Right, so @anon97554939 recommended I create a new post to see if any of y’all have any additional ideas on my persistent incubus/parasite.
Further details: I did a self-created ritual to invite an incubus into my life. It appeared pretty much instantaneously, causing cracking sounds in the walls and tiny quiet snaps in my ear.
Initially it was great - lovely strange inhuman sex penetrating where no physical penis etc could ever actually go.
But within weeks it stopped being lovely, and I began to get a sense that there were multiple beings involved, fighting over me. (Like I could feel them shoving/slapping at each other while hovering over me, it was very odd) Communication went from great to nonexistent - nothing I said seemed to result in a change in behavior nor garner a consistent reply in the cracks/snaps.
My ability to gather energy from the air around me plummeted into nonexistence, my meditative/trance abilities vanished. The few times I was able to go and talk to my old contacts - various deities - they all looked at the thing attached to me with undisguised disgust.
After two years of trying to make it work, I gave up and pretty much fell to mostly ignoring it because banishing didn’t work, and everything I read said ignoring the thing(s) was pretty much my only option and that maybe it’d go away.
It never really went away, consistently petting my crotch whenever I lay down to go to sleep. My life has gone to hell in a handbasket in the last ten years, and I hadn’t honestly attributed my many, many personal disasters to this being’s influence, but it certainly hasn’t helped the way a loving incubus would, so that’s a sign it’s not at all what I had intended to invite into my life.
A deity I am long familiar with broke through the fog the other day and told me to get rid of it. This deity’s never steered me wrong in the course of my life, so I’m done letting this thing hang onto me. The deity tried, but all they managed to pull off of me was some…slimy muck? It was like trying to get Elmer’s glue off with just a fork, not very effective since the parasite sort of oozes through, and there’s so much of it.
Luna made it sort of quiet for a few hours, then the parasite seemed to fight back and is now more active than it’s been in a couple years. I’ve added the Dremus devourer sigil to my headboard, we’ll see how tonight goes.
I cannot stress enough that I literally haven’t been able to raise any magical energy in years because of this thing siphoning it all off faster than I can gather it. Banishing spells require some oomph and despite my best intentions there is no oomph to be mustered.