Killing yourself is a very negative thing to do and it could be a magnet for negative energies which is what I’m trying to avoid. If I’m going to go I want to pass in peace.
Yeah talk to your higher self, not a spirit. But you seem so closed off (no offense). You asked for advice and then when people give it you don’t accept it. But like someone else said “the grass always seems greener on the other side” the alternative isn’t always better. I kinda like earth but that’s just me. Maybe you need a change of scenery or something, research and get out there and recognize the beauty in small things
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You can not know that,it becomes a gamble after that.
@LightFire Well then take your sweet time and develop yourself, when you go don’t come back.
Also, you could make your own path, that’s what I do. John is basically saying to try different things and if it doesn’t work, make up your own spirituality, you don’t need to be tied to a religion or specific path
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Ok how is your general emotional state ?
Excuse me if I seem standoffish or difficult. I don’t feel like any path is the right way for me so I figure I’d ask around. This has been helpful.
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Dysthymia. I feel empty all the time from people pushing me away and being difficult to get close to. The kind of people that make you feel silly for caring.
Ok so from that , there’s not going to be a lot of clarity , so once you get into higher vibrations , you will be fed ideas and guidance from source energy
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All right. I guess I have my work cut out for me then.
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Good luck with everything! It’s a long journey but make small changes and it’ll boost your vibration, then you’ll be on your way and gain a lot more clarity.
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Your only seeing the negative of this world and it has so much to offer if you take the time to look.
Again, I repeat myself on this forum - Why do people give up their power so easily, who has the ability to make you feel less than you are. No one that you don’t give the power too.
Don’t take this the wrong way, but people have their own problems and don’t have a responsibility to hear yours. Who are you to them?
You attract people to you subconsciously based on the energy you give off, if those people are in your life, you put them there so make new friends.
Suffering is a choice and it’s usually the ego that does the suffering not you. Buddhism was one of the many bridges that led me to this site in the first place and I would definitely recommend whatever your path that you read a little on the subject. There’s lots of demons in there too LOL. It gave me a very strong foundation for my craft and a solid platform for the Gatekeepers to work with me in my life.
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You’d see negativity all the time too when the people around you are so petty.
People don’t “give it up,” they get bullied so it’s easy for them to feel helpless.
I was supposed to be very close to them because of our situation but they acted like they have better things to do than to care about my problems. If you’re going to have a close relation with someone don’t make them suffer. If they don’t have a responsibility to me then why not attract people that really love me instead of finding people that are also awful outside of my “close” ones as well? That’ be real nice to find people that actually want my life to be great and fulfilled.
The first time I met a certain person they hit me until I cried. This was when I was a baby before I could even talk. How do I attract people like that the FIRST TIME I ever met them??? How could I attract these kinds of people before I was even born??? If I had a choice in the matter I wouldn’t have chosen them to be part of my life.
Well I’d rather not suffer and I’m doing things IRL to change but these changes come slower than I would like and I really want to move on with my life. If it were that simple then I would have snapped my fingers and wished for sunshine and rainbows long ago. Some people don’t have as many options as others but I’m pulling through as best I can. I feel like I never really got the chance to shine and I’d like to feel in control of my life for once.
Don’t take this the wrong way, but have you seen a doctor? I’m not talking about ramming pills down your throat, but seeing about getting some talking therapy.
I know this is a board that deals with magickal solutions to problems, but it amazes me that no one here seems to suggest an official and professional solution.
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I’ve been to two counselors for several months and have taken some medication as advised by a doctor and while they’ve been helpful I’ve felt these sentiments for many years so I feel like it would take more than material things such as talking or medication to really power through this. I figure spirituality, magic, and the like could help but I genuinely don’t feel a “pull” towards any specific kind of spirit or spiritual path. I guess I just need to work on my energy body before inviting in spiritual elements into my life. I appreciate the concern. 
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Life can get pretty rough.
Maybe I could pull a card or two about it.
What do you think?
If you’re doing any othe following you are creating your own hell:
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being on social media for more than an hour or so a day, especially Tumblr or Instagram, or anything that you don’t go into looking to either receive or impart specific knowledge, then log-out once that’s done
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eating foods your grandparents would not recognise, or eating one specific type of food to excess, which is usually more than about 4 ounces at a time
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thinking constantly about problems you have no practical ability to solve, whilst simultaneously refusing to help others in a practical manner. Too much reading about global warming for example, too little offering to help elderly neighbours dig their garden, and include a little wild patch for the local butterflies.
Doing things for other people who need you is the best remedy for most human woes, for multiple metaphysical reasons.
If that sounds like hard work because you’re too good for us lowly earthlings 
and you want more info on how to feel even worse, and therefore better than us, I highly recommend this guide:
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Hey, I can understand you pretty well. I’m fighting alone in my life since I was 3 years old. Was a single raised kid with mom and dad working school was difficult. Every friend betrayed me. Now I’m still alife and has several breakdowns.
The thing that has been letting me life was not to let my parents drown in sadness. What I can say to you is. Just don’t give a shit about rules and community. Seek out for real friends and if they are just 3 guys it’s okay because they won’t betray you. Do whatever you want and change your surroundings after your own will. Let those who let you down and keep fighting. Some day you will find the person’s that keep up with you!
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That’s the thing. People pushed me away a lot growing up so I felt like people didn’t want me. Sometimes I’d get along with other kids and things would be ok at best but my relationships with them weren’t really close.
I reached out to someone in recent years and they threw my kindness in my face. That really affected me for quite a while but I got through it. It’s still difficult to be sociable since starting conversations was always a challenge for me. It’s hard to be happy when it’s often like that.
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I’m not talking about people in your life, I mean actual voluntary work of some kind. 
Something physical, to take you out of yourself and your own problems.
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Sure thing.
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