I’ve decided to explore the dreamwork current with a focus on astral travel through dreams and spirit communion. I think it would be a good idea to hear the thoughts of others but also I thought it’d be interesting share some lucid dreams and a spirit experience I had before I worked with the occult, but they are still dreams I remember clearly.
My dreams before magic
I was about six and my extended family came over to visit. I dreamed that it was dark and I walked out of the room. The ceiling outside was made of moving shadows and the floor was made of quicksand. I wasn’t scared. I walked forward and let the sand swallow me. I was in the living room now. The Christmas tree was jet black and glowed purpleish blue. The kitchen was a jungle with leopards, toucans, jackals, owls and monkeys. I wanted to explore it but didn’t get far. I woke up to my grandma’s voice.
I had a vision of a mouse transforming slowly into a dragon with an eletrically charged skin climbing up a tree the size of a skyscraper in a desolate wasteland. There was music in the background that to this day I can not remember fully not forget at all. The last image I saw was the dragon atop the tree with its tail wrapped around it. Where it stepped, life of moss, fungus and insects sprung up.
This was when I was suffering from depression. I kept dreaming that I would kill myself with a car and gun or that a white she-wolf would mutalate me. Then I had this dream that I was about to walk through the door leading to death. But Death stopped me. She pushed my chest and I feel to the floor. It didn’t hurt. Death was a skeleton but she has ethereal flesh. Her cloak was black from the chest down and white from the shoulders up and a wide red sash separated the other colors. Her scythe was golden and the bird on her shoulder had an owl’s head but a raven’s body. A clockwork talisman hung on her side.
“You’re not ready yet,” she told me.
“Not ready for what?” I ask.
“To die. I don’t want you to go through to die.”
“I don’t get it. You’re Death. Why don’t you want me to die?”
“There is a time, place and circumstance for everything. You are weak to bring this upon yourself. You have strength. Use it.”
“So many questions you ask… that is good but you need to ask the right questions. Don’t worry about the extent of life, but how you live. The ‘how’ is more important. ‘Why’ is a good question but not the only one.”
“Can I ask you questions that have been bugging me for a while?”
“Does God exist?” (I was still surrounded by Christians at the time and was pressured to say things positive about YHWH)
Death sighs. “That depends on what you know about God. I don’t doubt the existence of God but I understand the entity differently compared to most. Everyone is correct about God existing and not existing but no one knows God. You don’t worry about God; obviously God won’t do anything for you, you already learnt that. The existence of God is a passive one. I can help you, if you need me to. The help of God is one that will never come.”
“Is there a name others call you by other than Death?”
“Many. You will discover them as you grow. But for now, go away from this place. You’re not ready to travel here. You must become strong first. So go and become strong. I will be there for you when you are ready.”
So I went. Later I discovered Death again as La Santisima Muerte.
I don’t know if this was an actual dream or not but it was odd nonetheless. I was trying to sleep one night and I turned over to see a pair of black eyes staring at me. I looked away and then looked back and they moved. I did it again and a figure appeared from the shadows. It had little pointed ears. I looked away again. When I turned around the entity was literally in front of my face. It jumped on me and for a hour I could only see clawmarks being made in my vision. I couldn’t scream, as much as I wanted to. It was scary at the time even though it didn’t hurt. I was literally blinded by clawmarks. I was very relieved the next morning when I opened my eyes and the sunlight glowed in my room. It was one of the few times I was truly happy to see sunlight.