Hello! I go by Fau here. Pleasure to meet everyone and join this website!
I’ve known about this forum for maybe over a year now, but with my New Age spiritual upbringing and all, I’ve always been very scared of “lower vibrations”.
I woke up one morning with a deep voice booming in both ears, saying the name “BELIAL”. I remember opening my eyes while I heard that name, so that dream and name has stuck ever since. Not sure if it’s because I was looking through this forum, though I was more interested in another entity.
Few months pass and I’m reading a book. Flip the pages and I see Belial’s name again. The only reason I had that book was because of someone I thought was my Twin Flame. Without meeting him, I would not have any interest signing up for that course in school and coming across Belial again, nor would I have allowed myself to pursue the spiritual/occult matters of life. There are a few other instances, too.
I have this strange gut knowing that maybe in some past life, I was involved with all this “dark stuff”. Even today, I feel a sort of taboo darkness (how can I explain it?) inside me and I keep coming back to this, running away, coming back, etc.
This time, I’m desperate. I’m scared and I’m desperate. I’m on multiple scholarships. I’m in a good school. My mom works way too hard. I didn’t really do anything bad, but a young man I recently acquainted myself with got into a mess and I might get involved simply because I wanted to hang with him.
I just want to avoid the popo completely. I want this whole thing to be over. I know everything happens for a reason and everything always works out in the end…
I know my first step is to FINALLY and properly contact Belial. I’ve made a few weird attempts and something happened once, before the situation. I have trouble finding the necessary items and I’m just shaky and scared about the whole thing.
Thank you for reading.