10/01/19
So I finally made up my mind & overcame my fear of evoking Lucifer.
Maybe I did something wrong, or it was just his choice to present himself the way he did, but nothing “spectacular” happened.
I didn’t expect him to show up like the grotesque creature so many describe him to be. It’s just that even the energetic changes around and within me were much more pleasant and kind of soothing than I thought.
My intention wasn’t to make him do something for me, but to introduce myself and get a feeling for his energy. To get to know him and ask for some guidance in regards to my ascension journey.
He didn’t disappoint me, but left me with more questions… (what I kinda expected).
In a nutshell, what he said was:
- - invest time! Study & write down what you learn and experience (hint on my BOS which is collecting dust)
- - strengthen your will & dedication through practice
- - learn divination
- - find out more about your heritage. There's magic & knowledge to be found.
I asked him whether I should talk to my ancestors and his response was: “You can start there. Look into Necromancy.”
He also told me that Lilith would open the gate and that I should contact Naamah but be ready for transformation. (This part is rephrase as I almost lost the connection due to dizziness and getting tired.
This is where I am a bit confused now. Talk to my ancestors, look into Necromancy AND the Qliphoth? Why Necromancy? And should I do it all at the same time? Isn’t that a bit too much?!
I have never been really interested in Necromancy. Psychic Vampirism is more what I wanted to learn… He should know that, but I guess there’s a reason he points me in this direction. And now the Qliphoth… Yeah, I started reading Karlsson’s book and am researching & learning as much as I can (without taking notes, hence his pun of writing I guess) , but don’t feel ready to start working through it.
Sure, I don’t want to be an “armchair magician”, but I also don’t want to risk losing my mind and go insane if I start working on these things all at once. I just can’t - I’m a single mom and have to raise a 6 year old!
On the other hand, V. K. Jehannum said in one of his videos something like: “If such a spirit tells you to do X, you better f*cking DO it!” There must be a reason why he told me to look into this I guess. I mean, I’ve been asking for guidance not reassurance of things I don’t know or understand yet…
I don’t mean to be disrespectful, it just feels intimidating and like A LOOOT to handle. But maybe he knows more about me than I do…
We’ll see where this leads me, but I think I’ll start with my ancestors.