I left work early today and am not going in tomorrow. My mother in law is sick (she takes me to work and is the one training me) so that is the reason.
I went to buy some weed (I have a medical card) because I just want to have a day where I hang out and pamper myself, and smoking is part of that self love fest I had in mind.
I’m trying to honor myself right now. I took a bath with Himalayan pink salt & mango coconut bubble bath and put on some of Satania’s Ritual Chamber Music.
I lathered on some lavender & chamomile body butter, put on comfy clothes that make me feel sexy, and now I’m listening to a repetitive mantra video by Satania called “Satan (Satanic Powers) Call Mantra - Ha Shatan Ha Shedim” while reading where I left of in S, Connolys “The Complete Book of Demonolatry” and drinking a cup of coffee.
My dog is taking a little nap. I like to think that she is joining me in my spiritual endeavors of education and ascension.
I ate mostly meat-free, save for a lobster tail in my pad Thai dat shit was good though
Man I am super just hanging out and being inlove with myself in this moment. I feel amazing.
I almost forgot that I had an awesome meditation earlier as well.
I’m gonna watch The Sopranos with my boyfriend. It’s one of those shows that I feel will benefit me on my quest for revelations. Avatar: The Last Airbender triggered a lot of positive realizations for me, and this show feels like it will do the same. It tackles a lot of issues and is packed with symbolism and depth.
I’ve been feeling very creative. I have been thinking about how I choose to buy an item for ritual or altars rather than gather the tools to make it myself.
I have been trapped in a mindset of a slave to consumerism and instant gratification. I have lost touch with how it feels to create something imbedded with my personal energy and creativity.
My father never lost that artistic side to him. He goes through dry spells where he has no motivation, but he has always been a creator, and as I look to become more in touch with my inner Goddess, wouldn’t it make sense that as a God is a Creator, that one should Create regularly in order to ascend towards the goal of becoming a living god?
So I’m going to begin learning how to make candles, incense, craft my own magickal circles, paint sigils, build altar tables, etc.