I’m not at all unfamiliar to spirit stuff. That’s not to say that I’m a pro or anything on the matter. In fact I’ve always hated seeing spirits and them touching me (very very common of them to appear back then) etc so I don’t know how but I somehow flipped a switch and made myself unable to see them or feel them touch me due to fear. I can still sense them though and feel them in the room etc but I’m not afraid of them anymore.
My “family” was dysfunctional and religious (Catholic). I was indoctrinated obviously. I’d often be called a “demon” by my mother because I was always a very angry child.
I was always on the path of the loner. Always was afraid of people and I was never loved / nurtured. Never happy and coming from a very negative, loveless past. And I do have my traumas.
Eventually I stopped believing the whole Catholic stuff (I never truly entirely believed). I started getting into meditation a lot. And frankly I do have my strange experiences with mediation. Very interesting. But somewhere along the way I stopped mediating because I was dealing with depression/anxiety/suicidal shit.
It took me a long long time to get away from all that ugly past (and dysfunctional family"). Absolutely no contact. (They’re the type of people who love to look like good but stab anyone in the back and play victim when confronted)
And well I’m not new to magick. I’m sure I’ve done my magick throughout my life unaware. But since 2017 I started experimenting with a few types of magick using tools. Like sigils and charging them up with all kinds of stuff like bodily fluids, or blood, or orgasm energy, voodoo, hoodoo, sex magick, and have worked with a small number of demons. To name a few I’ve worked with Lucifer, King Paimon, Belial, Sallos, Bune and I do have my fair share of success stories and failures as well. I’m on the LHP.
I have a few mental disorders, BPD for example, and I can sometimes be strongly emotional and or unstable. But that doesn’t stop me from bettering myself. I mean the past few weeks I’ve been feeling great and anticipated for the present/future.
To conclude, I’m always interested in learning all things LHP. not just demon stuff. Parasites, and all kinds of entities that feed off your energies. As well as protection
(without relying on demons) because somehow I’m always delicious for spirits to feed off me whether I’m at my best or at my worst of emotional stability. Keep in mind that I was protected when I worked with demons. I’d also like to flip the “see spirits” switch back on but first id like to overcome the fear of seeing them. Again I’m not afraid of them but afraid to see them.
Sorry for the big wall of text!