(I ask in advance that you ignore any grammatical or spelling errors, my English is still not perfect. So you are free to point out any mistakes. And I think the post is in the right category, if not, the moderate can move it at will).
Hello people, it’s been a while since I posted something here.
I have nothing new and exciting to report at the moment, however, I find it convenient to recount my small, slow steps towards Ascension. Even though I think it’s something very "
insignificant compared to what most have already achieved here.
Well, as I said earlier in my introductory post, I am a complete beginner in the occult.
For those who haven’t read the publication, I will make a short summary of what I had published, I will not focus too much on it, as it is not the main subject of the post.
Initially I asked if there was any difference between rituals performed in a temple (house, room, etc.) or outdoors, I also asked if it would be a good idea to evoke King Paimon for student issues.
I received, and found, positive responses regarding this, and so I set about researching everything related to it. Trying as much as possible to create some approximation, and I succeeded.
I cannot say that I obtained the same result regarding the evocation, for two simple reasons:
1- The place in question, where the ritual would be performed outdoors, is quite steep, that is, the ground is very uneven.
2 - Risk of being caught. It’s a well-hidden place, however, it’s not a completely deserted place (as occasionally people appear), so I can’t find the tranquility and calm necessary to succeed in evocations. Even more so that my frankincense resin order was delayed (actually, it was lost, or stolen, as even the store itself had no idea where it was) and I was basically back to square one. Some will say that “all that is needed is Myself”, but if I don’t have a suitable place, there is no point in having “I”.
Despite these two reasons, in particular, having been a major obstacle in the process of learning about evocations and, after a careful analysis of myself, I ended up arriving at a third alternative:
I didn’t feel comfortable, in that place. Maybe it was because of his negative and death-laden aura.
Yes, there have been a lot of deaths in this place and somehow something, I don’t think it’s just the “ghosts”(or impressions) of these people, inhabit this place
And well, I have no idea what it is, this being, creature or entity.
I must also say that such obstacles were not enough to make me back off, and leave all the knowledge or potential that I can achieve, behind.
I really enjoyed this whole Ascension thing.
I promptly found a new method: invocation with mirrors.
I haven’t bought it yet, due to the very little time I’ve been having, but I’ll try to provide it as soon as possible.
Although I have not found a suitable place for my future evocations, I have found it quite convenient to make my intentions known before an evocation. I think it would save the trouble of explaining it all over again to the entity in question, and also, by the time I was “steadfast” in my practices They would already have a certain familiarity with me, and I with Them.
With that in mind I started to communicate with certain entities through their sigils, I made my intentions clear with each one and in a way they heard and answered my call.
Decidedly when I started to see a world of possibilities, and after I started to relate to other demons, things around me, and in my purposes, suddenly changed.
You see, I had not abandoned my desire to have King Paimon’s help in my studies. In a way, this sudden change of direction was not only my will, I assume that for my inner and outer growth it should that be done.
So I decided to start working not only with him, King Paimon, but also with Azazel, Beelzebub and Belial.
Yeah, I know EA recommended that it would be easier, and safer, for beginners to work with just three demons.
I saw many other comments, from several other more experienced practitioners recommending the same thing, however…
Things didn’t go the way I planned, as I’ve said before. I will explain it better in the next paragraphs.
My initial intention was to work only with King Paimon, jobs that would be related to my studies, however… the name Beelzebuth came to my mind several times in the meantime, (in the beginning, I had chosen him to be the first demon I would work, which it didn’t, so I just put it aside) I hadn’t read anything about him, let alone thought about him. I was more focused on Paimon and getting good grades.
● And yes, I got good grades, without a doubt I had a lot of help from him, because EVERYTHING was against me, many obstacles and people who wanted to harm me.
But I made it, after many sleepless nights studying without rest, and having many bouts of anger and anxiety, I finally managed to pass the year!
All thanks to your formidable guidance.
However, it became so persistent that I started having interesting dreams involving flies, “but maybe in the end, in my deep skepticism, it wasn’t even him calling me…”
The thing is, these things only started happening when I didn’t pay attention to him anymore, I stopped researching him and what it would be like to be in his presence.
And I make a reservation that initially, I just wanted to lose the fear I had of him, so I really wanted to get to know him, work and absorb his teachings.
I called him a few times, reciting something like, “Mighty Beelzebub, surround me with your imposing presence, show me the knowledge to enhance my senses and guide me on the path of my Ascension”…
Somehow, after several calls and feeling an unknown presence hovering near me, I lost the fear I had of this particular demon.
Unfortunately, I still had a lot of problems in my physical life, that’s when I walked away, for a while, from the spiritual and everything that had to do with it.
Even though I thought Beelzebub wanted to communicate with me, I decided to ignore him.
A while passed, and again I had those strange dreams about flies, which I didn’t pay attention to, probably this time it was him calling me himself, but I was quite skeptical and didn’t want to waste time with these coincidences.
The oddities, regarding Beelzebub, continued. Not only that, King Paimon seemed to hear my call; unexpected events that seemed related and coincided with things I asked King Paimon, happened and soon the penny began to fall, as well as my skepticism that gradually disappeared in the air, like smoke.
My view of these coincidences changed, I came to believe that he really had heard me, as well as Belial, so I changed my posture and my thoughts. I was ready to start rebuilding myself.
You’re probably wondering why I kept ignoring Beelzebub all this time. Well, as stated earlier, I wanted to lose my fear of him and I did. After that, I thought there was nothing he could help me with at the moment, which differed from Belial, King Paimon and Azazel.
King Paimon, I’ve said several times in what helped me, Belial would help me with my spiritual blocks and especially, with my emotional attachment, Azazel came suddenly, and I’ll talk about it later, and even then I already knew what he would be for helpful unfortunately my reasons for contacting this demon are very delicate and quite personal so I won’t say them here, soon maybe…
And Beelzebub? How could he help me? That’s what I thought, everything that was bad and flawed in my life, I had already managed to assign demons that could improve those specific parts.
There seemed to be something in this demon that told me there was something I didn’t know, and only he could teach me, after a long inquiry, I accepted that he enter my life, in a part unknown to me.
And I had no idea what that part would be
I think to make it clear to me that my decision was right, the dreams about flies continued and something strange happened.
A month ago, if I’m not mistaken and at a time when I was totally oblivious to the spiritual, I was in the library of the Institute where I study, looking for a specific book when I suddenly found a book entitled
El Señor de Las Moscas
When I read the title, I burst out laughing and thought to myself “this was the right way to get my attention”, rubbing the “proof” in my face.
I quickly started reading it, after all, from my searches in this library, there was nothing but pure fiction related to the occult. And finding something that had something to do with Beelzebub was wonderful, even if he wasn’t my focus at the moment.
Unfortunately, when I read the synopsis, I realized that the book was not what I thought.
It was expected, but it was very disappointing.
The book in question was about:
“…a group of British boys stranded on an uninhabited island and their disastrous attempt to govern themselves…”, upon reading that brief synopsis, I found the name very meaningless, as the description alone had nothing to do with it. to do with flies, and not to mention that the only entity I know of that has such a “title” of “Lord of the Flies” is Beelzebub.
● Forgive me, whoever reads the book, if it says something about flies, I didn’t bother to read it, because I thought it had nothing to do with Beelzebub.
And in case there is another entity that goes by the name of “Lord of the Flies”, ignore my “ignorance”, I’m still learning.
Despite not being what I thought, I found it very “curious”, and it served to make my choice to work with Beelzebub only increase.
When I call him, I’ll know, and so will you, what kind of knowledge, or whatever, he wants to pass on to me.
Now I will detail the reasons I had to work with Belial and Azazel:
**Belial:**
● Emotional Freedom
Everyone is tired of knowing that he is known for “breaking handcuffs, etc.” so I will refrain from delving into its broad features
The main reason to work with him is precisely my emotional.
I am, unfortunately, a very attached, very dedicated and intense person, especially when it comes to relationships. And this is very harmful to me, because even if the other person has done me a lot of harm, and we are apart, I will ignore the bad things and remember only the good ones, and I will still keep the hope that we will get together again.
Maybe it’s pure emotional lack, it probably is, or maybe the little affection I’ve had in my entire life has contributed to my being this way.
However, I’m tired of this role, I’m tired of treating everyone with respect and loyalty, and in return receiving contempt and betrayals.
I’m tired of being like this, of thinking that they can come and go whenever they want, that they will always have space in my life, that they can hurt me…
Being that kind of person is a horrible burden, I say that because not only did I acquire corrosive anxiety, but I was also thrown into a deep depression, which destroyed me and is slowly destroying me.
● Anyone who has these “problems” knows that it is a constant struggle, both against “her” and against yourself.
● But I’m used to the chaos and pessimism of life. I’ve already reached the end of the “well”, I’ve already reached the point of jumping from the “edge of the abyss”…
● From childhood to my present age, I was destroyed physically and psychologically, but the time has come when nothing can shake or stop me. The time has come when I must follow in the footsteps of the Phoenix and rise from the ashes.
Now I’ve taken the reins of my life, I’m not going to let others step on me, or hurt myself and think that everything will be okay…
Belial would help me become “free from emotional attachments”, attachments that are nothing more than leftover trauma, memories of toxic relationships and obsessions of mine.
I will work on a new “me”, an emotionally stronger me; more decisive, more spiritually powerful and above all free!
**Azazel**
● Yes, I said that “the reasons I had for working with him were very personal and I wasn’t willing to share them…”, however, it would be nice to talk a little bit about why I chose to work with him
● Answers
I look for something, and along my journey in finding ways to acquire that something I ended up reading several accounts from the Middle Ages, and in all these accounts, whether on Saturday, or mere chance encounters, there was a mysterious figure, behind the achievement of this something. .
⎯ This figure that many called a “satyr”, or a strange man wearing black clothes, who inhabited the deep forest.
I never associated any of this with Azazel, until very recently.
My obsession with acquiring it had greatly diminished, although I was constantly thinking of different ways to obtain it.
Suddenly, almost as if something was pressing me, I turned to this obsession, in a very wild and uncontrolled way. It was something I needed to own as soon as possible.
I went back to my fruitless searches, but this time it looked like the “pieces” were starting to “fit together”. I read and reread each account meticulously, trying to find the answers, and that’s when it all started to point to Azazel.
● I want you to know that despite knowing that Azazel is commonly called a “satyr”, and having had a strong presence in the old Sabbath, I still never thought he could be that same “entity” of the stories, besides being able to give it to anyone.
After a lot of research, and rationally crafting several answers, I came to the conclusion that yes, he could be that entity. So I promptly decided that I wanted to work with him as well and so get such answers and possibly a confirmation of my conclusion and his identity.
You can see how drastically my choices have changed over the months since my last post.
Currently my purposes are the same reported now, the uncertainties, however, no longer exist.
I’m prepared for whatever comes, whether it’s a good change or a bad one.
I know that working with four entities will be tiring and may not go as planned. But I’m willing to improve myself, willing to change, and get that something, even if it costs everything I’ve achieved so far, let alone everyone around me.
Many will say that I’m not thinking rationally, that losing ties with people I know can impact me, however, I don’t care. I have lost someone very dear to me, there is absolutely nothing I fear losing now.
~ Measure the consequences of your actions, calculate the effect of your actions. You are your only Judge. Once you have decided on an action, never regret it, even if it leads you to failure. Only the delusional and the weak ask for forgiveness ~.
With that sentence, which I don’t know the author, I say goodbye.
In my next post I will certainly have something much more exciting to report…
༺ A.N ༻
), I was surprised that it was no small thing that was being purified.