemplation Ritual. Cartomancy Card of the Day. TBD.
Tarot Contemplation Ritual: XIV Temperance.
Sagittarius. Daughter of the Reconcilers, Bringer Forth of Life. Probationary Intelligence. Samekh, leg or prop, 60.
PERFORMANCE: Could be better. TBD.
RESULTS: TBD
TASKS:
Get out of Bed
Apply Deodorant (ask Katy for pack of soaped body wipes, like Lever 2000 etc).
Brush teeth and brush hair.
PT/Exercise/OT
THOUGHTS:
February is quickly approaching.
Work through Christopher’s and Kraig’s books, and have all Neophyte and Zelator work complete before february.
The goal of February is to move into Theoricus grade.
It appears therapy may not be scheduled for me today, so may get out of bed today; if for no other reason, than to do Neophyte / Zelator Formula work out of bed.
Apply deodorant and change into gown.
Brush teeth and wetted hair.
Hall rail, theraband and dumbbell exercises.
MEDITATIONS: To raise ones own vibration, and loosen and remove ones negative attachments (including habits or people are in one’s life):
AY-EEM-MA-TA-AH
Author: DarkestKnight
Source: BALG Forum, Angelic Words of Power
PERFORMANCE:
Goal was 15 minutes, did a solid 5 minutes.
RESULTS:
I felt, and feel, that I feel a little bit in better spirits, that when I was actually doing the chant, within the past couple minutes my voice hit a higher octave.
My mind lapsed on what day it was, I thought today was Wednesday when it is clearly Tuesday. the source of it was that I did not remember when I had for breakfast, or if I had had breakfast at all.
The mantra being chanted was for removing and loosening negative attachments and/or habits.
Results:
I can feel certain things waning away that used to be necessities for me.
Ay Eem Ma Ta Ah
Author: Archangel Raziel channeled through DarkestKnight off BALG Forum.
Enn concentration for two hours…
On my YouTube feed, Metatron (Greater Countenance, Voice of God) was first, then Gabriel (Strongman of God, Strength of God) coming in second.
They can be found by using the search button on YouTube, with terms
“enn Metatron Gabriel”
When in self reflection after meditation with chants last night, I wrote a scathing post but locked it so only I can see it.
It was locked because it would reflect badly upon myself as well as others. Which really serves no purpose at all in my opinion.
But what I can say of it, is that in the past I used to have thoughts that I thought were revolutionary and original when they were not. In fact many many people in groups and countries were already working on the problem solutions that I thought I had thought of.
Maybe it’s just a psychic thing, who knows.
Physical therapy had me walk from the gym to nurse station 3 (right near the activities room), and I asked to turn back and walk back the other way. So we did, and I got as far as the entrance hall to the building into the gym, and got wheeled back in the wheelchair up to the gym. Once in the gym, worked with occupational therapy after 15 minutes on the exercise bike, to use dumbbells for curls, lat presses, overhead presses and that was about it.
Had dinner, not bad it was a hot dog, I declined the soup, but banana pudding went nicely with the hot dog.
Chanted with Metatron enn as recorded earlier.
Meditation:
Chanted the Metatron enn for 15 min
Agios Est Metatron Et Veni Angelus Divum.
PERFORMANCE: Fair, got interrupted or off to a late start.
Results:
Felt immediate warm touch on top left of skull, and thoughts of the Voice of God recorded in Holy Books, and perhaps the Voice of God will be uttered to us from above, a voice of many waters.
I have one roommate that is an evangelist Christian and wants you to know it, and complains when I am meditating with a spoken mantra.
I have another roommate that is spiritual and AHEMs when speaking the mantra when I’m meditating.
I’ve been told No by the nursing food chain in regards to a private room I can borrow to do my Zelator Formula and meditations with different mantras, probably two to three (tops) hours.
So whisper and push back the resistance when I do what I do, even a tight clockwise movement with barely enough to to wield the wheelchair around in a solid circle.
The funny thing is I’m the most proactive roommate. I don’t decline therapy any longer and snap to when one therapist arrives. I call family or close friends.
By doing my meditations, I don’t watch much television or movies. In other words, they lie in bed all day and have zilch to do.
Still have Rufus Opus Zeus Cult mantra too, and to view Lon Milo DuQuette video as well.
Today’s Meditations courtesy of Archangel Raziel through DarkestKnight on BALG Forum.
To Connect to Your Inmate Divinity.
This is only supposed to be done about ten times. I did five minutes on this until that realization.
Eh Ta La Vee Deh Lum
To raise one’s vibration and loosen and remove negative attachments or habits.
Ten solid minutes .. fifteen was the goal.
Ay Eem Ma Ta Ah
To Neutralize and Repel Negative or harmful energies…
Fifteen solid minutes, fifteen was the goal.
LESH TA PAK EEN LAFA TO SON
There was too much disruption for me to keep on in my meditations from Super Christian and his wife.
It was belittling and annoying. I may have to do a curse on them. It’s annoying to see how much of a doiche Iwas, as I acted as ignorant as they did when I got “delivered” from the occult. Then I obtained a religious spirit.
DAY: Wednesday, day of Mercury (rules Virgo and Gemini). Elohim Tzabaoth, Raphael, Beni Elohim. Orange candles, Lavendar incense.
TIME: 11:22 AM PST
MOON PHASE:
WEATHER: Mid 70s, Sunny.
SLEEP: Short
DREAMS: None recalled.
MENTAL CONDITIONS: Tired from lack of sleep.
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Sore muscles from therapy, tired from lack of sleep.
MOOD: Good
RITUALS PERFORMED: TBD
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
TASKS:
Get out of bed - done after breakfast and short nap.
Physical and occupational therapy. Walked to Nursing Station two, fifteen minutes on NuStep bike at resistance 3, over 1k steps. Did dumbbell exercises.
THOUGHTS:
MEDITATIONS:
To raise ones vibration and to loosen and remove negative attachments:
Ayeem Ma Ta Ah
Solid ten minutes, though aim was fifteen minutes.
Author: DarkestKnight channelling AA Raziel
Source: BALG Forum
Okay. Next Mantra (no physical esoteric work will be done - at least until after lunch).
To neutralize and repel negative energies.
Lesh ta pak een lafa to son.
Goal: Solid ten minutes, but fifteen is highest.
Author: DarkestKnight channelling AA Michael.
Source: BALG Forum
Started to do mantrum. Started with twelve repititions of “To Connect with your innate Divinity”. I think this is the one that is recommended to stop at nine repititions.
Started to do “To raise one’s vibration, and to loosen and remove negative attachments.
Did five minutes.
Will do again to do fifteen minutes of that, and fifteen minutes of “To neutralize and repel negative or harmful energies.”
Following watching an Azazel chant, I felt uneasy, and still somewhat nauseous. I’m not saying one or the other caused it, it is what it is. It’s funny, because in my knowledge and personal gnosis, both are Lords of Armies.
Enn: Saeanala Aeoraga Aeatora Aeathal Michahel.
Will post links in order.
Azazel chant: [Mod edit: video removed by uploader]
The Azazel video was pulled for technical reasons. It should be available soon.
So, to look at these mantras by Hierarchy of Human Needs, I should have a limit of three at a time.
Fifteen to Thirty minutes each. Per day.
First thing is Needs/Wealth/Money. Basic building block. Mammon, Azazel, Hermes, Apollo, or Michael may be of help.
Second thing is Healing, as survival is no joke or game. Isis, Marbas and Raphael would be of help.
Third thing is Magical/Psychic skills level. Raziel would be of help, Thoth and Lucifer as well.
RITUALS PERFORMED:
Body Awareness Ritual:
RESULTS:
Sore arms, back, core and legs from Therapy. Comprehensive workout. Feelings of stabbing in right midsection of the body between LHP and RHP mantras. Stretching exercises should help.
Tarot Contemplation Ritual:
XI Justice. Libra. Daughter of the Lord’s of Truth, Ruler of the Balance. The Faithful Intelligence. Lamed, Ox Goad, 30.
RESULTS:
Thoughts about seeding and harvesting in past two decades, and if I had been true to myself, and made better choices, my life would have been way better.
Cartomancy Card of the Day:
Four of Diamonds
RESULTS:
Financial stability, financial papers, rented property, a license, certificate, ticket, bank account, strongbox, checkbook, wallet, jewelry box. An office, a desk.
I realize that today is the day before the birthdays of my Sister and older Niece. I also realize I have income through one wealth channel that will need to be used for apartment in near future, bit short term I need more snacks, instant coffee, water flavor packets and soda pop. So will call her tomorrow and wish her a Happy Birthday, and find out when she will drop by, hopefully before weekend.
Stretch of time between sleep hours that I was awaken to for personal reasons.
There is an enn for Metatron, though it’s only around 30 minutes. That is actually the first enn.
This one is over an hour and is for Bune or Bime.
Enn: Whlc Melan Avage Bune Tasa.
Enn: Ayer secore on ca Bael.
No further information listed in video details.
However, in Ars Goetia or Lesser Key, he is the first spirit.
As a king, he should have yellow or gold candles and Frankincense and Rose incense.
Bael is said to occupy the Sephira or Qlippa of Venus.
Enn: Linan Tasa Jaden Paimon.
King Paimon · Enn Meditation Chant (Also Paymon)
Magick audio of King Paimon´s enn, 108 repetitions.
Paimon sigil.
Enn: Linan Tasa Jaden Paimon.
Ruler: ZIMINAR
Rank: King (Rex)
Planet: Sun
Element: Water
Direction: North
Metal: Gold
Color: Yellow
Incense: Frankincense
Corresponding Angel: » HAZIEL
Zodiac Position: 10-14 degrees of Taurus
April 30th-May 4th
Tarot Card: 6 of Pentacles
Planet: Mercury
Metal: Mercury
Element: Earth
Plant: Bindweed
Candle color: Black and Dark blue
Rank: King
Paimon is a Day Demon and rules 200 legions of spirits. Some were of the Order of Angels and the others of the Order of Potentates. He is a Great King and very obedient unto Lucifer.
The Ninth Spirit in this Order is Paimon, a Great King, and very obedient unto Lucifer. He appeareth in the form of a Man sitting upon a dromedary with a crown most glorious upon his head. There goeth before him also an host of spirits, like men with trumpets and well sounding cymbals, and all other sorts of musical Instruments. He hath a great voice, and roareth at his first coming, and his speech is such that the Magician cannot well understand unless he can compel him. This spirit can teach all arts and sciences, and other secret things. He can discover unto thee what the Earth is, and what holdeth it up in the waters; and what mind is, and where it is; or any other thing thou mayest desire to know. He giveth dignity, and confirmeth the same. He bindeth or maketh any man subject unto the Magician if he so desire it. He giveth good familiars, and such as can teach all Arts. He is to be observed towards the West. He is of the Order of Dominations*. He hath under him 200 legions of spirits, and part of them are of the Order of Angels, and the other part of Potentates. Now if thou callest this spirit Paimon alone, thou must make him some offering; and there will attend him two Kings called Labal and Abalim, and also other Spirits who be of the Order of Potentates in his host, and 25 Legions. And those spirits which be subject unto them are not always with them unless the Magician do compel them. –*Or Dominions
Source: The Lesser Key of Solomon
Paimon is more obedient in Lucifer than other kings are. Lucifer is heere to be understood he that was drowned in the depth of his knowledge: he would needs be like God, and for his arrogancie was throwne out into destruction, of whome it is said; Everie pretious stone is thy covering (Ezech. 88 [28.13].). Paimon is constrained by divine vertue to stand before the exorcist; where he putteth on the likenesse of a man: he sitteth on a beast called a dromedarie, which is a swift runner, and weareth a glorious crowne, and hath an effeminate countenance. There goeth before him an host of men with trumpets and well sounding cymbals, and all musicall instruments. At the first he appeereth with a great crie and roring, as in Circulo [Empto.] Salomonis, and in the art is declared. And if this Paimon speake sometime that the conjuror understand him not, let him not therefore be dismaied. But when he hath delivered him the first obligation to observe his desire, he must bid him also answer him distinctlie and plainelie to the questions he shall aske you, of all philosophie, wisedome, and science, and of all other secret things. And if you will knowe the disposition of the world, and what the earth is, or what holdeth it up in the water, or any other thing, or what is Abyssus, or where the wind is, or from whence it commeth, he will teach you aboundantlie. Consecrations also as well of sacrifices [offerings, libations] as otherwise may be reckoned. He giveth dignities and confirmations; he bindeth them that resist him in his owne chaines, and subjecteth them to the conjuror; he prepareth good familiars, and hath the understanding of all arts. Note, that at the calling up of him, the exorcist must looke towards the northwest, because there is his house. When he is called up, let the exorcist receive him constantlie without feare, let him aske what questions or demands he list, and no doubt he shall obteine the same of him. And the exorcist must beware he forget not the creator, for those things, which have beene rehearsed before of Paimon, some saie he is of the order of dominations; others saie, of the order of cherubim.
Source: Pseudomonarchia Daemonum
Paimon gives the power to influence and control others and teaches the arts and sciences. He provides good familiars and gives one position and honor. He can reveal anything about the Earth and one’s mind. When he appears, he is attended by other Demons. Paimon is known to make noise. Someone revealed that their smoke alarm went off, all by itself with no explanation when Paimon appeared after a summoning. Paimon is not Azazel, as some writings claim. They are both separate and different individual Demons.
Paimon is full of energy, loud noises and bright lights tend to make him more active. He is very colorful and very friendly.
Source: Serpentis666
It is currently 2:19 AM PST.
I’m between sleep and awake. Not alert.
To structure Angelic Mantras in the Hierarchy of Needs format.
This is what I’m currently studying.
Though there was no physical esoteric work done, a lot of physical and spiritual work was in fact done. Staying up to structure the Angelic mantras.
Chanted fifteen minutes of Remove Negative Attachments. 12:50 PM to 1:05 PM PST.
Not feeling physically well today, even though I had an appetite and holding it together. Loose stools in the morning to afternoon may not be a solid factor, butnwas also nauseous and wiped out.
Thinking about using the mantras alternating every day, fifteen minutes each then next month at thirty minutes each. A snowball effect.
Physical esoteric work might not occur today. May just be mysticism for magick.
