Yesterday I performed at a whole new level.
I had some anxiety due to taking my cbd:thc tincture at the wrong time of day and showing up at work with fucking mush brain, but after I broke through that, I felt like the Lord of Food Running.
I stacked four plates on my arm, man. I’m so glad I could do that. I was, again, Superhuman Lee. I heard everything, my perception was on point, and I had lazer sharp focus. It was exhilarating! I think my current yoga routine has been benefiting me in this way.
I’ve also figured out how to balance responsibilities, rest/video games, and activities to work on the self. Normally I just exhaust myself with one category and neglect the rest, but now I feel that I have a solid routine that keeps me going.
My blue lotus tea and the Euphoria elixir from Anima Mundi arrived! I took two tsp of the elixir with my raspberry hibiscus tea and wow, I definitely feel the aphrodisiac effects. There is a heightened focus paired with a calm mind, and I just feel joyous in general.
After my s/o gets out of the shower I will try the blue lotus tea. I’m excited!
I’ve been playing Devil May Cry all day long. I did a core workout and yoga outside. It was hot and humid, so I sweat a lot. Took a good shower and felt like a new person.
I cooked dinner and cleaned the kitchen, so I feel extra great that I could give some attention to my more nurturing side.
I can’t stop listening to Cradle of Filth these days. It aligns with something going on inside of me right now. It satisfies everything that my mind delights in envisioning. The way the songs feel and sound and how the videos look just really, really do it for me. Nothing feels better than being swept away into another fixation after so long going without.
I’m filled with inspiration and ideas! The last time I was like this was when I was a kid. Preteen-teen years were my best times for creation, and I’m getting back into touch with it. My imagination is starting to flourish in the way it once did, free of the self-limiting mindset so many of us develop. Too critical, too logical, too weathered by the daily grind.
How amazing it is to feel this way. I can breathe again.
I hope everyone is well.