Hi! 
So, for your question, I assumed that since you were asking me a very, very unusual question, it was most likely that you had to voluntarily start a process of shamanic dismemberment. So I asked the tarot as a question: “What is the progress of Oddnan’s shamanic dismemberment work?” instead of: “Is Oddnan in the middle of some kind of shamanic dismemberment process?”. It’s a question that could be answered with a yes or no, so for the tarot to be accurate, I modified the question 
So for this kind of question, I use a more complex drawing method than before. When you go to see the reading, don’t panic, take a deep breath, everything will be fine. I think 
Here is the picture:
So, now things are getting complicated, we call this reading: a Constellation, at least in France.
Theme card: The Sun.
First row — Beginning of process:
Judgment → The High Priestress → The Hierophant → The Cart → The Emperor → Temperance → The Fool (the most important card).
Second row — Transitional side:
The hermit → The Moon → The World → The Hanged Woman → The Tower → The Devil → Justice.
Third row — Finality:
Wheel of Fortune → The Lovers → Death → The Empress → Force → The Star → The Magician (another very important card).
The thematic card being the Sun, this one shows me that you have a very calm and open approach to this shamanic dismemberment. You accept it and you even want it to be done more quickly, but you know that there is no point in rushing, so you let time do things.
So it is without a priori that you progress in this field, however, you seem to be asking yourself several questions, it will be more than a month or two since you started this work?
What I was able to analyze from the first row is the fact that at the beginning of this process, you had a lot of doubts, moreover, it seems to me that you were very critical about your work (a ritual for example) and to make sure that it was well done, you did it several times.
It was after listening to your intuitions that you stopped questioning yourself too much and as a result, you obviously did several other rituals about your energy (and even your feminine and sexual energy, that’s what I get from it). During this time, did you receive a pay or something material? I’m not sure what to think, but in any case, you must have won something that gave you a little boost of will despite the apparent lack of results.
Is there a male figure blocking you in your life? Or at least, who restricts your ambitions? I feel like an ex or a boyfriend, I don’t know. The fact that you can’t do everything when this person is around and you’re only a tiny result frustrates you (a lot?). I felt through your energy was tense, it wouldn’t be impossible that you got confused with this man shortly before posting your message on this post. It’s even if it makes you want to ask the question: “Should I stop doing that? I don’t have a result and it prevents me from doing completely what I want… Maybe I should deal with this later…”
It’s also completely possible that I’m wrong, in these cases, too bad 
And so, we come to the most important card, the Fool. It’s important because it represents where you are on the path to progress. Currently this card is on house 8, which houses Justice. So in other words, it’s not easy to understand. But for everyone to understand, you are currently in a phase of very slight depression, however, it is a process that precedes what will happen next, a rebirth where a profound transformation and/or evolution will take place, usually for the better. As shown by the number 8, which is the sign of infinity, and therefore of rebirth.
After that, you may isolate yourself a little, take advantage of the calm and silence to be able to think better and act on what you really want to do next. Continue? Take a break? Stop? An important phase of reflection. This isolation will allow you to better understand who you are, and therefore to really know what you really need to be happy.
You would end up completing what you dreamed of, the result you wanted is slowly starting to come true. You may feel dizzy and nauseous at this time, probably due to the exchange and mixing of energy.
There, I come across the central card which represents the obstacle to be overcome, the real obstacle, i. e. oneself. Here, she is represented by the Hanged Woman, it’s quite amusing. It is a card that I often find in front of people who are in spiritual quest. Do you usually feel “trapped”, stuck? Basically, you don’t know what to do to get results and that makes you undecided, right? It’s something you can do today, but generally it’s complicated to loosen up without results.
What this fight against yourself, which you will have fought fervently, will bring, will be the destruction of a part of yourself (not negatively), freeing you from certain ideas that could precisely make you stuck. However, what follows this phase in many people is the fear of moving forward when they have no idea what to expect after such a change in their own person. It is a time that will require courage to take the steps towards true success.
“Reap what you have sown” is the phrase from the card of Justice. If you plant the right seeds, they will bloom into a beautiful flower. It is also nice to see that this card makes the transition from the transitional phase to the purposes.
You’re obviously going to take karma right in your face. The key is to know how to manage this influx of energy and positive and/or negative waves that may occur; however, this will bring about a change on the material level, and obviously on the level of relationships. You’re going to have to make a complicated choice, but it’s just another challenge. Memorize well that no choice is good or bad, they are and that’s all, and that’s already very good.
This choice will likely lead to the loss of a relationship, but it will be for the best and will only be reborn once again.
Then listen to your creativity. Create in different ways, it has a lot of ways of giving life to something. In short, listen to what surrounds you, your environment, nature and create with it something you will be proud of.
It is now after having endured so much hardship that you are approaching the end of this journey (which is just a shamanic dismemberment and not a great Greek epic). You will have strength and endurance that will reach your heart.
The card of the star concludes this reading in a very beautiful way. It is with serenity that your body and mind will radiate from your success the things you have created and the people you love, making you in turn calm and full of inspiration, making you want to start a new adventure.
Well… it took a long time to write 
The very last card, represented here by the magician, tells us how you think things will go. And I have a feeling that you were overestimating yourself a little, maybe I’m wrong, but what I feel when I look at this card. Feeling like you have potential and the tools to do it doesn’t mean it’s going to be faster and easier than for others
I’ll tell you all one thing, I wouldn’t do this kind of draw for everyone 
more than two hours of work is a long time.
I hope I helped you and it will have answered your question, but if ever, yes, it seems to me that you have already started a process of shamanic dismemberment
PS : If you really want to do a reading for me, I thank you in advance. Here’s my question: "What behavior should I adopt to take care of all the spirits around me while keeping time for me?"
