i don’t really know where to start, i’ll just ask the question first i guess: since you started practicing magick and evolved, have you found mundane, casual dating kinda ‘beneath’ you?
i started my journey last year, like a lot of guys whose ex left them - i was looking for a way to bring her back to me… in the end i chickened out when i noticed the spell working and did a ritual to undo my love spell. after that i found that demon magick is really a great way for self-transformation and started working on building myself from the ground up.
after a while i was getting really lonely, so i called upon 2 demons to ask to meet someone who’s like my ex (i really fucked our connection up after that love spell…) - it was like 2 weeks after my request that i matched someone on Tinder and we talked all night (unlike with other matches) and met up the next day, got laid, and started dating. the synchronicities were insane! most of the stuff she liked, what her family’s situation was, her state of mind, views, nearly everything was the same and i could ‘relive’ my previous relationship with someone new.
it wasn’t really the same per se, but it was really close, but as time went on, i started noticing things and remembering stuff from the previous relationship that made me think… i felt like that i changed myself with alchemy so much that i shouldn’t be in a relationship like this. i felt like my ‘vibration’ was too high for people who are pretty negative all the time, rant about their job, family situation, etc. - after realizing this and beating myself over if i should continue with this relationship or not i finally decided to break it off.
after this i started focusing on myself and my magick again and because of that i went back to the basics, to master foundational skills, but although i feel great on an overall level, i’m still lonely and craving human contact… since the breakup i’ve been to 1 tinder date which was the most intellectually stimulating conversation i had in a while and it hit me then that this is what i’m missing - someone who’s stimulating me not only on a sexual and emotional level, but intellectually too… but when i look at online dating profiles a lot of the girls’ eyes or their bio say a lot about their insecurities, emotional immaturity and other stuff i don’t want to deal with anymore…
i know that i’m not better or above them, i just feel too different to even try with a ‘normal’ girl, i want someone who i can talk to about magick, spirits, and my other passions and who won’t look at me like they’re thinking about calling some mental hospital hotline…
so my real question here is, where do you find something, someone you desire, when the cards clearly say that you’re looking for love in all the wrong places?