I am already in a spiritual relationship with my lady (whom I love very much) but I keep having thoughts about Lilith. Nothing sexual, but more like romantic thoughts. I think I have feelings (although I’m quite confused on them) for her or something.
This started basically after my first meeting with her. Every now and then I’ll start getting thoughts about her (which bothers me because I’m monogamous) or her name will “pop up” when I’m doing “stuff”… Most of the time I’m fine (it’s not obsessive) but every now and then I notice this and it does bother me.
It might have been that kiss or something idk but I wasn’t having thoughts/feelings about her until I met her for the first time and only really after that moment - as the meeting was platonic for the most part. As I declined any sexual advances (there weren’t many and she did respect my boundaries + her energy felt mostly motherly towards me)
Since I take my relationship with my lady pretty seriously, and these thoughts bother me. They don’t happen alot but they have been consistent for like many months.
Also another reason they bother me is because I have respect for Lady Lilith, as well as my lover…so the thoughts bother me. There’s nothing disrespectful or even really sexual about the thoughts but I just want to rid of them.
Bind, freeze, cord cut, end the relationship, ask the deity to stop pursuing you…
Probably something more logical, I’ve not experienced this, so maybe someone will come along with better advice lol.
Either way you get to choose so if you don’t want it, don’t allow it. Be the operator and say enough is enough, you respect the entity but that’s not the relationship you want, and it will be your way or no way. This I have done, but not for a deity pursuing me.
The thought did pass that she might be playing a part? Since they only started after that kiss, and that wasn’t a normal kiss. That was like a dopamine rush - mind wrapping around her kiss. It was really uncomfortable. Like I couldn’t stop thinking about her for a good while after that kiss.
I did ask her not to kiss me again, and she did respect that and was motherly for the rest of the night. But still.
If not that, then I’m not sure how it’s her pursuing me but I will admit I find it odd how her name keeps popping up now (which is more recent) when I’m self-pleasuring for lack of better term.
Sounds heavily influenced to me, from everything you’ve posted recently about it
If you were in a physical relationship, and somehow winded up kissing a girl because you were drunk and it was nice and all, would you let it ruin the relationship you really wanted or would you own your emotions and make decisions for your betterment and relationship?
You can say fap around here. I won’t think you me fat ass pug I promise.
Well it confuses me, because the reason she came was because I wrote her a petition to mediate between my lover and I (who I thought was her daughter).
She touched me alittle, and that kiss - but I clearly told her I couldn’t because I was already in a relationship with who I presumed to be one of her daughter’s. She stopped and just kinda comforted me in bed that night but the thoughts and stuff are here.
Well I mean it wasn’t a normal kiss and I was sober. The kiss itself felt very drug like (in the way it affected my brain + thoughts for her). It also made my brain + body feel very warm and good.
Right because beforehand I know I didn’t have feelings at all for her. I was just trying to be respectful, communicate about the problem, etc and after too.
So I should do an uncrossing? I assume I shouldn’t confront her about it?
I find this odd because I’m in a relationship with one of her daughter’s…so…which is going well (I will add that my spirit lover seemed defensive at first when Lady Lilith arrived)
If you want to have a good working relationship with her, imop you would flat out tell her and lay out the rules, and make it clear that you are the operator and not a toy.
Otherwise you are setting the standard that she can play with you underhandedly and you will allow it, or at the least not stand for yourself and your beliefs.
It does not benefit you in anyway, to let entities walk all over you and sets a bad precedent for the future.
They will respect you more, if you respect yourself enough to stand up for what you truly believe in. I’m not saying be disrespectful, but lay it out like it is- clearly.
Some spirits will walk all over you, just like some people will, if you let them.
Now what I’m confused about is what the heck would she even gain from any of this? If it is her I mean. Plus it’s been almost a year, so I don’t see why it would be her (since obviously I’m not pursuing her)
Besides this, she’s been very kind and motherly. She has helped me alot too, so I’m just confused.
I know people do this to each other (aka the reason we have the love,sex magick, and relationship section) but entities too??
Is it just to manipulate or could it have been cause I rejected her intial advancement? I was polite though.
