A great link that you included in your writing, thanks!
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Hear hear 
very well said @Sovereign. Iām a newbie myself but know that without putting in the work and dedicating time to study, youāre not going to get very far or youāre playing with fire.
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Welcome aboard 
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Iām not going to lieā¦ I originally came here to find a lust/love spell. But the more I learn through the forum and topics, the more I want to try other things (like visualization, evocationā¦). It really is a great place to talk to experienced people and to learn that some others are having the same struggle as you, AND that there is a way to learn and improve. Itās amazing
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I think this topic is a really great reminder to check our motives. I ended up here out of a desire to connect with Lucifer as my chosen deity as much of my personal divination work has been pointing me in this direction. I actually ended up here after a google search on what offerings to make to Lucifer. I ended up in this thread specifically after searching for a revenge spell and now Iām a bit torn so Iād love your take on it. My fiancĆ© thinks I should just let karma take its course (he follows the RHP) but I feel a little differently because of recent events. I apologize because this is going to be long though I will try to keep it to just the important facts.
This all started in late October/early November of 2020. Over a ing kids vacuum cleaner. This woman used to be my best friend but she got suuuuuper weird after I gave birth to my son. She has four kids already and had her tubes tied after she had an abortion with what would have been #5 (no judgment, just a fact I feel is pertinent because of reasons Iāll get into) about a year before I got pregnant with my son.
Now my pregnancy was AWFUL. I vomited up almost everything I ate. I lost 30 lbs in the first trimester and at the time I gave birth I was maybe 5 pounds heavier than at the start. It was not the ābeautiful, magical experienceā a lot of women talk about. I vomited blood at least weekly. It was a nightmare. Thank goodness my son was born healthy. Anyway. She was supposed to throw me a baby shower but dropped the ball so my in laws had to.
We had made her and he husband our sonās godparents. She constantly talked down to me because she āknew betterā than I did because she had 4 kids. After my so. Was born she told me that she thought of him as more her kid than mine. She also told me that I was abusing him by feeding him both breast milk and formula even though our pediatrician (the same exact person HER kids see) told Me to do exactly that because I couldnāt produce enough to properly feed him but some breast milk was better than none. That was just the start of it. She constantly criticized my choices but I just brushed it off. I should have cut ties after she told me I was abusing my kid but Iām loyal to a fault. This went on for months, lots of backhanded compliments and thinly veiled criticisms. It all came to a head when I didnāt go over to her place for Halloween. I was tired, my fiancĆ© was tired, my son was grumpy. Mind you sheād only ever been to my house ONCE. We ALWAYS had to go over there. And we would always bring something. A bottle of wine, pizza, whatever. This is important later.
We had a mutual friend who was pregnant with her first kid. Apparently her baby shower was no kids but I didnāt have anyone to watch my son so I asked if I could bring my son. She said absolutely and she was looking forward to seeing us both. The morning of my ex best friend (letās call her XBF) texted me to see what I had gotten out pregnant friend (PF). I told her and mentioned that I was bringing my kid who was about 9 months old at the time. So still a baby. She freaked out on me and PF because she was jealous she could t bring any of her kids (aged 7 to 3). She didnāt understand why she couldnāt bring HER baby too (3 is not a baby, sorry b). She raised so much hell for PF that PF asked me not to bring my kid. I told her I couldnāt go because I didnāt have anyone to watch him so we could grab lunch at some later point. XBF then got all fake saccharine sweet to me because sheād bullied PF into getting her way saying that she hoped Iād be there and she couldnāt wait to see me because she knew I needed to get out of the house etc. etc. obviously I didnāt go. She even apologized for being so horrible to me and that I didnāt deserve the way sheād treated me. She had also been trying to bully me into joining under her in her stupid MLM when I had already started my own business but she apparently needed ājust one more personā to join her downstream and she seemed sure she could make that person me. Yeah. Nope. Iām not stupid.
So a bout a month later I make a comment of my mother in lawās Facebook page about one kids vacuum having slightly better suction than another. This had NOTHING to do with XBF. She messaged me absolutely losing her shit on me saying that I was insulting HER vacuum. She then went on this huge diatribe saying that it was a disgusting mother and that many of our mutual friends thought so. And a whole bunch of other horrible things. She had borrowed my expensive makeup airbrush and Iād left a favorite sweater at her place. She threw them in the trash for me to go get. I refused and told her that if she didnāt return them to my door I would file a police report. She didnāt like that and did bring them to my house but when I wouldnāt answer the door (because she would have physically attacked me) she chucked the airbrush at the door as hard as she could, breaking it. She has video of her doing so and we have text messages about her bragging about it as well. After that she proceeded to drag my name through to mud to anyone who would listen. Saying my fiancĆ© and I would use drugs around our infant son, that our house was filthy. She said I was a mooch (yeah, thatās why we always brought things and bought your family dinner). She messaged my MIL and told her that my fiancĆ© sold her E but he ripped her off because it was actually adderal and that she bought it because she was concerned he was dealing drugs. Meanwhile sheās abusing her benzos and drinking and smoking pot arohnd her kids. She and her husband also take E around their kids but sure, Iām the bad parent.
And thatās not even the worst of it. Because she was angry with me (partially because I called her and her husband trash people, hey if the dumpster fitsā¦) she called CPS on us. Even though she told me she would never call CPS on anyone unless the child were actively in danger or being seriously neglected/abused because she had already had her kids taken twice and had just gotten her two oldest back about a year prior. They were in foster care for 2.5 years first because her oldest was born addicted to crack and then again because her husband was physically abusive.
We ended up having to jump through CPSās hoops and they ruled that the accusations were unfounded. We got that news just before Xmas, which was the best present ever.
Ever since then I have become terrified of letting anyone near my family for fear of something like that happening again. I donāt really have friends anymore. Honestly Iām pretty sure XBF is going to end up doing something similar to PF because sheās a freaking psycho and is jealous she canāt have any more babies. Sheās OBSESSED with the baby stage. She pawns two of her kids off on her in laws so she never has all of them at once. She makes her kids go to bed at 4:30 pm because she wants to go out partying and/or doesnāt want to deal with them. I could have called cps on her and they likely would have taken her kids away but if they did sheād lose them forever and I couldnāt do that to her kids. I loved her sons like they were my own (I didnāt get to know her daughters that well because they werenāt around).
Iām pretty sure she paid someone to curse us. Once I did a curse removal our lives improved drastically. I could feel a lot of the psychic attacks she was lobbing at us too. Things were fairly quiet until about a month ago when I discovered she had unblocked me on Facebook (most likely to stalk me because a lot of my videos are public because my aunt likes to share them. I blocked her on FB and then on IG immediately. The next day she tried to hack into both profiles (I got attempt notifications that came from her neighborhood).
So thatās where we are now. Sheās obviously not going to just leave me alone. Iām out over $200 for my airbush and Iām terrified sheās just going to call cps on me again. So I feel like revenge is 100% the answer at this point.
To those of you who took the time to read this, thank you. I apologize if this was the wrong place to post this. Iād love some opinions/insight on what next steps to take
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Nah. Magick can and will get you out of this mess.
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I have also been wishing i could get magick working without any work or effort put in and im hoping eventually i wonāt be so lazy because i really want to get good at magick.
Seems like magick practice is complicated with what you might call a lust for instant results.
Yes and itās a real bastard! You have to workout your own ways around it. āLust of resultā fucked me over for years. Making multiple sigils and not knowing their purpose is a good way to begin learning about ālust of resultā and how to avoid it. Bitch-slapping your own face is another, very effective method.
Al.
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Thanks. Yeah its hard to even meditate for a few seconds without seeing results from it. Like if i needed to visualize energy flowing through my body or even just focus on my breathing as a meditation,i noticed i would quit before three minutes and try again next week. I know i need to get past that nonsense somehow. I do seem to be better at it than i was until recently though.
Hello Mr or Mrs or Miss Sovereign, I too am new here,
I was in invited to optionally create my photo profile and say a little about myself but alas Iām afraid I havenāt figured out how to yet but when I do I will definitely say a little bit about myself nice to speak to you 
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Kind regards
Tinka
Hello to you too, you new freaks 
Reply with it on here:
I sent you a PM earlier with explanations in, please read it, itās not just some boring automated nonsense! 
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