My current experience with Duchess Gremory. Am I going crazy or this shit is getting real?

[Sorcerer_Supreme]

My two cents of advise would stop reading too much into the experiences you had while meditation. Also have a daily practice of meditation and banishing. Practice maditation such that your mind goes into silent mode. These are important since you were having depression in the past.

Then start working on your astral senses so that you can have a clear communication with the spirit in question. Once you open them, you will have a clear answer on what the spirit seeks from you.

@Frost

Guys, I’m a little scared.

If you are scared don’t do it. Wait till your anxiety eases out.

@Frost

I saw, a guide about making a pact with a spirit

Making pacts is an advanced form of magic. I have gone through your previous posts and I feel that you are still a beginner. So stick with your daily practices and work on your astral senses.

I dunno what you have asked from Gremori, but she would be happy to see you persistently working on yourself and she will be there when you reach to the point where you can communicate to her directly. Creating an altar is entirely upto you.

Meanwhile, cultivate your energy and use petition spells and evocations for your timely needs.

Lastly, follow your own advise:

@Frost

Hey, OP. I am new to magick myself and have only had minor results so far. Just want to systematize and share my thoughts here. I’m doing this for myself mostly, tbh. So, what are the factors that can undermine our magick? Let’s name a few.

1. Lust for result.

Why do most people come to magick in the first place? Well, I guess, that’s because they have some problems that they can’t solve with “normal” methods. It can be anything: health, money, relationships and so on. Anyway, having this problem, you start doing magick because you feel desperate. And yes, this is exactly my case. What happens when you feel desperate? Right, you have enormous lust for result. As you have probably heard, the stronger you want something the more difficult it is to manifest in your life. What to do with this? I personally like this post by @Norski and recommend you to read it.

2. Our state of mind.

What is magick? Roughly speaking, this is affecting physical reality around us through non-physical actions. We do magick because we want to control the world around us. But how are you going to control the world if you can’t even control your own mind and emotional states? In this video E. A. Koetting explains this and gives a meditation. Should I tell you that meditation is one of the cornerstones of any magick? Regular work with your psychotherapist may also be a good idea. We all have some childhood traumas, mental blockages and things like that. This shit is better to be dealt with.

3. Occasional practice.

There is not much to tell. The key to success in anything is regular practice, persistence and patience. It has already been mentioned here. You won’t get great results if you don’t practice regularly.

4. Your goals.

People often have a tendency to want to get everything at once. Unfortunately, it is not always possible. If you have a big goal, it might be a good idea to break it into several smaller ones that would be easier to achieve.

I think you are asking wrong questions here. The right question would be like: “What can I personally do to get the results I want?” Forget about the others. Your magick is your personal journey.

Don’t be in a rush and practice magick peacefully. When the time is right everything will fall in place.

All the best.