Every time when I see His presence fills me with warm, positive energies, an something bigger, but I can not describe it.
I think a lot about Abaddon and King Belial. It depends on who want to work with me. And the fact that Lucifer comes to help even if I’m… “ignore” Him (no, I’m not, naturally, just the feeling of recalling His name is… not too “active”), He comes. (That’s why I have a sense of guilt.)
Last night I was damn confused, because my deeper, complex relationships with Gods (with Three of Them, you can see Their names here).
“It is too easy. They’re just came to me. Look at the description of Them. They are Here, but They are handle me the way as the others not. It can’t be real. I can’t be “privileged”.”
So with other words, I can’t believed my past, my history. I mean. OURS.
So this is what We’re talked about with Lucifer.
“I do not deserve Your attention in this way. Why?” - I said.
Lucifer also has expressed that he actually misses his children and you can feel his longing for them.
It can make sense. I’m very sexual with Abaddon and King Belial (of course, this is not our true relationship, it is just a part of it), but in Lucifer’s case there is something way more bigger (connection, emotion) than simple “sexuality” or anything.
Hm… I just woke up now, I can’t describe it very well. But I’ll try later, somehow.