Hello! I just created my account after stalking the forum for a while, iām horrible at introductions but i saw that you had to make one so here i am. i guess iāll just answer the basics listed on the main post.
Iād prefer to not share my real name. Not because iām hiding my practice or anything, iām actually very open about what i practice and anything related to it but iād like to research and ask without it actually being tied to me, so im going by Viper here. I live in Florida, but i was born in Puerto Rico and iām 21, soon to be 22. Nice to meet everyone
Iāve been practicing for quite some time now, every kid grows up making potions and brews out of sticks and mud and random rocks they find but iāve always felt i was being pulled towards the real craft. Obviously at first it was the complete unattainable, the mermaid and werewolf spells. But i started getting serious about it when i was around 13. I wasnāt really sure what i was doing at the time with nobody to guide me and no books in my local library about those topics, and the internet wasnāt too helpful around that time because the information was sparse so i was just sort of winging it with the limited knowledge i had. at around 14/15 i got some money and purchased a few wiccan and pagan books, some on candle and crystal magick, and my first tarot deck that i still own now. I still practice tarot quite frequently but i did stray from wicca at around 16, while i kept some pagan influences. I wanted to work with the goetia around this time but i wasnāt sure how to, and i was still harboring that christian/catholic fear of demons even though i felt a pull since i was younger.
also some small coincidences that i thought were funny, being born on the 13th, being a miracle baby (mother had a miscarriage before me and was told thereās no way sheād be able to get pregnant again let alone carry a healthy baby full term. she had one of her ovaries taken out. and about 6 years later by some miracle or somebodyās will, i was born a healthy full-term baby on the 13th of august, which is left handers day according to google, by the only ovary my mother had leftā¦her left ovary. and i managed to be the only left handed person in my whole family.)
anyway, by 17 i got over the fear but i still didnāt attempt to work with the goetia because i thought they would be offended since i was still living in a very religious household. but i had started to work with my ancestors and practiced some santeria because my mother had mentioned my great great grandmother practiced santeria. nobody else in my family had because it scared them, but my mother said that all the women in our family had strong intuition or some sort of sixth sense, but her nor my grandmother or great grandmother wanted to give it any attention or develop it as they thought it was against god. My mother has always had dreams before a baby is born, never been wrong about a single one.
iāve been trying to develop and refine it for years, but i struggle with meditation a lot as i have ADHD and struggle to focus, but iāve been getting help for it. i also struggle with insane self-doubt and doubt in my craft as well as lust for results that i find nearly impossible to get rid of but im definitely trying.
anyway, currently i have worked with Lucifer, Lilith, King Paimon, Focalor, The Morrigan, Hekate, Medusa, Isis, and a few others that i canāt remember right now off the top of my head. iām not sure what i am or what tradition i follow really. i do call myself a witch, though.
as far as ambitions, id be lying if i said i didnāt want success and abundance, but i just feel like thereās much more to life spiritual speaking and id love to know what that would be like for me. id also love to help others however i am able to and make this world a much easier place to live for everyone.
Maybe one day Iāll give out my name and maybe share a picture or two of myself but today is definitely not that day. I hope this wasnāt too much information, I just figured iād cover all bases but iām sure i missed something and to be honest a lot of the background was definitely more watered down so i donāt bore everyone or write a whole novel. if thereās anything else anyone would like to know iād be glad to answer!