Now let’s talk about rage, I don’t just mean anger I mean pure chaotic unfettered rage.
Have you ever tried to do something but couldn’t do it, like strength for example. You might try to lift a heavy weight and push and push with all effort but it wouldn’t budge.
Then you get angry and in this anger and pure adrenaline you push that motherfucking anger towards the weight.
And bang you lift it, scientifically rage speeds up your heart rate, enhances strength and speed because the anger is a source of physical energy that you can access via adrenaline.
The berserkers used this for war, yes they used drugs but this got them into a trance of pure rage.
The berserkers would literally push rage to a new level, to the point pain was removed, strength and speed was that of a fierce animal.
Rage is not only a source of physical adrenaline, but it’s a emotion and if you understand emotions they have spiritual energy currents.
I have experimented with the spiritual energy of rage and damn its potent.
Ea explains that in baneful magick, to kill your victim you should exhaust all your hatred for that individual, he states that if you’re not on the floor completely drained of all that you are, do it again.
He explains that you do this to remove the person from your mind and emotions, forgetting about them allowing the magick to take its affect on the victim.
I’ve come to the conclusion that the reason it’s so potent, is it also adds the power of rage into the equation.
Fiery unstoppable force of rage, towards a victim is highly effective in killing them.
I believe that harbouring this force is a great component in ascent, I experimented on a person I hate the most.
Which is my father, a man who mentally and physically abused me as a child. He was a cheat, a liar, a alcoholic a evil motherfucker indeed.
He made me sucidal, to the point I tried to take my life on multiple occasions, I could have killed him using magick.
But I didn’t because all my life I have been angry at him, this gives me drive and the push I need to get shit done.
Anger gets shit done.
Anyway I focused on him, including all the things he has done towards me or the people I love.
Anger kicked in immediately, I felt burning sensations in my brain, heart chakra, solar plexus and root chakra.
I saw in my mind this red fire at each of the four points, focusing on the hate, rage and my father.
I began to make noises, growling like a animal, hyperventilating and all my muscles and veins expanded. My hands clenched into fist, my body began shaking I entered a state of pure rage.
My whole being felt like it was burning my aura felt like a erupting volcano, I couldn’t breathe, but as I moved these energies of rage around my being.
I felt like I could obliterate everything and anything, I channeled the energy, I suddenly felt a huge surge of power exploding from around and within me.
I screamed loudly and collapsed, I had been pushed out of my body, but I was in a place I can only describe as " the nexus of rage and chaos ".
Spirals of red fire and lightning circulated me, a thundering voice laughed and said …
" you are my prophet become the embodiment of anger, then push pass your threshold and become the beast of rage become the red burning flame of blood and rage, allow it to consume you, as you consume it become obliterated and rebuilt in this flame ".
I saw before all this lightning and fire, it became one singular point, I screamed " I accept this power ".
I projected myself into the fire, I saw visions of all that hurt me and all my pain I experienced through out my whole life was set before me.
The flames not only burnt me, but it obliterated me completely, as if even my molecules and my atoms were burnt.
I became the fire, all was black all was silent as if I died, I heard screams and noises, louder than anything i’ve ever heard.
I blasted forth from the fire as the embodied flame of rage, there I stood, I felt like I ascended above the throne of all, and as if I was dragged under and below a infernal abyss.
Then I came back to my body, my body was in pain, but I felt like I could do anything the actual energy of the rage.
Has kept me up now for three nights, I have still felt energetic and damn it was a indescribable feeling being in that state.
From this experience I can see that rage is a great component in ascent, I will continue on this path and I will become the prophet I was told to be.
After all when the force of rage itself pulled you in, you don’t walk away so easily.
Classic.