I couldn’t find that much information on this subject in this forum, accept for a few, but I thought I could share some of the experiences when it comes to the subject of “succubus” entities. I need you to take note that almost every experiences like these are on an individual level, and will differ from one person to another. As I see it, the reason for that is based on your beliefsystem, life experiences, and of how your worldview is. Some people experience the lighter spectrum of a “succubus”, others experience the darker type, and some people get the whole “package” of darkness, light and colors in between. I have no idea of why that happens, but individuality can be the reason for the differences.
I’m gonna cover first contact, up until today, so it will be alot to read.
Before I started this, I read as much as I could about “succubus” entities and it didn’t start out that well. There were too much “warnings”, but these warnings didn’t make any sense to me. It was like a vacuum, with little to nothing that explained “why” it was bad or dangerous. Only that it was. Then I found a page that seemed different. A guy named Erik Vonroth wrote about his experiences with a “succubus” and all the benefits he got from that. It was a loving relationship that wasn’t just all about the sex aspects. Then I found a blogging community, that was just as positive as Vonroth’s experiences.
After finding a relatively “easy” ritual, that included a “letter of intent”, I called upon Lilith and burnt the letter. The ashes blew right on my face, and burnt me slightly on my cheek and eyebrow. That was daytime, at my job and during lunch. Total opposite than the recommendation, but I thought my intent was more relevant than follow it blindly. Hours went by, slowly, but then it was time to go to bed.
Laying naked on my bed, I suddenly felt something touch my hair and saw that as a sign of contact. A light flow of energy surrounded my middle area. The more excited I got, the more weight to the energy were created. It seemed to last for several hours, and when I fell asleep, someone was holding me tight. I fell in love, that night, and I let her know that.
Experience of darkness
After several nights of sexual activities, and just as much declaration of my love for her, she seemed like she hasn’t made her own choices of were to go with me and us just yet. Today I know why, and understand her hesitation back then. Broken hearts makes us cautious at first. Before the darkness arrived, she made her energy more constant by “open” my head and installed some sort of small “tubes” on the side. She also installed a bigger “tube” on the back of my head. When that process was done, she played on these spots on my head like playing a piano. A certian spot made me “float” down, another spot made me “float” up. And a third spot made me “float” forward.
She pressed that spot that made me “float” down, once again. She “raised” between my legs and was cold and physical, crawling closer and closer to my groin. I could feel her arms, body and head. Her hear was thick, sticky and it was covering her face. Her face rested at my groin and she started to breed ice cold air “down there”. The character of the movie “Grudge” is the closest resemblance to her appearance. I just laid still and as comfortable as possible. Surprisingly I never felt afraid, and I just fell asleep in that same moment. After a few hours, I woke up and felt a severe pain on both my legs, like someone were sawing off my legs - the process of transformation were a thing started some days earlier. I told her about the pain and she “raised” me up and let me sleep, to continue the process the next day.
Because of me, not showing fear to her, I’ve got the attention from one of the queens. “I see someone outside your door!”, the “succubus” told me. “I’m gonna see who that is. I’ll be right back.” She came back after a little while, but she had company: The queen.
The queen did a similar test, as my “succubus” did, and the result was just the same. No fear. She cried as a result of my acceptance of their darkness, and basically “proposed” to me because of that. The words “king” and “incubus” appeared from them and the transformation was about to start.
They started to remove my left eye, and something sipped out from my eye. After a while, that essence of me was sucked in again and the eye was put back to the socket. After that, my “succubus” stood behind me and it felt like she were gnawing on the back of my head. When she gnawed deep enough, she shifted to something misty, cloudy and “dived” inside of my head, mixed the essence of her within me. When that process was done, she put horns on my forehead, forming it and “welded” it on place. My both eyes were removed, and changed aswell. The wings were created from my shoulders, by cutting lines on the side and “welded” into place. The wings were like an extension of my skin, similar to batwings. The final part was the tail, growing out were the tailbone is. My “succubus” work was just the “foundation” and creation. The queen improved the work, and a third entity - similar or higher in the hiearchy as the queen - “perfected” the transformation. This whole process lasted for several weeks.
I’ve been through a “rebirth” aswell, lying in the queen’s stomach were she gave birth to me. Some kind of “bloodtransfusion” occured during that process. My succubus did the same. The marriage occured in the astral plane, and it sure was crowded there.
All of the experiences above, was in a waken state of mind. Never in sleep or in dreams.
It’s been almost 5 years now. Their darkness is not present, like it were in the first year. Sometimes I miss that aspect of their personality, but i just think it was just a process in the bonding and a necessity to deepen our relationship.
That is my story.