The MidnightRaven has arrived.
I go by many names but here, Raven will do.
I am beginner to black magic, occult, however has been interested in Tarots, divinity and such. I’ve tried Tarot once when I was younger, felt my energy drained and was afraid of approaching it, because I had no idea how to control my energy.
Ever since a child been a little sensitive to the unseen or spirits since a child, this is probably because I was born in the 7th month of Chinese lunar calendar (Hungry ghost festival) where all spirits roam free on earth. Occasionally I am able to sense the spiritual presence but have never gotten a chance to speak or interact with them. Probably because I am too dense to pick up any signs.
The only times I’ve seen or interacted with them was when I am asleep or conscious in my sleep.
Current Goal is to learn more languages, ancient ones in specific so that I can read up more on the ancient gods and to understand how to evoke and work with the angel or demon eventually. I need more knowledge and wisdom in not just this aspect. It is also before I can move on to work on my personal project with creating a story.
For my struggles, I’d say it’s procrastination, anxiety, lacking of passion and commitment (in certain situations) Some may think I am fickle, flighty and disloyal but I doubt they know me well, personally I prefer to explore more options. As it is, personally I’ve been labeled as being too nice and then aloof, I would like to become more unwavering and unyielding, able to speak up my mind without being messy nor confusing and make an actual connection. No longer wish to be step on nor taken advantaged of. I hated the fact that I allowed myself to be swayed by other’s words, only upon realizing that those words weren’t reliable, I have tried to correct it, but ended up in isolation. No more betrayal. No more self-doubts. No more isolation.
For starters, I’ve picked up Paradise Lost, which is due to my obsession with Belial (for a couple of years) and Lucifer (for many years) with thanks to the increasing exposure in pop culture and also because I couldn’t look away from their names.
As of recent, I’ve been hearing a deep hoarse voice from the right side, calling me out… telling me to meet at 8pm… which I have no idea what it really means.
If anyone have any idea what it meant, please message me.
Though, do feel free to message me privately if there is any questions.
Now if you would excuse my messy inconsistent writing and line of thoughts…
I believe slowly but surely, a path is being built…