26th July, 2021
Long post ahead, I haven’t studied today. Went on a walk today.
Today I was watching this video:
In this, EA mentions that there are many entities with the name of Lucifer in the astral, and they’re all different. He mentions Satalosh (?) which is also the point where I got distracted and stopped watching the video.
As always, I called Lucifer and asked him about it. (This is all very visual, open-eyed so I guess you could say I saw this all in my mind’s eye). I saw him sit in front of me, and to scry inside his eyes.
I found it odd, but he encouraged me to continue.
When I looked deeper, I saw darkness. Complete darkness, not a single ray of light (shouldn’t be surprise but it still was all new for me). Inside the darkness however, was a chair. And someone sitting on the chair.
If you have seen Asenath Mason’s art of Lucifer, the one where he has long nails and no hair, a very demonic form, that was the figure sitting on the chair. Exactly like him. He also felt very primordial.
I soon found myself sitting adjacent to him. It was dark, but I could still see him.
“Are you scared of me?”, he asked.
“Not really, I guess I’m more curious than afraid”, I answered.
The floor seemed to be reflective, as I could see myself when I looked down at it.
“Fall back”, he said.
I questioned it, when he said again,“Get up, and fall back.”
So I did. I got off whatever I was sitting on and let myself fall on my back. I didn’t fall though, the world inverted itself when I was about to hit the surface and I found myself sitting again.
“You cannot quantify me”, he said.
Then a snake slithered across the floor again. I was extremely, extremely confused. I focused out and saw Lucifer again, the one I usually see, but then it was back to his other form (the Asenath Mason one).
At this point, when I turned right, I saw Lucifer’s angelic form. When I turned left, his demonic. In front of me, both. The features split into two. His voice was distorted.
There was something there, that sort of sent me on the edge. Something in it intimidated me, so I asked for the Lucifer I usually see to return.
He did come back in a few seconds (when I say this I also mean the features). The snake, was also back.
I started pacing around because I felt like I would become delirious if I didn’t put two and two together and ground myself.
While I paced around, I again called to Lucifer:
“It’s a mindfuck, I’m confused. Is he you? Are you him? Are you both each other?”
L: I am everything, but I’m also different.
L: Think of it this way. You have a name, your friends give you a nickname, your family another, and so on and so forth. But you are still you at the end of the day. Each mask, is a separate name, but it’s all me. The enn is how you call the version of me. You understand me as me, or an archetype.
L: When a magician, a witch, whatever you’d like to call them, calls me, requests for me, there’s a different aspect of me. There’s more than how I need to be with a magician, there’s also the image of me they have in mind.
L: You, for example, have a specific image of me. Therefore, I appear as such. I’m the angel, the fallen angel, the demon, the lightbringer and the lord of Hell. I’m also…Tom Ellis ^^
(Ngl I laughed at that).
L: Anything else?
M: Not for now.
Safe to say, it ended the existential crisis that was about to come.
It was soon followed by a vision of King Paimon.
I was meditating with his enn but I fell asleep. So I pulled some cards. I figured out where I’m struggling with (apart from memorising meanings). I was able to hear during meditation. I also discussed with him the frequency of our communication.
During my walk, I talked to Michael. I consulted him about beginning with Belial. He simply stated that it’s my decision and my choice to make.
When I started overthinking he shushed me. He really shushed me he narrowed his eyes and went “Shh”. I’m quite convinced we’ve worked together in a previous life with how casual and chill he is. His sense of humor- underrapreciated.
I also told my guides to send signs about it, and my YouTube is filled with blockage related Pick-a-cards. Then I did some divination:
9 of Swords Reversed, Queen of Cups, 2 of Cups Reverse? I don’t remember the last card but it was positive. Sooo I guess I’ll start? I’m still wary…I need a little push.
Today’s dinner is aloo bhujia and roti. I hope everyone who reads this has a good day!