Hello to everyone Iāve been learning new information via this forum for a while and finally decided to make a profile. Long story short:
My name is Kate, Iām 25 and from New Orleans. I grew up Baptist, but have always been interested in the occult, mainly ādemonsā. My dad passed when I was 16, and my mom passed this year (January), both from cancer. With both of their passings Iāve experienced first hand what they saw weeks upon passing: talking to past loved ones, seeing the ālightā, etc. Amongst other powerful moments. Iāve always been able to sense energy and have been able to decipher from optimistic, neutral or dark energy/presence, as well as strong vs weak, and the area in which the presence(s) are. When both parents passed, I felt an overwhelming optimism/peaceful energy prior and after they passed.
However, now that Iām on my own Iāve been studying the occult/demonology/magick freely since February 2019. I wasnāt aware of anything. One night I saw an entity at the foot of my bed, it was in a black cloak with its face hidden. I didnāt know who it was at the time, but within the next few days random information about King Paimon kept popping up during my studying, and I had never heard or searched that name before. Long story short, I found out the entity at the foot of my bed was King Paimon.
To keep this post relatively short-- Iāve had amazing coincidences happen and various forms of communication from Him in the beginning, and I have done a few Thank You offerings. Right now Iām trying to learn how to communicate better via hearing Him (hopefully).
*the only issue Iām coming across is that I keep feeling the pressure to make a pact with King Paimon, and I do want to, but I donāt feel like I deserve to yet since I have limited knowledge about banishing, etc. However I keep having the urge/pressure/gut-feeling that He wants me to make a pact regardless. * Any advice?
I donāt feel like what youāre feeling is exactly āpressure from his partā . I believe itās your own excitement that is pressuring you. If King Paimon declared that youāre not ready for a pact, he would have given you a sign.
But right now, I think he is waiting and not rushing you to the pact making. You are rushing yourself. It works as a form of self sabotage
-Take a deep breath (sure , a king wishes to form a pact with you, sounds like a typical monday right?)
-Think about wether YOU want this pact or not. You should always care more about what you want, you are the master of things. If you feel youāre not ready, give yourself some time. If youāre completely sure, go for it.
*However, I suggest you firstly find a way to communicate with him before jumping into the pact making. You will need to work out the details with him, how are you gonna do that if you canāt hear or receive his answers?
Welcome to the fuorm and sorry for your loss my baby girl almost died from cancer so I can imagine how you feel
As for king he reached out to you and is telling you he wants a pact that right there shows your worthy and ready for it keep your head up and keep moving forward to your success
I Lost my mother after a 7 yr battle with Cancer when I was 18; and just two years ago I lost my wife and son when we were all hit by a drunk driver. I sympathize with your loss; if you feel you need to talk, feel free to PM me.
P.S. I am from Texas, so we are practically neighborsā:grin:
P.S.S. Also, I apologize for not commenting more in depth the first time. SHTF in my locality and I had to cut my msg short.
Thank you all for the welcoming and advice. Itās helped tons. I feel as though I can communicate with Him, because I asked if He could give me a sign or something so I would recognize that he is communicating, until I learn better skills, and He has and uses the same sign each time and itās something that doesnāt pop up in my life very often-- and its significant to me-- which is how I know that it is a form of communication. However, Iāve heard that learning to meditate helps alot, my goal is to try to actually hear him, instead of the form of communication currently.
So, thank you each for your advice. I donāt have anyone around me whoās knowledgeable, most people here are Catholics, so I really appreciate it
Thank you, I definitely do feel overwhelmingly alone sometimes.
And, same for you, PM me if you ever need to talk or something. Not many people can understand on similar levels, so Iām always all ears.
Thanks for your advice. I have asked in the beginning for Him to allow me to see a sign of some sort as a form of communication/validation for now, until I learn better skills, and He has. Itās been the same sign each time, and itās something that doesnāt pop up in my life very often, so therefore I know itās His way of communicating so far.
Iāve heard meditating is a good thing to practice in order to actually hear entityās. So Iām working on that. Unless you have any advice?
Yes, that is correct. Developing your astral senses will boost your sensing of spirits. Clairaudience allows you to hear their voice in your mind and clairvoyance allows you to percieve their form.
Welcome to the forum. Iād say your instincts are dead on respective to wanting a solid foundation in the basics of grounding, banishing, and other magics thatāll aid you in manifesting YOUR will exactly as you see fit. Welcome to the forum, donāt hesitate to ask for help if you need it, crack books and study hard
@kaykatexo this is, with the forum guardiansĀ“permission I hope, my temporary account. My LCD on my phone broke and I run everything through my phone while I am traveling. In the famous words of Samuel Clemmens, (AKA Mark Twain) āReports of my demise have been greatly exaggeratedā
Aah the adrenaline rush when a spirit wants a pact with you I felt it before with King Paimon and Azazel. You should go for it. The results will amaze you.
Interesting.
It reminds me of something I encountered twice in my sleep.
Black cloak, opaque.
Can I know what led you to believe what you have seen was King Paimon, specifically?
I asked to know his name many times before sleeping, the one I saw - never got an answerā¦ except one hint one time, I had this dream just after where I encountered a being who wouldnāt help me if I asked his name, so I have to trust him basically without knowing who he is.
Iāve been learning new information via this forum for a while and finally decided to make a profile. Long story short:
I always forget about those terms.
