Thank you all <3 Sadly today I am down again and trying to cope with that. Maybe is the best to get off social medias and people for some time for me.
Last night I made petition to Belial, yet again didn’t sense anything or got a confirmation. I’m making this petitions on a piece of paper with sigil of spirit and my asking. Meditating while chanting their enn for around 20-30min, then read out loud what I’m asking and signing it with a drop of blood from my finger on their sigil and then burning it and blowing ashes through window. Then when I’m gone to bed I fall asleep with my headphones on and listening to their enn on youtube.
Tonight if I’m home alone I will make same petition to Duke Dantalion for the one last time asking him to make her thinking of me all the time. I asked Belilal to change her emotions and thoughts from positive to negative and to see me as her perfect and only partner. Two nights ago in my petition to Lucifer I asked to guide me through all of this and bring me back my self esteem, strenght and her.
What do you thing should I make petitions to other spirits or this is enough?
It’s weird how I didn’t care of this girl until the moment she left me and then I was acting just like it wasn’t me but someone other. I had many girls and experienced too many breakups but never something like this for this long.
Another thing, I asked universe, spirits or any force for a sign: If they would bring her back to me for a one last chance that I see her initials on number plate. Her initials are A.V. From that moment I’m seeing everyday at least 4,5 or more times V.A. on number plates. VA is town about 100miles from where I live but it’s unusual to see so many cars with that plates. Honestly I don’t know is it just a coincidence, am I attracting this or my mind is just looking for a cars with VA plates OR IT IS A SIGN?