The Theoricus Journal

Journals, Group Rituals & Free Readings
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RITUALS PERFORMED:

Instant Relaxation Ritual.

Body Awareness Ritual.

Snowball of needs:

Starting at 3:00 did fifteen minutes of To Loosen and Remove Negative Attachments.

Then fifteen minutes of To Manifest Material Needs.

Then fifteen minutes of To Heal Physical Body

Then and finally, fifteen minutes of To Unlock Magick Potential.

Then did fifteen minutes of prayers to Jupiter and Tzadkiel.

PERFORMANCE: Shaky voice yet firm (like McFly standing up to Biff). Solid meter when possible, dry throat halfway through. Had water at hand for that scenario.

RESULTS: Felt joyful and almost giggly in voice after removing negative attachments. Felt sure while performing to manifest physical needs. Felt less sore with healing Mantra. Felt empowered with unnlock magical potential. TBD. Noticed my meter and monotone hushed voice put others listening to sleep.

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The usual … asleep around 11 PM and awake, wide awake, at 3:00 AM.

Having a Diet Dr Pepper 12 oz can.

Earth exercises to be done, and moral inventory questions to ponder and answer, is the likely task.

Meditations are another to do this morning.

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Had a few hours sleep until breakfast.

Need more structure, a checklist for every day.

More composition books and a sketchpad and pencils, with colored pencils and a sharpener as well.

Also to do physical exercises and Zelator Formula every day. No excuses.

Meditations every day. Look back a week at the four or five types of Meditations.

Yesterday evening/last night, the four back to back mantra were productive. I can’t show or explain how or why, just that I feel the change.

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Had an hour of therapy with Moe, Head of Therapy. Did did ten sit to stands using the hallway rail, then ten side kicks standing up and using the rail, ten each leg. Did fifteen minutes on the NuStep bike at fifty percent resistance. 1172 steps. Walked to station three and back halfway, Moe pushed me back. Did balance exercises.

Went back to room and back on bed.

My sister arrived with snacks and we had conversation for an hour before she had to take off.

Napped a bit after lunch. Used restroom, washed hands, went back to bed.

Tarot Contemplation Ritual: XI Justice. Libra.

Cartomancy Card of the Day: Jack of Hearts.

About to engage in an hour of mantrum. 3:30

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Vitals interrupted my chanting Mantras. They mean well but don’t veer from their course.

So, ten minutes on the first Mantra. Irony of this Mantra is frustration was the result.

Restarting at four PM PST.

Mantrum:
20 min Loosen and Remove Negative Attachments.
15 min Manifest Material Needs
20 min For Physical Healing
15 min Unlock Magickal Potential
10 min One apeice

Total time: 75 min

Start time: 3:20 PM PST

Completion Time: 4:35 PM PST

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A couple synchronicities today:

Number one: This past week these three pages of prayers to saints that I have from a book, that were in my Bible at home, made me wonder about having the Bible brought to me. What I did have brought to me was my gray bag which had two of my journals - leather bound journals at that - brought to me. So I open up the first page of my Ritual Journal, and what’s in it is a page of drawn Hexagrams for banishing. In the back what do I find? Those three pages of prayers to the saints.

Number two: Yesterday’s Tarot Contemplation Ritual was number XI, Justice. Today’s Tarot Contemplation Ritual, IX, The Hermit. At the bottom of the deck? XI, Justice.

Number three: Hoping for a sign of love or suit of cups through Cartomancy. Cartomancy Card of the Day - Jack of Hearts.

Dinner at 5:15…Chili and cornbread. OJ and Coffee. Watched WWE Wrestling.

Back to Saints prayers given the recent manifestation.

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Top three Enns in my YouTube feed today:

First, Moloch

Second, Bael

Third, Marbas

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After devouring a couple handfuls of Hershey’s miniature candy bars and a chocolate chip thin crispy cookie, had about it four pieces of Jack Links Teriyaki jerky.

Went through Journal pages, and amazed at the amount of effort put into it, this is where I took off. Sure, other notebooks, journals and grimoores of my own creation have their content and attempt at structure. Given that I rarely have solid structure, this leather bound diary or journal has extra oomph. Who knows, I may have done a ritual to make it powerful in it’s own place. It is a ritual journal/diary after all.

I may need my gray bag brought back to rummage through and pillage a bit … I thought I had an old container for nicotine pouches, that has a cufflink (or watch chain), and three to six pennies in there as well (for IChing throws). Index cards may be of use. I didn’t think to see if my tarot cards were in there.

My occult collection with me consists of a small collection of books, a Covid mask to use as a blindfold, a fifty seven bead rosary, a pack of playing cards, and hand written notes for major arcana draws. And pens. And paper. And diaries.

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Went to bed around eleven, and awoke about four in the morning. Had some Pringles, some miniature candy bars, and some crystal Light strawberry mix with caffiene. Not wide awake but awake and fatigued. Went through all my water.

Going back to bed after some journaling

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Went to bed around 5:00 in the morning, woke at 7:00 a.m. for breakfast, negotiated shower time to after lunch after a previous arrangement for 10:00, slept until close to lunch time, ate lunch, went and had a shower.

Now I am sitting in my wheelchair, freshly gowned and dry post shower.

Will start mantras shortly. Will do Zelator Formula after mantras.

Not pleased with my progress. Need to re read Kraig and Christopher, and figure out how and where I fell behind, solve the issue and move ahead. I wanted to start during month of Aquarius (February) for Theoricus, but I don’t want to carry any unresolved assignments.

A Crowley quote spring to mind “bruh, if you would but work…work in itself has absolute virtue”.

Did some work.

The Neophyte Formula (it varies by four rituals extra in the Zelator Formula - Ascent into the Cube of Space, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, Body in Assiah and Invoking the Saturn Hexagram) has been completed. Will do Zelator Formula later.

The Adorations, the Qabalistic Cross Ritual, The Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram, QCR and the Middle Pillar Ritual were completed. Meditations will be done.

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Top three Enns of the day….

Gabriel

Buer

Hekate

Those were the top three. I did a bit of digging to get the one hour enns.

It is a half hour until shift change, then two hours until dinner.

I think between the two, I should be able to use an hour to chant the four mantras for the day.

Post dinner enn chants with meditation. Possibly Zelator Formula before bedtime.

A dream sprang to mind..within the past month there was one recalled dream, that I was on a game show for healthcare.

Beelzebub and Mephisto have also popped up lately, as did Michael this afternoon. But the three pasted above were the top three. Others sprang up only because of the search in Incantations on YouTube.

The mantras being used tonight:

Neutralize and repel negative or harmful energies…

Lesh ta pak een lafa to son

Manifest needs …

It pa thal ah tem po lel

Heal subtle bodies …

Lok fahn to fa ko tek lon

Increase and enhance one’s psychic powers…

Mel ah en tul es kuhl

Those are tonight’s four mantras. Tomorrow will use the ones yesterday, Monday the ones used tonight and ping pong The mantras…with the snowball effect.

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The mantrum went okay with the four mantras, aside from the sports fan noise in the room (I am not a sports fan). I fulfilled an hour with all four roughly on schedule (taking a sip of water due to scratchy throat, speaking in a whisper tone, checking the clock).

Tarot Contemplation Ritual:

XXI The World. Saturn/Elemental Earth. The Great One of the Night of Time. The Administrative Intelligence. Tav, cross or mark, 400.

Cartomancy Card of the Day:

Queen of Clubs

A business woman, a female co-worker, a good adviser, a trusted female friend, or a social butterfly. She is an active, industrious, reliable woman who is well-liked and has great business sense. She can represent a socially active woman who enjoys clubs, societies, and other social functions. She runs her home efficiently, and she likes to keep busy. She is a hard worker, and prefers to be an active participant in life.

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Got back into bed before dinner. CaliMex cuisine tonight. Enchiladas and Pinto beans.

Dozed off for a bit after AEW Wrestling.

Having a cup of instant coffee at the moment.

I think I’m going to change passwords on all accounts, close some of them, and get a flip phone with a new carrier.

I would like to find a way to make extra money to pay a few caring people back, that covered me for a lot a lot.

Then there is the case between assisted living and independent living.

That’s about all off the top of my head.

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Average day, ate breakfast (I ate about half my plate).

Did therapy (half hour) after lunch (ate all my lunch). My therapy consisted of getting on the NuStep for 15 minutes (at 60% resistance), walking in a walker to station 3 and walking halfway back. Did balance exercises with the velcro balls at the dart board and then back to my room.

I did mantras for roughly 45 minutes. Spiritual Hygeiene, healing and manifesting needs. Will do an additional hour of mantrum after dinner.

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Pleased that I did mantras earlier, and there was a subtle effect (but not as what I was hoping for). So chances are I’ll be chanting in the early morning hours and the late night hours, if others can’t accept it then what the hell are you here for? Do you really have that much to do in the given day time?

Looking at preparedness plans and kits for my future dwelling, combined with perhaps a revolver just for emergencies. I’ve considered shotguns, there are good tactical ones but the recoil on them is pretty huge compared to a double barrel starter shotgun. The preparedness kit should be an ample first aid kit given my medical history. Other items include a weather radio, flashlight, compass, etc.

This is a brave New World for me and a couple different ways one, is personal and left at that. The other and most important is new geography. Given my concerns on heights, I’m considering the Los Angeles county area and the inland empire as areas to move to. It would have to be a relatively safe area, and built for seniors.

RITUALS PERFORMED:

Tarot Contemplation Ritual:
Drawn under Shaddai El Chai.
IX The Hermit. Virgo. Prophet of the Eternal, Magus of the Voice of Power. Intelligence of Will. Yod, palm or hand, 10. Law of Response.

Curtomancy Card of the Day:
Two of Clubs
A social or business invitation, business or social correspondence, or any kind of benefits being given, received or exchanged. A gift, a birthday or anniversary present, something being given or received not limited to material things only. The gift could be someone’s time or energy given freely. It may be a piece of helpful advice, or a special favor, or even a bit of good news. A clock, time.

Synchronicity:
Key XXI (TCR yesterday) is bottom of deck.

PERFORMANCE:

TCR was drawn under Shaddai El Chai. Given the nature of the cards which are torn pieces of paper, the shuffle was awkward at best - but I knew where to draw the the deck. Pointing to the second pile I rearranged them, starting with the top card, it was flipped over which revealed The Hermit.

The two of clubs was easier to shuffle, cut and draw. No Divine Name uttered drawing it from.

RESULTS: TBD.

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Allmost got into an argument with the wife of my roommate. They can be assholes, and religious ones at that, and at the playing the victim, they could easily get a trophy. But I kept my peace after asking for volume to go down. I didn’t even mention to the wife that it was a half hour after visiting hours.

Fell asleep around 10 and awoke at 2 am.

Used my urinal and nearly overflowed it, my bladder is a real champ sometimes.

I think I will stay up a bit and work on silent energy and psychic exercises, such as psi balls and guess odd or even tarot cards, or guess red or black playing cards; or whisper mantras.

Got a cup of hot water, and put two teaspoons of Nescafe instant coffee in the cup of hot water.

I found that one of my diaries has invoking hexagrams drawn in it, along with an invocations for the element grade planets.

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Fell asleep shortly after writing the last post. I will be working on psychic skills today, the chants done last night were mainly healing and hygeiene, but some were for spiritual advancement and manifesting needs. Woke up to Breakfast an hour ago.

Earth definition - that which is cold and dry.

Example of Earth thought of today…

A banana. The plant kingdom. The mineral kingdom. Brick, stone or Adobe buildings.

A dream related to Earth and possibly gnomes…walking around the law quad park on the Ann Arbor University of Michigan campus. A spiral staircase opens up on a slight sinkhole, and a small man dressed well and running up like the white rabbit and the mad hatter in one body emerges, the rock strata layers are bookshelves. He wants me to follow him, but the ground closed back up as he descends again. Yet he did not look like the stereotypical gnome. Do perhaps a guide or a demon ascending from and descending into the underworld.

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Not much to say here for the day so far, it’s a little bit of an equivalent to say being jet lagged. I woke up for breakfast, had breakfast, went to sleep - and woke up for lunch. I had lunch, now I’m having coffee to stay up.

No esoteric work was done yesterday, except for mantrum and some meditation.

Meditation on the mantrum seems to be effective in blocking most other entries of thoughts; which means that it’s more of a concentration exercise than a silent mind meditation.

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Slept for an hour or so. Listened to a YouTube feed video on an hour long Ansel enn video. Agios es Anael Divum et Vorsipelle.

Quite an interesting thought train of mine, a dream was on “how I should have told him that when he was trying to do this.” type elevator wit. How to drop thousands over what I owe them before telling them to fuck off.

Top three Enns videos in my YouTube feed:

Anael, Lucifuge Rofocale, Mammon.

Tarot Contemplation Ritual:

XX Judgement. Elemental Fire. Spirit of the Primal Fire. Perpetual Intelligence. Shin, tooth or fang, 300. Completion of plans near, bit disrupted to a small degree. Malkuth to Hod, Kingdom to Splendor.

Cartomancy Card of the Day:

Drawn under Shaddai El Chai.

Jack of Spades. A skillful, clever young person, most often male. A soldier or cadet, a police officer, a young person from a foreign country, a young leader. May be unsettled, erratic, emotionally inconsistent, a youth in trouble, a bully, a gang member, a juvenile delinquent, cold, calculating, emotionally controlled, detached, a liar, a spy. Can represent dark thoughts, or the thoughts of the King or Queen of Spades.

An update in music preferences:

Marian by Sisters of Mercy is a new favorite. It has the goth rock sound like Type O Negative and the industrial sound like Ministry and post punk sound of Psychedelic Furs. It rocks.

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Listened to enn for Anael, in full, nearly dozed off in the process. Listened then to the Invocation of Isis, then the Invocation of Thoth, then the Bornless Ritual, then the Holy Guardian Angel. Feel much more relaxed, though energetic.

Will do chants after dinner. Chants will follow the four rungs rather than knocking on Heavens Door, also rather than just dropping Negative Nancy and rather than just Healing the Body and Bodies of Light. The four rungs are Spiritual Hygeiene, the second rung up is the Subtle Bodies Healing, the third up is Manifesting Needs, and the fourth up is Psychic Skills Training.