More mantras and meditation. Did some chakra work as well with one of EA’s exercises.
I’ve been working with Neville Goddard’s Lullaby method for the last month or so to try to get a handle on my mental game. I feel the only thing really holding me back from fully embodying my god-sate is my own self imposed limitations. It can be paralyzing to know you really can have anything you want, that you, and only you, are the ultimate power of your reality.
I’ve been musing on intention lately. In magick, a lot of people like to believe intention is the only thing that matters, but the one thing they never seem to tell you, however, is that sometimes, the universe doesn’t give a shit about your intention. In his book, The Elements of Spellcrafting, Jason Miller talks about a student who was performing a Jupiter invocation, but felt depressed and out of sorts. When Miller observed the student, he saw that he was drawing the invoking pentagram of Saturn, instead of the invoking pentagram of Jupiter. Now, the students intention was to invoke Jupiter, and the invocation and prayer were all about Jupiter, yet, because he was drawing the wrong pentagram, he got the energy of Saturn instead, despite what he intended.
In another example, from Miller, in his new book Consorting with Spirits, he talks about how, when he performed the Abramelin Operation, the first thing the angel asked him was what tool he was going to use to call and bind the demons. When Miller told the angel that he “didn’t believe in angels and demons as a dichotomy” so he wasn’t going to do that, the angel told him bluntly, “It doesn’t really matter what you believe, Jason. You must do this or you life will go to shit.”
It seems there is a limit to the power of belief and intention. Sometimes, the universe just says, “no.”
And the adventures continue.