Here’s my experience of you on an energetic level, I’ll be as radically honest as possible. Take this as you will, I hope it’s beneficial.
I sense you have hangups about love deeply like most people have hangups about money. Deep down you believe you will never find true lasting love in this life and that goes into every working you perform. I’ve seen several of your threads and this is the energy I get off you.
You attract many people that are nearly ideal, yet they’re “so close, so far away.” Either they go nuts, or life does and pulls them from you and it’s happened ever since you can remember. I see many of the same qualities in you as I do myself on a strange level. We work the same currents, target in a similar way, and overall you can manifest what you desire, yet the core belief evades you. Look at the pattern and know where the flaw is. It isn’t your magick that needs to change, it’s you. Your belief is carried into every encounter you have, and so it is.
Work alchemy, not more love spells. You will not gain what you seek as you are currently looking for it. Nothing you do externally will change this. Resolve your inner beliefs about love and it will effortlessly fall into place, whether him or another. Get out of your way.
Not sure where that came from but it applies to me too. Thanks for being a mirror