My Rough Experiences

[Lady_Eva]

@Nolan_Toney

• my loneliness. This is because nobody wants to hang with the mental guy. I have autism and ADHD.

Just for this, have you tried to find if there’s a meetup.com in your area?

They have all kinds of things going on, meetings for all different kinds of hobbies and interests, and you just show up, no expectations and no pressure if you want to take your time before going back, I have a friend with ASD and anxiety problems and he finds this lack of expected commitment perfect.

@Nolan_Toney

I have a 100,000$ device implanted into my spine, and a pain syndrome newly diagnosed just for me. On top of that, I have permanent gastritis and Gastroparesis.

Can you translate this into sympathy-bux by blogging about it or something?

I know that sounds cynical but there must be other people with the same problem/s looking for info and maybe if you blogged about it, you could 1. help them and 2. monetise the blog with ads, or at least, Amazon affiliate stuff. Just an idea. You gotta work with what you have in the moment, and like I said, could help others if doctors are still in learning-mode over your problem.

@Nolan_Toney

If I can get one spell to work, just one, i’d be to give me the life I want. Or at the very least respect and admiration by my peers.

Okay friendly advice, and I have my own scars that taught me this over nearly 30 years:

1. one single blockbuster spell will NOT fix everything in your life, magick is not generally that simple and secondly

2. the more you attach to needing tangible results, the more they will elude you, I know that sucks and we could argue all day about why, but this phenomena whereby desperate need drives results away is thoroughly well attested, I have experienced it, it’s variously called “lust for results” or just trying to keep your ego (need for validation) out of the equation, and no, it’s NOT always easy, I think we constantly have to watch for it no matter what our experience level and overall success rate is (so I’m saying you’re not “wrong” for hitting this obstacle).

To ACTION!

I think for your specific needs, the advice @Norski gives here in this thread is absolutely priceless:

How to Get Results that Astound You (Sphere of Influence vs Relationship to Outcome)

Been thinking a lot about the nature of how results tend to show up so I figure I’d move the meditation to written form and leave it here for anyone it may help. Every time I have a result manifest that absolutely astounds me usually comes out of nowhere while I’m living in “wave function” or “going with the flow/” I.e. I’m not emotionally outcome dependent on getting what I cast for. I started with basic Chaos Sigils phrased as a question to manifest the emotional state I’m seeking with the …

My strongest advice to you is temporaily forget working on other systems for results (stay in contact with spirits, just lay off the needy stuff) and treat the advice he gives in this and the replies like it is THE infallible instruction manual (not intending to embarass the author, just emphasise a point) - don’t try to mix other things in, don’t try to fast track it, treat it as the one true way because your faith, applied to this and to doing what he has described, will help you get past this dilemma of failure just creating worse feelings of neediness, which (I say again) is something that can happen to anyone if we don’t constantly check ourselves.

PS important ingredient - don’t be “me, me, me” all the time, try doing stuff for others as well, no ego and no “look at me,” just quietly and dare I say it humbly, there is real power in this which is why every rich person does philanthropic stuff - again, not to get into the “why” but you can see this is observed in countless books, from mundane advice to magickal, about how to unblock a stuck feeling or blue mood.