I am a male 38, from South Africa. I have only recently started practicing again, after a hiatus of nearly 20 years. A hiatus stemming from a preference to drink instead of working on myself and my being. In my teenage years I was extremely intuitive and able to easily astral travel as well as being exceptionally talented in lucid dreaming and visions. Since I stopped drinking some talents have started to come back slowly. For some reason Lilith has called out to me a lot over the past few weeks, even before I quit drinking. I am not yet sure why tho. I have however started to establish a connection with her and daily it becomes stronger.
My main interest is more in demonolatry and dark/black magic.
Current ambitions is to become stronger within myself in a more metaphysical way.
Struggles, focus. I have very strong adhd and ocd tendencies which does intrude on my meditation. Only once Lilith enters my meditation state ( not sure if that is the right wording ) does my focus sharpen and the distractions lesson. Also during my alcoholic days I did piss off a demon, and I would really like to be able to learn a way of making peace with said demon ( I know his name, but will rather not mention it in public )
Currently working through S connolly’s books and have covered quite a few others too. But it would be amazing to find an experienced mentor.
( Fuck i hope that wasnt to long a intro! )