Yeah I didn’t get the same feeling from the card “The Universe”. I read that as “you ARE the universe” or “you have a Universe of options”. Be careful not to let conscious fear override true subconscious messages.
Be aware, what you believe and fear is what you will manifest. Stop that and control your thoughts. It needs strong discipline but can be done.
You are in a whirlpool of negative energy, probably put in motion by the narc mother. but that is not the universe. Stop projecting that the universe won’t do it, you are self sabotaging in a big way. If you get nothing else out of this episode and it all goes to shit, if you can hold on to that one thing you will do 1000 times better, your luck will improve, you will start meeting good people, and you will move away from unhelpful people and situations.
We have a bunch, read them through and pick the one that you like the most.