19/2/21
Well, today was interesting.
Started off the adventures with pulling power through my chakras using EA’s exercise from the Soul Travel course, and then meditated on my breath for a few minutes.
Several hours later, after my first meal of the day, I vibrated the magical potential mantra for 20 minutes, and followed it with Ritual 34 of Success Magick.
In the early evening, I meditated to the Concordia Booster for about an hour before supper. I came close to falling asleep and it was a bit difficult to rouse myself.
I took another journey to my Higher Self. This time, I was successful.
I found Sam waiting patiently for me at the World Tree, and after greeting him and giving him some ear scritches, he took his usual place upon my shoulder and we began our ascent to the Upper World.
The climb was quick, and it was easier to get through the membrane than the previous time. We came out upon a mountain top. The air was crisp, and cool, and there was a light breeze blowing. We were on a small, rocky path that lead to a wooden bridge over a crevasse, and on the other side stood a large pyramid made of grey stone.
We crossed the bridge, which was a bit unnerving, and approached the temple. There were statues of large cats, possibly jaguars or panthers, on each side of the entrance, and inside the inner chamber was lit with torches. Sam jumped from my shoulder and padded down a hall and I followed him.
We stepped into what seemed to be the main chamber, in the centre of which was a large throne, in which a regal looking figure was seated. He greeted us, and his voice was warm and rich. Its depth reverberated around the room. Sam walked up to him and jumped on his lap, settling down for some pets. The figure laughed, and did as Sam wanted, lovingly stroking his back. I could hear Sam’s contented purrs even from where I was standing.
The figure looked at me, and smiled. “Welcome back.” He must have noticed my hesitation and nodded. “Yes, I am the one you seek.”
I told him the purpose of my visit, which was to learn about myself, and how to overcome whatever chains are holding back the full expression of my magical power. He nodded again, and stood up, cradling Sam in the crook of his arm. He was tall, probably close to seven feet, with an Egyptian like complexion. It was a big change from my last interaction with him as an wizened old man with a long beard. He wore a tunic adorned with a jewel pendant, and a cloak of shimmering material.
"Come with me, " he bade me, as he began walking down a darkened hallway, which sprang into light as he walked. I followed slightly behind him, a bit wary from my last encounter with the impostor thing. I asked him about the “servant” I met on my last journey and he replied, “Yes, that was unfortunate. They distracted your mind, and were able to redirect you to arrive in the place they wanted you to instead of where you intended.” He didn’t elaborate on who “they” were and I didn’t feel like asking. “However, you don’t have to worry. They are being dealt with.”
He led me to a door which appeared to be locked. My HS produced a key, and slid it into a recess within the wall, and the door opened. Inside I could see statues of figures receding into the distance. We stepped into the room almost side by side, and he spoke, “These are the mortal incarnations I have been connected to since my…creation.” There seemed to be quite a lot of them.
I stopped in front of the figure of a woman in an Egyptian headdress. He eyes seemed to blaze with an inner fire, and I felt myself drawn into her gaze. “Who is this?” I practically whispered, and my Higher Self responded with a cryptic, “Maybe you will find out one day. Come, I want to show you something.” I reluctantly tore my eyes from the fascinating figure, and followed the HS to a far corner of the room. There, on a pedestal, was a thick, leather bound book.
"This, he said, gesturing towards it, “is your Book of Secrets. It contains all that you are, everything about yourself, and your, how do you phrase it? Oh, yes, your spiritual baggage. The information within is…dangerous, a double edged sword.”
I reached out to the book but my hand was deflected by some kind of invisible force. I saw glyphs on the pedestal glowing with a fierce blue fire. My HS sighed, and said, “Perhaps when you are ready, you can look inside.”
“But how will I know if I’m ready? What do I need to do? I’m tired of not getting any answers and my patience is running out. I’m close to just saying, fuck it all, and walking away. How can I break the chains that hold me back?”
My Higher Self looked at me straight. His eyes were a deep green, and bore into me. Then he let out another sigh, and said, “I forget sometimes how limited the mortal perspective can be. You are an intelligent man, but you do not use your most powerful weapon.” He poked his finger into my forehead. “There is nothing holding back your power. There are no chains that bind you. It’s all in your head. You chain yourself. You know this, yet you would prefer to look outside instead of within for the keys.”
“Leave now. Think about what I have told you.” He turned away and walked to the door of the room. He glanced back and said, “Work more with Sam. He has much to teach you, for he is more than just a guide and a protector against those who are not what they seem. So much more.” Then he was gone.
I looked down at Sam. “Guess it’s time to blow this Popsicle stand, huh?” Sam led me out of the room, back down the hall and out of the entrance. We ran across the bridge, before Sam once more took his place on my shoulder, and we descended the Tree.
Once more at the roots of the Tree, I sat down, with Sam on my lap, and wondered about what my HS said. I talked to Sam, asking about things. He stood up and gave me a head bonk, pressing against my chin. I felt an outpouring of love for Sam, and wished I could have a physical version in my life. I sighed and hugged him. There was a change in the tempo of the drum track, signalling it was time to return, so I stood up, promising Sam I would see him again in a few days. Then I opened my eyes.
End of the adventure.
