Listened to another fifteen minutes of the enn for Marbas.
Will do the Pendulum and Chakra meditations, then RO and Positive affirmations.
That should have me caught up.
Will still do the chakra awareness meditation and the grandfather clock meditation. the other videos are too long and will be too loud for my roommates right at the moment because it is technically quiet time in 10 minutes.
Anyhow, I will do the Rufus Opus meditation tomorrow morning and the Lon DuQuette meditation as well.
Following that will listen to one of the enns, and do the other meditations and the Angelic Mantrum as well.
All in all, I think I deserve a pet on the back for doing this multiple days in a row and increasing the time and meditation, and keeping up the concentration as well.
As well as having completed the Zelator Formula today as well. I will, keep up the Zelator Formula through the week and observe the Rufus Opus meditation everyday.
On the more mundane side of things, I’ve joined a few groups on Facebook that are related to Arduino or electricity and electronics.
Back to an idea I had three or so years back, on certain programming segments that I had written that were involved in sending a satellite up into space, having its own communication method as opposed to tcpip that most satellites use right now, and sending circuit laden robot machines down to some of the planets, to extract information about the environment percentages of different elements such as oxygen or helium or whatnot. The end goal is to extract slabs of ice from ice or gas giants or water Giants, that match our composition of elements of water and air and Earth and whatnot on our planet so as to not cause it to become a supernova.
Listened to a few minutes of the Bael enn. (Ayer secore on ca Bael)
Yesterday’s Tarot Contemplation Ritual was XIX The Sun, Sol. Lord of the Fire of the World. The Collecting Intelligence. Resh, a head reversed, 200.
DATE: 01/08/2026 (1 by reduction)
DAY: Thursday. Day of Jupiter. El, Tzadkiel, Chashmalim. Blue candles, Cedar incense.
TIME: 05:10 AM PST
MOON PHASE:
WEATHER:
SLEEP: Not much, four hours tops 10-2:00.
DREAMS: None recalled.
MENTAL CONDITIONS: fairly good
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: fairly good
MOOD: Good
RITUALS PERFORMED:
Instant Relaxation Ritual
Rhythmic Breathing
Zelator Formula
Planet of the Day
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
TASKS:
Get out of bed and into wheelchair
Get dressed, apply deoderant
Brush hair and brush teeth
Exercise and or Therapy
THOUGHTS:
MEDITATIONS:
Remove Negative Attachments 15 minutes
Repel Negative Energies 15 minutes
Chakra Awareness 10 minutes
Grandfather Clock Pendulum 10 minutes
Positive Affirmations 1 hour
(Oldest) Enn Video 1 hour
(Gremory/Marbas/Bael)
Rufus Opus Zeus Chant 1 hour
Zelator meditation 1 hour
Tarot Contemplation Ritual 5 minutes
Cartomancy Card of the Day 5 minutes
After breakfast I was approached by therapy twice, and on the second try I got up and out of bed.
Already dressed, I got in the wheelchair and went off to therapy with Brandon. I immediately did walking in the walker and walked to station 3, to room 35, then walked back half the way and got pushed back the rest of the way. after I got back there I did 15 minutes on the exercise bike which was $750 steps, and that was the end of therapy for the day.
Got back to my room and used the bathroom and change by the CNA, then went back to bed.
Despite laughter from the chatters here, I did 10 minutes of the raise vibration and to repel negative attachments, I will do 15 minutes when it’s quiet in the room.
Going on to listen to positive affirmations for an hour, then on to another podcast for an hour, most likely the zeus cult.
MEDITATIONS:
Listened to twenty minutes of the chanted Marbas enn, then twenty minutes of the chanted enn for Bael.
To raise your personal vibration, and to release and loosen and remove negative attachments or parasites, chant the following mantra:
Ayeem Ma Ta Ah
My personal goal of the mantra is 30 minutes uninterrupted. 15 minutes is still My high point, 5 minutes is the bare minimum.
I just did the bare minimum.
That is a total of 20 today.
There is also the milestone of making it through a 15 minute mantra, while being interrupted to all hell.
W.E. Butler once wrote that if you cannot meditate on a busy street corner, you cannot meditate successfully.
RITUALS PERFORMED:
Tarot Card of the Day:
XIX The Sun.
Sol. Lord of the Fire of the World. The Collecting Intelligence. Resh, a head reversed, 200.
Cartomancy Card of the Day:
Seven of Clubs
Increased activity or changes in a business or social situation. Physical or mental effort including yard work, housework, home repairs, or even fixing the car. Attention to detail, carefully evaluating a situation before making a decision or taking action. Keeping busy, risk of a work overload, the need for rest and relaxation. Preoccupation with work, the card of the workaholic. Negotiation, disagreement, an argument, or feelings of restlessness and discomfort. Taking on too much, making the best of a difficult situation.
PERFORMANCE: Pretty good procedure for both.
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATIONS:
An additional 10 minutes of the mantra was done, despite sound disturbances or interruptions still concentrated on the clock and made it through to the 10 minute mark.
No esoteric work was done today. Not that beyond my “tarot cards” or mantras.
As far as meditations have gone, after setting myself up with over five hours strictly for a handful of so of different meditations to do; it is almost too much (as usual with me).
It’s a bummer that I cannot find a private room, especially one with enough space for my wheelchair to go around in a circle.
My roommates are nutjobs. “Christian” yet intolerant and puffed up with pride.
Actually, both are okay until it comes to my mantras or practices. Then it is annoying or silly to them. Enns played in the background same thing. They act like baby boomer aholes, “me first, you cant get what you need until I get what I want”. The middle roommate is actually okay, but super Christian is obnoxious.
Them aside, mantras are going alright. Practice is a pain in the ass, and I can only do it when they’re gone or asleep. Small rooms to do the practice in are non existent as far as staff goes.
So, outside is the last refuge, except that too is problematic for me. There is astral work and astral temples, but to me it implies one can only work with those if and only if they can scry and soul travel. Outside is problatic with the noise, and the problem of the front door, and the problem of potential wheelchair side falls, due to slopes in the sidewalk.
And here we are in the mid-morning hours, and both are asleep at the moment, but not I.
And so here it is, 3:30 in the morning, and all is quiet. One thing I found out, is that instant coffee dissolves equally as well and cold water as it does it hot water.
Yesterday was better than the previous day for walking, and yesterday sweated a lot after walking in the walker, so fair amount of calories burnt. It is cold and windy outside at the moment, California cold.
With nothing else to do practice psi ball exercises for Earth, grounding as well. Practice at will emotions and their use in ritual settings. Example, angry and justice ritual, then as ritual is done, drop anger and build up a positive emotion, such as joy or humor.
Research all Angelic Words of Power and Angelic Mantras, that all are recorded in the journal book they’re recorded in (prayer journal).
Went to sleep around 5:00 am PST, and woke up to breakfast at 7:00 am. Ate breakfast and started with fifteen minutes chant to neutralize and repel negative energies.
Got up for therapy (occupational and physical), walked to station 2 and back. Did balance exercises with hands off the walker in front of me, catching and throwing a volleyball, thrown mg velcro balls at the Velcro dartboard. Then bar exercises.
Just got back to my room, only to find that they (housekeeping) are deep cleaning it right now. Both roommates are in therapy right now.
Getting to know my roommates. Cool dudes actually. I feel bad for my schizophrenia outbursts, all I can do is appear to be two-faced yet honest and nice.
Got up for therapy (occupational and physical), walked to station 2 and back. Did balance exercises with hands off the walker in front of me, catching and throwing a volleyball, thrown mg velcro balls at the Velcro dartboard. Then bar exercises.
Just got back to my room, only to find that they (housekeeping) are deep cleaning it right now. Now back in my room waiting for lunch to be served.
DATE: Saturday, 12-10-2026
DAY: Saturday, day of Saturn. Binah, Understanding. YHVH, Cassiel, Tzadqiel, Aralim. Sandalwood and Mhyrr incense, Black candles.
TIME: 09:25 AM PST
MOON PHASE:
WEATHER:
SLEEP: Slept soundly when I got to sleep.
DREAMS: None recalled.
MENTAL CONDITIONS: Bummed out that it is such a hassle to do my Zelator Formula. And that there is nowhere else to practice my freedom of religion and spiritual practices.
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Sore feet and ankles, dry yellow phlegm producing cough. Getting better at walking.
MOOD: Good.
RITUALS PERFORMED: Zelator Formula has been completed. Adorations. QC/LBRP/QC. Adorations. Invoking the Four Powers of Earth. Adorations. Middle Pillar Ritual. Adorations.
PERFORMANCE: Fair.
RESULTS: TBD
THOUGHTS:
Yesterday was pleasant.
My sister is coming today to drop off snacks and to visit with me, I slept soundly last night (once I got to sleep) and woke to breakfast in bed.
I then, after finishing breakfast, chanted for 5 minutes the Angelic mantra to remove negative attachments and negative influences, and then not long after that was greeted by my CNA to see if I wanted to take my shower right then or later.
So I chose right then.
TASKS:
I have just got back from my shower, in my wheelchair, applied my deodorant, and brushed my hair. Teeth brush is a necessity. I feel positive and clean.
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Angelic (Ay-eem-ma-ta-ah) mantra done five minutes solid.
Did another ten minutes of the Mantra.
Recited the invocations and Orphic hymn to Kronos (Saturn) wished for mutual understanding across the world. Did 108.
Did 54 enn invocations to Marbas, to heL those who are sick.
Listened to music to ground myself.
Spoke with my Dad and my Stepmom earlier today, who are well stocked with food and they are doing well and being prepared to ride out the cold and the snow in southeast Michigan.
I had a visit with my Sister, who brought me snacks and two cases of soda pop. Pleasantly surprised. I got some candy, drink mixed (for hot and cold water), and some Pringles tubes. Talked a bit about our families, and how everyone was doing. She also helped me trim my fingernails, so I no longer resemble a vampire or mountain guru.
So today I’ve done fifteen minutes of the Angelic mantra for removing negative parasites, AY-EEM-MA-TA-AH and feel much more positive and clean physically, spiritually and mentally.
I’ve also done 108 repetitions of the Zeus mantra per Rufus Opus - along with speaking the invocations and Orphic hymn as shown in the YouTube transcript.
I’ve also said Gremorys enn a couple times with intent to know past present and future, and approximately fifty four mantra enns of Marbas with the intent all shall be healed.
Then my sister arrived. Coffee will soon be arriving an hour later, dinner will be arriving.
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THOUGHTS:
I should state here, that enn chanting was a way for me to find out the details of our mutual connection. First Gremory popped up in my YouTube feed, then Marbas, then Bael. So, I have or will chant their enns to make contact with them, or perhaps via mind will receive and understand a vision, as in scrying.
I gave away half my dinner and my dessert to a couple CNAs as they hooked me up with two grilled cheese and ham sandwiches and I could only eat one.
There are steam drawings on my sliding door, one of which could be a face and mane of a lion, or one figure riding a camel. Still, there is a sharp pain to my top tight skull, or was anyway. Still, there is a feeling of being watched.
To know myself and the sick to be healed as the charge idea. But will this take me down demonolatry road? As a ceremonial high magick magician, can I handle the grey magick route and remain impartial? Or should I draw the RHP line in the Sand? So many questions.
RITUALS PERFORMED:
Tarot Contemplation Ritual:
XIV Temperance.
Sagittarius. Daughter of the Reconcilers, Bringer Forth of Life. The Probationary Intelligence. Samekh, leg or prop, 60.
Cartomancy Card of the Day: 3 of Spades.
Traditionally a card of loss and deception, lies, misunderstanding, confusion, a growing problem, a worsening condition, deterioration, disease, infection, third-party interference, a third wheel, meddling, a love triangle, what goes on behind the scenes, trials and tribulations, a test, an exam.
PERFORMANCE: Fair. Half deck stack.
RESULTS: TBD.
MOON PHASE:
Luna is in 25° Libra, likely tomorrow will be in 0° to 10° Scorpio. Current hour is in Luna, Saturn within 50 minutes.
Fifteen solid minutes, only thing on my mind was the mantra I was repeating with breath and rhythm.
Lesh ta pak een la fa to son.
Supposedly neutralizes and repels negative or harmful energies.
Might be useful as a countermeasure to curses.
My main thought was holy cow, I actually made it to 15 minutes solid mantra use.
The next thing I knew was feeling a tingling at my crown, and a feeling of being at peace.
I also noticed and observed, but did not become obsessed with, noises or other things that were to disrupt my saying the mantrum.
All in all a success for me.
DATE: 12-11-2026
DAY: Sunday, day of Sol. YHVH Eloah ve Daath, Michael, Melechim. Gold or yellow candles, Frankincense incense.
TIME: 11:11 AM PST
MOON PHASE: Luna in 10° Scorpio
WEATHER: High 60s, Sunny.
SLEEP: Fair. Will probably nap after lunch.
DREAMS: Was at a healthcare awards show, and was getting my vitals checked while receiving either a ribbon or trophy, the winning CNA got the other award. Awoke to a CNA asking to check my vitals.
MENTAL CONDITIONS: Annoyed at my roommates. Had case of the spins when getting into bed, or sitting up suddenly.
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Sore feet and ankles, sore legs due to CNS pain signals. Tinnitus loud in left ear. My caffiene intake is being restricted.
RITUALS PERFORMED: TBD
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
TASKS: In bed, not feeling well.
THOUGHTS: TBD
MEDITATIONS:
To connect to your inmate divinity, fifteen minute mantra: Eh Ta La Vee Deh Lum
To raise ones vibration, and loosen and remove negative attachments and parasites: ten minutes: Ay Eem Ma Ta Ah
Did fifteen minutes each on remove negativity or parasites, physical healing, and spiritual empowerment.
I got interrupted on the last one however.
Fell asleep around 7:30, awoke at 10:00 PM. Should have known by looking out my pitch black window view.its now 10:45.
About to scribe some Angel Mantrum.