Hey guys. I feel like I need some help… I keep having intrusive thoughts that are most definitely the product of going to Catholic school. My parents aren’t even really Catholic, but the local Catholic high school is a million times better than the shitty public school.
Anyways, I keep thinking that being on this path, the Left Hand Path, evoking demons and performing magick, makes me a dark person. An evil person, perhaps. And subconsciously, I worry that one day I’ll have to either turn and face the light (God/YHVH) or condemn myself to eternal suffering in the Christian conception of Hell. I don’t want to believe that, but I guess I’m wired to keep coming back to that thought.
Does anyone have advise on breaking through programmed Catholic dogma?
Make a ritual where you kill Jehovah. Or for something simpler, blaspheme Jehovah. Channel all your hatred into your words and start degrading him. This will reduce his effect on you.
A good way to combat this is to figure it out for yourself. Keep an open mind to possibilities. There were loads of religions BEFORE Christianity. Maybe research some older religions?
But I am straying away from what I want to say: Learn to Journey/Soul Travel. There are tons of threads on this forum with advice and how to. You can even PM Lady Eva and she will give you a Journeying guide free She has done it many times before, and Im sure she’d be happy to help you start your soul traveling adventure.
look at it this way their God murdered millions of people during a flood told a man to sacrifice his only son was OK with rape slavery and child abuse and had his own son tortured to death so he can have control over humanity don’t forget that all the sects can’t agree with each other and call everyone else a heathen or a heritic
also remember when we die we enter the Astral spirit realms of which there are many yes there is an infernal realm where the demons like Azazel and Belial call home but it is not a place of torture but a safe place for the souls of Satan and his demons… only true hard core Christians go to that fire and brimstone hell which is of YHWH
Well… if you’re having a hard time straying from the teachings and breaking free… start reading the bible lmao.
I was having a hard time too until I decided to read the basis for all their shit. And honestly after reading… I started to realize just how fucked up it kinda is… and I’m not really sure I would want to be a devoted follower of a god like that anyways.
One that is praised for giving us free will, but condemns you for using it. And is supposed to be loving and forgiving… but kills without a second thought.
I think you just need to ask yourself a few questions.
What did that religion ever do for you? What good is faith if it keeps you from asking questions?
Do you really want to serve someone who would wipes out entire civilizations because they dont praise him?
Do you want to stick with something out of fear?
If you’re worried about hell I actually did a whole study on it because I was worried about the same thing.
Yes lol. I just feel like theres so much hypocrisy there. Even in the church theres hypocrisy. I dont think I’ve seen any bigger group of liars and hypocrites than in the church.
I mean we’re all black magicians but at least we say things straight.
I think you first need to empty your mind completely… from everything. Then program it with what you want. Step by step. It’s a life time process, not a single event or course.
Meditation will be very helpful. But it must be focused on a new specific principle or belief each time. It will also help if you watch debates or lectures by atheists, debunking religious B.S I can suggest : christopher hitchens - sam harris and richard dawkins. When you’re watching a movie or a long video, and relaxed, your mind is already in a trance-like state, watch as if you’re studying… not just listening. Try to focus on their arguments. Think about it… research any point later after you’re done watching or reading their material.
On the other hand, you also should take your steps in the left hand path, without force or extreme views. It shouldn’t be a reaction to religious dogma, or the rest of your life would be still affected by religion but in an opposite direction. Try to connect with what - you - feel and think about this path. The philosophy, the principles, the way of life… away from religion as possible.
Most important, in my opinion, is that you don’t replace one dogma with another. So keep your mind free from that… get it busy studying and understanding instead of believing or “having faith” in anything without reason or purpose. Train your mind to question, investigate, argue, test and examine. All those skills or mental muscles need to come back to life, by training and practice everyday.
She has done it many times before, and Im sure she’d be happy to help you start your soul traveling adventure.
