I saw this when Mike shared it but kept on scrolling because I was pretty busy that day. I pretty much just scanned and replied to the main thread but came back later to reread the replies and ensure I understood it all.
I’m glad I did. When I read this again, I immediately got a nudge that I could use it, sorta. In my own way, without the knife or a substitute for it. It’s not really all that different from the last update I made to my manipulation tutorial,
With the other baneful work I did, I immediately knew who the target for this working was to be. One I’ve tried to conquer in the past, actually it was the one who caused me to chase this path instead of run from it. One I gave up on, tried to bless instead thinking if they were happy they’d leave me alone. One I’ve avoided, conceded to, asked others for help for… One no matter how hard I ran or where I turned, I couldn’t get away from. One I’ve tried to just be like leave me alone and I’ll leave you alone and cooperate with.
Man, some people just insist on trying to wear you down, no matter what mundane actions you take, no matter how many times you turn the other cheek, no matter how awful and wrong they are and this one previously evaded my magical abilities and while friends helped many times, it seemed this was something I was just supposed to go through. Maybe I’ll never know and maybe this is where it had to go so that eventually, things come to light that still have not yet.
I didn’t really spend any time on ritual preparation, I didn’t draw or print a sigil. I know who Belial is, and they have delivered for me in the past in this situation, at least in lessoning what I went through and ensuring I was winning, even if I was losing. They also already stepped up and nudged me that they wanted in on the action again so, I just ran with it.
I came up to my office and used the makeshift altar from the previous baneful ritual. I sat down on the hardwood floor in front of it, took out a black candle- just like the red ones from above, and used a lancet to pierce my ring finger. I only just now realized the symbolism I missed here with this action. I had actually made a mental joke, when I received the nudge about You mean I gotta prick a third finger this week… He musta been like you dumb dip shit, in thought… 
Belial always seems to want blood from me, but always seems to deliver as well. I was quite willing to bloody it up one side and down the other before securing it to my platter.
I opened the gates, to add further energy to my ritual and was not surprised/surprised to feel other entities coming through. Energies I know, entities that have been in and out of my life in same way for most of it, those whom I originally called for this, and others have had step up for me, as well.
I was still not expecting them, as this original working only called on Belial, not Azazel, Abaddon and Bael. I’m not one to turn down four one price though, not with these four anyway. Not with this situation. I’m tired, I’m weary. I want to be done.
But I don’t feel tired and weary with the energy around me, I feel empowered to proceed, on my own authority, even on my own spiritual authority backed up by some religions and beliefs due to the titles held between me and this other individual, and so I did. It wasn’t hard to feel it was with my right and my godhood to do this.
I followed the rest of the ritual almost as written, imagining rather than visualizing. I did not exert myself to exhaustion, and in fact probably spent 20 minutes total on the ritual. But I did feel I had expended exactly what I needed to, and I had paid the price.
Fast forward to today. I’m up early to see my husband off to work and decide to get right to the things I need to do. I bought a brand-new printer because I needed to print some documents in relation to the above and get them in the mail. I also wanted one for my office, for my magical practice. I don’t feel I need to use it for anything, but I will because it can add some visuals to my practice.
I realized right away, that as a magical tool, I could use it to house a servitor to enhance any magical items I were to print from it. Be it good, bad, or whatever. So I’ve already begun to plan this out despite the fact I’m working in our bedroom, because I don’t want to carry the thing upstairs until later. Our housemate was sleeping, and it was a pretty early hour so, I don’t want to be rude even if I have a pressing matter.
I got her all set up, made a copy of something and was trying to figure out if double sided pages were going to be worth the hassle, when I got the call.
Suddenly, my situation has been resolved.
I’ll be curious to see what day the paperwork ends up being dated when it arrives, as three years ago Abaddon gave me a date. Quite simply the 20th. Well the 20th of this month and that month for three years and four months has continued to gone by. It’s gotten better, it’s gotten worse and then it’s been just been hanging the fck out going nowhere, for all of that time, so it makes me wonder if the 20th has finally come.
Side note: this is going to be my new ritual music for suurrreee: https://youtu.be/cxjvTXo9WWM
(and of course the reason: Pathworking My Current Past Life (Shadow Work) - #119 by Keteriya)
I’m certain I couldn’t have done it without my support at home and balg friends, but I still feel unstoppable today 