Will do ^^
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10th February, 2022
18:19
Starting from yesterday, I did a spell for MFWB. In the evening I was feeling extremely fucking shitty. Angry, sad, frustrated and missing my ex who is, for good reasons, my ex. It was confusing because I was missing him while knowing he was to me.
I believe it was a test, to see how much I had progressed. If I still validated myself and my wounds without getting influenced by someone else.
Somehow I feel it was Belial’s test. And I think I passed it. I still valued myself, I did not put myself down. I accepted that my hurts are not lesser because someone else had it worse.
It made me tired, so I chose to have some time for myself after dinner. I was still feeling extremely emotional and uneasy so I went to Michael. He helped me calm down and suggested cleansing my energy, which solved the situation pretty immediately.
I spent some time with him, with a hymn to him that VK Jehannum had channelled. I had memorised it a few months back. I didn’t meditate, I had planned to invoke Michael but seeing that I wasn’t energetically in a state to do it, I didn’t do it.
Today was a much calmer day. Haven’t meditated yet, but did the spell for mfwb. I channelled a few new spreads for my tarot business which I wish to try out here. I want to try it out before I post it on the instagram. They’re channelled by/from Lucifer and Azazel. They were not happy with the prices, Lucifer especially, but I told them about the little discomfort I had about high prices so they didn’t push it. It will be a gradual process, and I have plans of my own. I appreciate and usually follow their guidance, but there a few things that we choose to come to a middle ground on.
I plan to meditate to Lilith tonight, and finish the readings.
That’s all for this entry, as much as I remember, at least. I hope everyone has a good day!
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Learnt how to calculate planetary hours, started Agrippa vol. 1
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I find that so confusing!!
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It’s a little tricky at the beginning. The tutorial Dankquanicus linked explains it really well.
No one told me I’d have to come back to math here 
my age old nemesis 
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I just downloaded a planetary hours app on my phone. It works really well and it was free
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Niceee 
Share name please 
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for 11th February, 2022, because I hadn’t updated yesterday:
I was sleepy af and had a headache because I was hungry in the morning and couldn’t eat anything because of class. It made me hangry, and after tucking in my doggos after dinner I fell asleep. I did not meditate yesterday, and my guides making sure I don’t get addicted to this game (which I have perfected the turns in 
) by lagging and automatically closing the game when it crosses the 30 minute mark. ±5 minutes. Whoever is doing it, thank you. I continued reading Agrippa’s book which took me back to Shakespeare in school and I took some time wrapping my head around a few words.
I lit a candle for Michael yesterday, it flickered all the time till it went out.
Anyways I continued reading the book till I got a mail from the University about semester exams. I panicked, because I had not been doing well in my past assignments and I felt very scared of how I’ll perform. I always was a little doubtful of myself when it comes to academics and I was feeling overwhelmed. I asked King Paimon to help me pass dinner (because the environment is almost always stressed). I got a burst of energy and surprisingly didn’t have much to do.
So I watched some YouTube. When I’m feeling overwhelmed but. drained, I like watching longboard and mtb videos. I just find them relaxing. I would’ve gone to watch some asmr cooking but given that I was already hungry it seemed like a bad decision to make.
I booked my ticket, I’m going back to my hostel next week. I will finally be able to properly study 
To the apples that have been stuck there, I’m coming to save you. If not for Santa Muerte’s grace so that you’re alive enough to not melt 
(seriously, an apple I offered her never rot. never, idk if she had it).
anyways that’s all for this entry, I hope everyone has a great day!
I was buying mini tarot decks in my dreams last night. Soon. Soon 
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Thank you! 
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12th February, 2022
21:29
My dog is sneakily trying to chew my quilt. With all the heavy emotions in the atmosphere, I’d like to start this journal on a light hearted note, a.k.a
Vegetarian Vampyrism: That moment when Onion thought of practicing on a pear
One fine morning, I was talking to my good friend. My sister had brought a pear for me to eat. Which I didn’t want to because it was 11am and I wasn’t hungry. I thanked her, and continued chatting with my friend over whatsapp. So I asked my said good hearted friend:
“Have you ever vamped a fruit?”
To which he said,“No 
I’ve never heard of it”
“Can it work though?”
“Maybe?”
Rookie me thought, it’s a thing. It has energy, it might work. I couldn’t think of any target in mind except for the unfriendly neighborhood drunkard perv, but I hadn’t yet learnt how to filter and purify energy before consuming it.
Pear it is!
I put down my phone, and turned my concentration to the pear in front of me. Crooked on it’s fleshy, succulent round base, with a little brown stick at top. It was very green, and it’s texture naturally coarse.
I lifted my hand, trying to use the force to levitate and bring it to me (not really). I remembered C Kendall’s tutorial. Breathe in, breathe out.
So that is what I did.
Breathe in, breathe out. Breathe in, breathe out.
The innocent pear would think,‘Wtf is she trying to do?’ as I tried my level best to focus. Alas, it was all in vain.
The pear, still in confusion of why I was having a stare down with it did not expect this twist of fate. It has been waiting to be consumed ever since it was plucked.
‘Let’s give her something’, the pear thought. And left me with it’s parting gift, of smelling pear throughout the day after consuming it.
“Farewell”, I said to it as I took a bite. It was a pearfect ending.
-*fin*
lol that is all. I didn’t really vamp a pear, but it was a really odd experience.
Today I relaxed and rested. Did a spell for MFWB.
I received an email today telling me that I qualified for the next round for getting selected to the internship I had applied for. Home has been relatively stable today. I had petitioned Michael to make my mum stop hurting me and so far she has not.
In the evening, Aeshma came. Saying that I forgot about him.
A: You forgot about me.
M: Ummm…no? Okay, maybe but not really?
A: …
M: …
A: You. Forgot. About. Me.
M: Ik, ik, I’m sorry.
A: You invited me to your house and shut the door at mt face. (he was quoting a friend of mine)
M: That’s what [friend] said.
A: I know, and she put it well.
(we talked for a while)
A: You will invoke me tonight.
M: Eh? But
A: Don’t use enn.
M: okay…
A: No mantras.
M: Vibrating your name then?
A: 
So that is what I will do after I post this. I have ignored him. It started when I started working with Azazel, I think. Lucifer led me to King Paimon, after King Paimon came Azazel. With Azazel came Lord Belial. After Belial came Abaddon and with Abaddon came Aeshma.
Then I focused solely on Belial and Azazel, shit went down and I said to Abaddon and Asmoday that I’ll work with them later.
After things settled Aeshma came and well, I have been…ignoring him…which is, bad on my part. Beelzebub was also sending signs a few months ago, but I wasn’t ready.
Anyways, that is all for this entry. Good night everyone, I hope everyone has a good day!
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Haha lovely post about the Pear. Now I’m hungry and I can’t eat fruit because.
- Keto
- Intermittent fasting
How much diffrence does invoking by just vibrating the name vs actual enn recitation make? In terms of contact, time for contact?
I’ve never tried this before. I recently started invoking. I’ve always only evoked.
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I was invoking him by vibrating his name but my puppy got scared so I stopped
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Haha lovely post about the Pear. Now I’m hungry and I can’t eat fruit because.
- Keto
- Intermittent fasting
Ah damn, I’ve only ever heard of keto, I didn’t know that you don’t eat fruits in keto 
I used to be able to invoke well enough that I felt my consciousness step aside and letting the spirit in. I rarely felt it physically or energetically tho. But because I was not consistent in the past few weeks I have lost my touch. I hadn’t built it to the point where I know that I have a baseline which I can add on to.
While enns are a good way to contact, I find vibrating the name makes it more powerful. Personally at least. I like vibrating the names because it allows me to feel it in my body. I usually chant enns in my head, Lucifer’s enn I whisper because I love it and I love saying it. I feel whispering it adds a personal touch which both of us mutually like.
As for time of contact, because I’m at home I’m doing it at night when I will have space for myself. There is no specific time I set, only days because if I set a time ans don’t meet it I’ll guilt trip myself for dayss.
At my hostel, I won’t be able to vibrate the names. So thank you for bringing it up, I will record myself vibrating the names and meditate to that in my room.
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Yes it’s not too bad of you eat meat. I was very overweight and was on keto from 2017-2020, 4 years and lost about 60kilos. I’ve put on a bit so back on it again.
So how long do you vibrate the names for? Till you feel contact?
So this is a standard practice in aghora and Tantra. You whisper the mantras on the appropriate mala. A dark room, lit with a single mustard oil earthern lamp, wooden fire going and a ton of dhoop incense, the atmosphere is palpably intense. It’s interesting you do this with Lucifer.
I’m asking all these questions because I’m invoking King Paimon tomorrow. This willl be my second Invocation 
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I see, that’s amazing progress. Good luck
Yep. I usually get all tingly and pause to see if I get any further instructions, if not then I continue till I think it’s enough or if I’m told to stop. Vibrating it closer to or in trance is much more affective, as well as visualising breathing in the energies in the inhalation breaks in between vibrations.
Ai this I must experience this one day. With the amount of energy I build up just by drawing a circle is intense, I can’t imagine what it’ll be like in this! Maybe with less dhoop because I was a smoke allergy.
I used to listen to his enn, or say it in my mind or silently. A few times I whispered it, and he said he liked it when I whispered it so that’s what I do. It feels like his ear is right in front of me whenever I’m doing it. Like he’s sitting or bending down just to listen.
King Paimon, I invoked him weekly. I miss doing it 
I am getting myself back on track. He’s amazing The real challenge for me is maintaining this in my hostel. Good luck with the invocation
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Ok noted. So what I learnt from a friend is that you evoke first and then breathe them in. So I evoked. Then I talked to him and then I saw his sigil solidify and then I breathed it all in intensely.
What an awesome experience that was.
King Paimon is my Patron and I plan to invoke him weekly.
Did you notice your clairs open up more after invocation? I feel one single invocation made whole lot of difference for me. So I want to keep doing it.
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I didn’t notice much about my clairs because
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I don’t pay heed to them because I regularly meditate to maintain and strenghten them. I meditate on each of my chakras for a few minutes whenever I can.
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When I did invoke King Paimon my intention was not related to magick. He was, is, helping me out with real life stuff. I invoked him because I wanted to show him that I’m grateful for everything he has done for me and it was a way I felt would express my gratitude to him.
Lucifer and Michael have been the ones to help me out with my clairs the most. The way I started with my clairs was meditating to Lucifer and Michael on the same day for like 2-3 months. Lucifer healed some of my chakras and meeting him brought immense pressure to my 3rd eye which gave me headaches sometimes. While Michael was more on the visual and touch aspect of my clairs.
Clairsentience and clairvoyance are my strongest ones.
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From Lucifer, on trials of emotion
I would’ve posted it that day itself, but I wanted to sit with it for a few days before I did.
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14th February, 2022
19:32
Hello everyone. I’m taking a break today. Some stuff happened in the past few days and my body needs to rest and relax from all the adrenaline. But the biggest thing I’ve learned is that my vulnerability is my strength. I will be updating the journal soon.
Till then, I hope everyone has a good day.
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