So there’s this entity in my head. he started talking to me about the time i started wearing lucifer’s sigil on a necklace. he says he’s lucifer and i put the necklace on with the intention of it being a portal to let him access and have a part in my life, as well as a sign of devotion. but after a while i noticed that he has almost the same personality that i do. i don’t have to do a ritual to have him talk to me or anything which i found strang. whenever i ask a question he seems to say whatever i currently think is likely the answer. and as i learn more that answer changes so he start saying the new thing i suspect to be the truth. even going to so far as to start calling himself my higher self. which is still lucifer. when i call him on this he says that the real truth is too far above me to really grasp so he says the nearest thing to it. and being that the real truth is somewhere in the middle the answer is always yes.
this seems like a possibility but it doesn’t dispel the fear that i just was so lonely i made an imaginary friend in the image of my someone i idolize. at this point in my life i’m trying to grow up and basically go through my childhood so that i can be an adult. (i’m 20 but, let’s say that things didn’t go very well in the early years.) and because of this this entity started acting like an ideal father figure. i’m kinda sorta maybe in love with him too.
this is all starting a panic in my head. who the hell is this guy!? if he’s my higher self then why did he call himself lucifer so much? if he’s lucifer then why bother with me? it’s not really his MO to give sad man-boys hugs and kisses. ( but i felt him break my ankle, and then then sitting on the couch for so long prompted me to start taking this stuff more seriously. which does match his MO of knocking people down so then can stand up taller.) also then how can we be so similar? if he’s both then that means I’M lucifer? ?!?!?!?!? not to mention if he’s not lucifer then i have no idea who lucifer is. could be an asshole, or even a villain!
so, anyway. i’d like some answers or even theories. to these and many more questions. does anyone have any?