hi! so at the suggestion of @Mulberry , i decided to try writing as i called upon King Belial. I don’t know how to spell the term used as my language is a bit different, but I wanted to share how the conversation went!
I felt very heavy and i definitely felt myself get tired, which was different from when I called upon Duke Dantalion. I also heard roars from outside. I envisioned him as an anthropomorphic red bull, but as he got on, he shaped it to add accessories like a cape and gold and he made himself have a bit more body hair.
here’s how the convo went, although not exact! i don’t remember what i said, but i wrote down everything he did!
M: did you hear my request?
B: I did, do you have anything to offer?
M: The things I told you i’d give if you did my request in the time I gave
B: Okay, I thought you were a doormat at first
M: I’m a very angry person, actually
B: Rage is good. Powerful. Strong. What makes you mad?
M: when people have wronged me, and when people trick me
B: I see. Do you think i’m an impostor?
M: No, I know it’s you
B: Good, that would upset me.
M: what did you think of the form I gave you?
B: A red bull, not bad, it’s a bit too cartoony, give it more spikes next time.
M: does [my target] love me?
B: yes
B: you don’t think he loves you, why go back?
M: I want an apology
B: An apology for what?
M: for hurting me, for not taking accountability, i want revenge
B: I like your passion. He loves you more than you know.
M: what do you think of him?
B: cowardly. Thoughtless. I do not like him.
M: why are you doing this then?
B: I will because I want to. Because you gave a task.
M: you’ll still do the task?
B: I will. Stop asking. I am on the case. Do not falter. It would not be good to do so.
M: Duke Dantalion and Duke Sallos are working on it too, right?
B: Yes, they have. We are working as one. Don’t be tired. Sleep if you must.
(at this point i was literally closing my eyes and getting super tired cause his energy was pushing at my chest and throat)
M: I’m still angry
B: I know you’re angry. He’s a weakling. Are you sure you want him back?
M: I want an apology, I want him to want me. I want revenge.
B: I can accept that.
M: it’s really you, right?
B: why wouldn’t it be me? do you doubt yourself that much? don’t make me regret taking you on. you have a strong will. i’ll make you stronger in turn.
M: i will be strong, i’ve been strong
B: yes you have been strong, I applaud you for that.
M: Was I bad for [insert something I did to my target]
B: I dont align with mortal mentality, on what humans consider right and wrong. if he made you hurt, we make him hurt. it’s simple. keep fighting. bare your claws.
after this i thanked him and let him go. i felt lighter as he left, but he was actually comforting to me. mostly because i started off demanding because I didn’t want him to see me as a pushover, the last time I tried calling on him I kept apologizing over and over, and this time i had a bit more confidence :))
Thankyou again Mulberry!!! This has been amazing! I still struggle with visualization and astral senses, but I just believe that they’re there whenever I call whether i get a sign or not or feel them there or not :)) i’m gonna practice and update this journal though!!
I’m hoping that because Duke Dantalion and Duke Sallos suggested it means they think he’d really help my target become a better person…and face the consequences for actions he’s done.