I don’t think it’s always conscious, people sign contracts and do things they are not ready for, or do not agree with.
When I was in second grade my mom put me and my sister in after school church club. She actually hated church as a child and always talks about how awful it is.
She did it because she couldn’t afford a baby sitter, or maybe she thought we would be good and comply.
Anyways, the uh pastor or whatever basically asked the whole group who had given their soul to Jesus for salvation, me my sister and one other kids were the only ones who did not.
She then asked us if we wanted to save our souls today and be accepted by Jesus for salvation. Be bathed in his eternal love etc etc.
I actually was against the idea, I suppose I had a choice, but with all those beaty eyes looking at me and being told it was the right thing to do I buckled.
Lmao. I remember she showed us some book with colors and she asked me what it meant relating to go…I basically said “Jesus likes colors I guess”.
Then she asked to do the prayer and asked why I wanted to go to heaven.
I said: “Well I don’t wanna get in trouble”.
Apparently that was the wrong reason…
The memory didn’t come back until I got into this path. I was so paranoid about accidentally giving away or corrupting my soul without permission.
One time when I evoked Azazel I was shown a huge scheme. I saw how everything that had happened, had to happen to lead to that point.
I remember looking at Azazel in a sort of oversoul way.
To human me it was the past when I set up earth (we experience time linear most of the time but in that moment it was all fluid), during the evocation it was simultaneous.
Like I saw how all my choices before I was alive and each led to the moment of realization.
Azazel and me joke, thank God for church!
I’m sure we would have connected if I was not Christian but I get it now. I saw the flaws of what I had been fed and chose to broke away.
What makes me an adversary is the choice.
What makes them sheep (in my opinion) is partially their choice. They are more concerned with following the masses and not questioning.
At the same time I understand how it can happen.
Ultimately soul pacts should be thought out, and I do not agree with dedication of a soul to anyone but oneself. Self deification.